forward in reverse

phantom pains expressing from my heart reign far
trying to escape from this hell no place to turn
wondering when the day will shine bright
in darkness i fell no way to get out
looking around this life i wonder why me

why must i go through things others can't see
voices i hear in my brain explain that i am not brave
fighting these demons everyday wishing they would go away
today the light is not shining nor is it thinking sane
pain of you demons must leave and leave the same

through the world i search for a way home
getting lost at every turn not finding the throne
uncertain of my future and scared of my past
these feelings i have must go and go fast
the time is life stands still no moving no breaking

just lying there dead no sounds are escaping
can we break the silence of the lambs and sing free
can we burst forth from this endangerment and be safe
crying eyes come forth through the wind of the brave
were all spirits in hell just finding a way

make it past the walls of death supreme beings not far
alienate the trees and make them bleed green
can't taste the sunshine can't feel the rain
this life i lead fills me with pain

my younger one watches as my brain explodes no faith
god try and save me i have to be brave
she tries to give me the strength to live
tries to give me the way of living no sin
the gate stands closed as i face my fear

this being of darkness excercised my heart to capacity
breaking these bonds i have chained to my feet
walking freely away but i dare not speak
for they might find me and take hold once more
i must look around every corner, and through every door
this life today is the one i live so far, still scared there's so much more