Its Whatever

sometimes i feel like givin up
put the. 44 to my brain
pull the trigger
now i can  finally "blow up"
naw scratch that im just bitter
a little insane at the moment
im in a shitty mood fuck the world
is what im screaming in my soul
nobody knows me like i know me
so i guess thats why i stay by myself
cuz everybody else just sees a bum ass scrub ass nigga
but naw that aint me holmes
i got heart but today im feelin torn apart
why the world so cold?
why god put me in this shit hole?
damn im feelin suicidal as you can tell
the notion from the words im spillin from my soul
right now i really need an angel
because im really thinkin heavy bout endin this shit
i cant maintain anymore man im losing my grip
please oh lord send me help from above
lift me up forgive me and bless me with
the strength to carry on