same sh*t, different toilet

how can i open up to you
when you cant open up to me
how can i tell you how i feel
when you push the feelings away
you ask me to express my thoughts
then you tell me im wrong
i try..
and you tell me i dont try at all
i want to
but you wont let me
how can we get past this when you wont let it
all i want is to be able to
and you love every bit of it
but you hate it
you give me confusion
and i try and fix it
but when i try to fix it
you only confuse me more
you tell me you love  me
but you give me a different feeling
i show more love
but its not good enough
you tell me im the best
but you tell me otherwise in different words
and you want to marry me?
the thought petrifies* me
i want to be the one for you
but maybe we're jus not meant to be...