wrong end

waking up to sunshine on my face
i breathe a tired breath
looking at him i love to death
i cant stop the tears
because it will never last years
i know he already cant stand me
nor i him but i loved him
he does shit unintentionally on purpose
and the struggle it creates is tainting this
i try to plead with him
but he doesnt even pretend
because he wants it to end
ive nagged to death my best friend
the light of our love grows dim
i tell him i dont want to leave
or worse to leave without him
but he  just refuses to see how he hurts me
wont except responsibility
im doing the best i can
and hes supposed to be my right hand
hell keep his eyes peeled for a no one
but im expected to have eyes all around
im sick of buying shit just to have it stolen
he watches his  friends back but never mine
hes lax while im under silent attack
im sick of screaming
fighting  battles
verbal assaults hateful and damaging
bitterness grows like weeds in manure
i loved you so much wanted this so bad
we both did i thought  but since you came back weve faught
i cant expect a full 360 but maybe a 180
i just want us to make it baby
today i stop clinging to a hope that has no merit
this was supposed to be our life
i thought we could share it
so i take a deep breath
and i wipe tears from my cheeks
shaking my head in disbelief
neither of us speaks
i try to be strong but

this ending is wrong
i thought we were strong
i just wanted to you to belong

i guess its not the ending thats wrong its ...me