Carnival

I wish I could sell you my dreams .
May you get lost in the fury of  winter .  
Frozen In your brittle anger .
In the sewers one day we all may float .
They all float down hear .
Down deeper in this mysterious gloom  .
I wish this one day it may pass.
I spend all my days terrified by reality.
Constantly dodging all the cosmic debris.
I am patiently waiting for the bottom to fall out .
Being driven up the wall I hope to fall and break my neck.
When will this all stop I can't say .
All I know Is that it was there before me .
The needle was before us all .
The needle with its wicked way .
Wagging all of us like the tail of a angry cat.
Licking its paws when it's done  with us.
Walking  proudly away from the slow dismembered mouse
That's me !
My life is no longer my own .
It belongs to the liquid that simmers in the spoon.
The devil don't even want my soul .
I'm just a clown from a bazaar hell.
Its like being chased by evil stuffed animals .
A reject from a drug induced zoo .
I wish I could tell you it will all be ok .
You and I know it's not .
It will never be .
I can not find the end .