Oded on pain

 
you couldn't understand the story
unless i told you
see pain I've withstand today
believing in the better tomorrow
the tears i once shed take longer to come
the heartache and break built up
to the point where I'll write about the pain
it will delay itself for quite sometime
my pain can hit a boiling point
its like popping pills
i'll take one dose after the other
i find myself trying to evaluate
where it all started
i remember when it could take a toll
now I've put up a guard
it's like a computer firewall
what i don't want to get in won't
I'll numb myself
to it so it removes the stain until later
I've been told things
that lose meaning in years
time and time again
i dissect them like biology class
i know i don't stand alone
yet i fight so negative thoughts don't overcome me
in 08 i heard a lie that tried to overcome me
while i was facing my depression
saying why not end all this pain
i climbed that mountain with prayer and
lots of love
i  closed my eyes saw everyone close to me crying
that's when i said i couldn't allow the devil to win
i knew i couldn't allow all the pain i had to come to the surface
cause it would consume and i would no longer exist
as i fought the mightiest fight in my life
i used love to over pain and i triumph over it
became victorious