The Desire of being a Vampire!

 
There I am with my eyes closed shut, wondering as well as pondering what it would be like to be a vampire, shivering under my covers as the atmosphere gets colder, feeling the fear in this trapped up dream, every good emotion in me withering out of me like someone was doing this too me, the lights flickering whilst I'm asleep! Trying to figure out whether this fake theme could become a true resolution, give or take would it be a good evolution!.. Then everything starts changing as the dream thickens I  see a plot, could it be a part of a scheme as I  hear a scream!... Waking up suddenly strapped too a chair while hanging upside down in mid air in a cold empty room, I tried to hold myself up right and break the ropes, keeping my hopes up that I was alone not wanting to make a sound as I didn't want to moan or groan with so little light around me, I didn't know if I was underground! ...


I see a shadow stepping out revealing itself no longer masked by the darkness coming closer too me, was I going to be asked anything from it, not knowing what it could be, showing me nothing!.. Standing by me now I saw what was just a young man, I felt my body and skin going numb, would it be from him!.. He wanted to know my name although he  wouldn't tell me his, surely I was going insane! I didnt feel the same around him until only then did he unveil what he was, I felt his bite against my skin as I felt my insides screw up tight, my light fading out, all this blood giving this vampire such a head rush like a pill but do they really mean too kill!... I spend my last moments thinking was this a start too a new life would it make me feel more alive!


Lying there awakening from my dead state, re-adjusting too this new slate of mine, slowly  realising I've now got an endless amount of time on my hands now being immortal, feeling like I've been reborn coming out of a portal, being able to re-spawn cheating death like out of a video game with no shame, realising that I've got to get out of this place that will have me no longer feeling caged!.. Peaking out as well sneaking about around these new like surroundings for me, tripping up while landing with my hand on a sharp bit of a flint, to be amazed it had healed up and sealed up in a few seconds, it was a hint that I could not be hurt easily, was this sacred, this was something I'd have to keep as a secret, was i going to find out about anything else i could do, I no longer felt like a mouse but only stronger inside and out!...


Walking on as I came across a book lying there like someone had meant to put it there as I quickly took a look around too see if I could hear any other living thing breathing under there own breath as well as just mine!.. Slowly opening the book I start reading through the pages seeing what answers I may find, feeling so bind too each word, this was absurd as I read a note in scribbled like writing quoting "you shall be able to hear more than you normally should, move more than you ever would!"... Listening out whilst closing my eyes opening them amazed in my own surprise that I actually could surely these were no lies! Gradually pacing, racing up and down, no one facing me would be able to see me as everything would just be like a blur!... I couldn't believe that my agility had improved at an unbelievable fast rate, feeling like a god high with so much mir!.. What were each of these so called ability's for though, reading one last bit which said "All this power comes with a price, now do you want your prize, this is something you may thrive for or despise!"...


After reading the last few words I fell down hard in pain, pleading that it would stop... For my ribs hurt so much but not like you do with laughter, it was excruciating, eradicating, executing as well as elevating up every nerve in my body with my eye sight fading, needing some form of aiding!... Trying to fight it, gaining a bit of self control again, still feeling the strain, while it starts pouring down with rain!.. I thought this was my last and final hour calling out when in my time of need  I see an individual soaring towards me, pulling me up quick by my neck, feeling like a wreck, whilst bringing me back too my feet only then did I realise and recognise who it was!...


He stood there telling me you need to feed this is your hunger kicking in, don't be weak or you won't get what you seek as you will start to leek!.. Now you may not want to do this deed as he reached into his pocket pulling out a small vial, this may taste vile but don't knock it as for once you've breached it you'll be feeling complete, being less leeched or preached nor beat down with defeat, make this your belief because it maybe your one relief as you don't want this sort of thing to repeat otherwise everything in you will be going overboard, this is something you can't afford to do as you will just want to abort from it all!...  Now we must go he told me its near the end of the night and we need to find you a cubby hole to protect you from the day light as it will reflect on you and detect others around you that you are much more than they think as well as that the sunlight will make you feel sore as it burns our skin, for there isn't any time for dwindling unless you want to spark up like kindling!... Right here will do, I know sleeping in  the dirt may feel weird too you but trust me it's better than getting hurt!...

