Door Wide Open (Spoken Word)

"Officer, we found a corpse mangled to infinity
With agility, we need you in the vicinity"

I was prepared for the call, sorta scared of it all
I stayed up the whole night and just stared at the wall
I knew of the murder but what to do when I hurt her?
It wasn't really my fault I got caught up in the fervor
It brought memories when I arrived at the scene
It all happened in a flash, then I tried to be clean
But it was a giant mess, blood spatter on the door
Strangely, seeing it all I wasn't sadder than before
The body was there, she had almost crawled outside
But not quite enough strength, there she had sprawled and died

When I walked into the living room, a flashback
Her and I there looking for movies in a mass stack
She was composed but her mood was morose the whole night
Which was usually warning me about a full fight
I waiting for her to bust the news, it must be blues
Otherwise she wouldn't be dropping these trusty clues
After hours of sitting by glazed eyes about to cry
I could see words forming as she wondered what route to try
She mouthed out 'listen close, I'm carrying a baby"
"But it's from someone else, and I'll be marrying him maybe"
Speechless since my throat collapsed as the quote elapsed
Felt like I was standing in a broken coat of glass
Drowning now, I couldn't float this path, my boat was trashed
We stood there forever until the moment passed
Suddenly my hurt transformed itself into violent rage
I'd take her chapter in my book, tear out the vibrant page
I grabbed scissors, delivered wounds to her abdomen
She screamed for me to stop, that just got her stabbed again
What was this happenin? I couldn't stop in my fury
Realized what I was doing, weapon dropped in a hurry
I flung open the door and sprinted to my vehicle
Couldn't believe what had happened, this was unbelievable
Was she dead or alive? Buzzing, my head was a hive
I went home but I was filled with dread on the drive
Until I realized, no one knew we were lovers
We were happy together, no need to tell others
Didn't need every detail available to download
We kept our relationship quiet, on the down low
That gave me peace as I concocted a strategy
There was a way I could blot out this tragedy

Back in the present, I knew what had to be done
I messed up big time but against justice, sadly I won
In the mirror I watch myself grab the bloody scissors
It gave me shivers, the evidence against me now slivers
Since they'd never find the weapon as they were hopin
And as for suspects, that leaves the door wide open