A Year In The Life (Dealing With Death)

salty tears
sting my skin
open wounds
bleed again
a dash of salt
to push the pain
an intensity I can't explain


I look back to reflect
but I'm unable to connect
to a time
when my world changed
for the worse
and it so remains


an emptiness
I cannot fill
a reality that seems unreal
a notion that
I cannot grasp
in the time that has passed


how can I be okay
in a world so full of pain
how am I supposed to move
without a hand to guide me through


the road ahead
is cold and dark
and I haven't
the strength within my heart
to move ahead with my life
I cannot leave the past behind


I do not know
what will come
I cannot guess
what I'll become
what I know
is what I see
just how ugly
this world can be


the sun won't shine
as bright today
and without a cloud
the sky is grey
the moon will rise
into the night
and another part of me
will die