failure of the digestive system

i eat away at this feeling
of despair
but it swallows me
when i take the last bite.

i tried to get rid of it
forget that it was there
wanted to give myself a chance
but its power overcame me.

they told me to give it a chance
but when nothing around
is ever right
it feels safe to let everything to be wrong
to feel the pain
to feel numb
because you've known it for so long.

i ate away at the feeling
thought my stomach acid
would savor its destruction
but somehow
somewhere
it was instead absorbed
into my bones
veins
brain
hair.

what will it take
for it to disappear
this overwhelming feeling,
despair