Prayers

Dear God,
    What do you want me to do?
I just feel like I have no clue.
I'm so lost all the time.
I'm torn between his and hers,
what about mine.
They all need me to survive,
But I can't hsndle being theirs.
Sometimes I just want to run awat from messed up lives.

Dear God,
    It's Father's Day.
I went to church and couldn't focus.
Because it's moments like these when U have to choose,
between step dad and father.
Lord God, what do I do?

Dear God,
    I let them all down again.
I messed up and hated myself for it.
Sometimes I know I don't deserve them.

Dear God,
    I know they don't trust me!
They've said it enough!
They don't give me respect.
But expect it; What?
Last time I checked,
Respect,
was a two way street.

Dear God,
    When I was young,
You seemed so clear.
Now it's like the older I get,
You're farther, rather than near.

Dear God,
    Lord give me patience, kindness, wisdom, love, and hope.
But Lord, give that to everyone else ten-fold.