Life Jacket

Lately I've been thinking about life,
all the shit that's going wrong
like waking up just to face the day,
but I can't get my head on straight,
no sense of sobriety, or calm.

I fall back down,
turn my self away
from reality and hide here in my sleep,
waiting to break like this bottle,
there's no use fighting it,
too weak to carry on,
drowning in the deep.

How do I find strength
to keep myself on solid ground,
all this bad weather,
throwing lightening,
swallowing thunder,
no longer a King with a crown.

Open water all around me,
my limbs locked in chains,
mother told me once that if I ever drowned
I'd never come back the same.

So I'm trying to keep
my head above the black water,
but today I have this feeling
like why do I even bother?

Struggling with depression,
I don't know if I'll make it out,
all this pain and anger,
why can't I just cut it out?