Dark feelings

Stranded, alone, cold
Wishing for death
An everyday reality
To fill my boring monotony
I’m so sick of living here
Facing myself in a broken mirror
The numbness has started to wear
Again, I feel my soul begin to tear
This isn’t just some bad dream
This is the real fucking deal
Something is wrong with me
Something I just can’t tell
Maybe it’s the coffee or the nicotine
That holds the last stand of string
Keeping me together in this world
The weight of burden is about to burst
Causing this gun and my head to converse
I just want these emotions to stop. JUST STOP
Let me piece my life back together
The shrink gives me more pills. Addiction
I can’t get happy with one pill
Surely the dragon needs his fill
So I stop the meds, seeing a doctor
And my mood just keeps getting darker
As that light at the end of the tunnel
Keeps getting smaller and smaller