The following night finally awakening there I was out with my fellow vamp in the moonlight hitting the town as he told me he'd be my maker, as i felt the beat of each person's heart as they passed my feet!.. Entering a pub as my protergae told me this is the bit where you need to be bold to hold yourself together, we can compel, repel as well as play with there head, we rebel until we've fed and feel they've bled out enough, unfortunately they may be close to being dead!.. Why don't you have a taste, now don't hesitate as every little thing in me seems to escalate, you couldn't think all you could do is want to drink, I took a girl and couldn't look as I bit her at haste, he forced it upon me making it out when we were made we had been forged to do this!... After each and every one I said to each I was sorry and tried not to worry! I left filled up with disgrace as I couldn't look at my own face, I needed someone that would be my own saving grace!...


Calling it a night I fled back to sleep trying not to weep, trying to keep myself composed, it's not like I chose this it just arose on me!.. The next day as noon passed as the day light went out, I took a stroll to find the whereabouts where my maker could be! Stepping up and over while I found it, I felt a chill of malice run through me as I snuck on down, getting further in I froze completely struck with each stake I saw on the wall, approaching him carefully I grabbed one for my sake realising what he wanted me to become that being a hunter, I was not going to let him make nor mould myself into this!.. I wasn't guna be shrouded by this cold like bog that made me feel raw, neither was I going to follow his little law! It was time to get out of this door he put me in, I thrusted the stake  hard in him deep pinning him too the floor, he awakened grinning thinking he was in for the winning! He could not have been more mistaken, you took mine having it cursed and forsaken so now this is your life I'm taking as well as staking, with a final twist with a quick flick of my wrist on the stake ramming it, jamming it in more, he disappeared like dust as i watched his face flushed of all colour, he was gone with me now feeling less sore, I no longer bore any weight upon me with no strings being strung or attached, this vampire had finally been beaten and matched!...v


Whilst I stare at whats left of him with no despair, I delve and rummage through his clothes to find in a pocket a piece of rolled up paper that looked like a scroll with names on with dates when they had been turned as I unravelled it, like a puzzle I solved it and felt so rattled and baffled when I saw through it clearly to see that it was a hit list, I had just saved the fates of all of these vampires that were people he had nearly could of had dead kill after kill!...  I was a vampire that hadn't lost his free will unlike many others, was this true or was it an unexpected gift of mine that my maker hadn't  suspected me to find out about... Stashing the scroll away I went my own way, I thought I'd rest myself up for the next couple of days or so, thinking how I must of been blessed to have achieved this with all the strength I believed I had over a whole in my mind, body and soul... After arising from my fifth night, rubbing my eyes as i start waking up from my long slumber I looked at the scroll again noticing this time it was covered with phone numbers, I felt so prone to contact one as I gazed down the list, I no longer felt alone!... Feeling like it had me lift off my feet I sped down to town crashing it up in a local nightclub, as I snuck a quick glance at the bar as I walked through the door, froze in a trance there was a girl in a seat staring right at me, I pointed my hands towards myself and with a whisper said "can you hear me" with her nodding her head in response as she lead me closer too her dictating while indicating for me to sit by her. As I went over and sat in the seat I asked  "How did you know", she replied "As we get older with age the more we see, it starts to show, we can tell and sense it!"... Within the next few minutes we exchanged name's hers being Eliza, after hearing her name it was like deja vu, my mind picking her name up on the list like a radar!... She offered to help me as I told her I was still new too all this, I knew she was the right one!... The next few months flew by as Eliza taught me self control with my hunger as well as what other qualities we had, I wasn't caught up in it anymore, she didn't only let me share her home but together we looked out for one another! I learnt that when you turn you care more with your emotions heightened,  I felt enlightened knowing this it made me see that it couldn't be all so bad what I was being a vampire, a desire that now had me converted and diverted into something good rather than me thinking it was bad, giving me a boost I needed that gave me that spark to ignite my fire too my own self belief, she made me feel like I had never really died, our bonds were tied, it felt like I'd had a chance for a new life!...


By SJ