breathe in, breathe out...

breathe in, breathe out,
i wake up alone in a room
breathe in, breathe out,
its already fucking noon...
breathe in, breathe out,
i turn over and try to fall back asleep
breathe in, breathe out,
i pull the covers over my head
breathe in, breathe out,
debating if i could just lay there forever
breathe in, breathe out,
i feel pain as i pull my arms away from my chest
breathe in, breathe out,
i inhale sharply as my cuts drip fresh blood
hold it...
hold it...
breath out...
breathe in, breathe out,
thank god i didnt scream...
breathe in, breathe out,
they were deeper this time..
breathe in, breathe out,
was i actually trying to kill myself..?
breathe in, breathe out,
maybe, i wouldnt know anymore
breathe in, breathe out,
my phone vibrates in my pocket
roll eyes, breathe in, breathe out,
its them.. wanting to know why im late
breathe in, sigh out,
i respond im taking longer getting ready
breathe in, breathe out,
i pull the sheets off and stumble out of my bead
breathe in, breathe out,
i get to my dresser and pull out my Misfits shirt
breathe in, breathe out,
i grab my beanie from the top drawer
breathe in, breathe out,
i shuffle my way to the bathroom
breathe in, step on my cat, breathe out,
i turn on my straightener and get my eyeliner out of the cuppoard
breathe in, breathe the fuck out,
why do i wear this? i only get made fun of for it...
breathe in, breathe out,
i straighten my hair and do my eyeliner,
breathe in, breathe out,
i pull the shirt over my head and my beanie onto my head,
breathe in, breathe out,
i pull my gloves from my pockets and put them on,
breathe in, breathe out,
i grab the razor and gash my shoulder testing to see if reality works...
breathe in, breathe out,
i slip on my shoes and walk out of the house
breathe in, breathe out,
i almost hiss as the sunlight assaults my eyes
breathe in, breathe out,
i trudge my way to the park to see everyone
breathe in, breathe out,
im seriously tired of this bullshit....
breathe in, scream out...