I fail you

Your always there,
I fail you every time,
You ask me "wait for me",
And again I fall asleep...

If I was you I wouldn't love me.
I always seem to fail you...
I'm lying here now after failing you again...
After falling asleep again after I promised I'd wait...
Now wide awake thinking: "Fuck I HATE me right now..."
I know you do most probably do to!

All I ever do is fail u.
Wish I could just curl up and die..
But instead I just curl up and cry...
I promised I wouldn't do anything to hurt our baby boy, and this is one promise I intend to keep! I hope I can keep this promise...I know if I don't I'd rather die then have to tell you that I couldn't keep the one promise a mother makes the day she decides to be just that...A MOTHER!

Every time I tell my self:"this time I'll get it right but before I know it...BAM...I failed you again!"

Baby I Love you, please forgive me, I really tried but it seems the only thing I am good at is failing you!

Yours forever,
Although I most probably have lost you now forever...
Love you till death takes my hand and lead me to my forever failing doom!

Please accept this as my apology...I'll understand if you don't!
I wouldn't try and stop you if you want to walk a way...all I can say is "I'm sorry it in every possible way and I'll try harder!"

With tears in my eyes and a hope full heart I ask this...please forgive me, I'll try harder!

Love
XOXO
Yours Truly,
(Failing you miserably but trying my ass off.)

Your lover & friend!