Diminished (My Goodbye)

I've always been proud to say
that we've overcome our struggles
and how we worked as a unit.
That I helped you, as you helped me
in our darkest times of need.
It's reached its limit
and emotions too thinly spread
have crumbled.
Under all the weight, it has broken,
the bond between father and son.
Neither of us have the compassion
or the will,
or the love
or the kindness, to repair this.
Before you now, I will say this
as you have failed me as my father,
I have failed you as your son.
While I am done with you, my father.
I will always love you,
and I will always be grateful
for everything you have taught me.
I take it now, to begin my life.
My mistakes have hastened the inevitable
perhaps I was too eager,
or too apathetic to your suffering.
Not that any of this matters,
and I know I've made my choice.
But I will always hold you in my heart
and when the time comes,
I'll be held in yours too.