Simply Me

I have looked back in the past
To see if there were things that last
I found that long ago
I lost myself and it did blow
Living for others not like i should
Trying to please them the best i could
They attached to me like a parasite
I let them stay as i thought it was right
Yet year by year they sucked me dry
My life began to fall apart and i wondered why
The people i loved the most did slip
Right on past my finger tip
I lost things that i will never regain
I experienced the most horrible pain
My life soon went down the drain
The light at the end of the tunnel was a train
It hit me hard and hit me fast
I had no clue how long the pain would last
Stripped of everything dear to my heart
Back with nothing is where i would start
Those who used me for their gain
Ran and hid while i suffered in pain
So day by day i struggled along
Could see no right but only wrong
To be myself might be a shame
Some may scoff and others blame
Yet year by year i stress over the day
I let others blind me and take away
There are no rewinds in this life
So many years filled with strife
Yet this very time i sit and write
Must decide to be me with all my might
The last 4 years i have kicked up dust
So be myself this i must
Regardless the price or lack of friends
This is where it truly ends
I cannot change the things i desire
That burn in my heart like a raging fire
What you see is who i am
To pretend otherwise would be a sham
I denied myself because of what others did think
Whats in my head they would say did stink
So this year as i determine in my heart
To give myself a brand new start
To be caring but not at my cost
That my next 30 years be lost
I can no longer pretend
That i like you as my friend
Transparent i will be
And who i am all will see
I work hard at my job
So being myself they shall not rob
I will do my best to trust in grace
Be myself and find my place
Those who i lead shall lift their head
Become the living from the dead
We shall be some of the few
Who are what we are and this is true
Like us hate us it is your choice
But my simple self shall be heard in my voice.
The words i write and the words i say
Shall blaze a path and lead the way.
Some will chose heaven and some chose hell
As for myself all is well
God is my judge and that day will tell
If He was disappointed or did I do well
Perfect is a demand others expect
But if im good that will gain respect.