The Life Of Borderline Personality Disorder

Have you ever thought about ending it all?
Have you ever thought about picking up the knife again?
Have you ever thought about skipping another meal?
I've thought about all of those things...All the time.

Some days I'm happy
Some days I just want to kill myself

There are days when I look in the mirror
And see nothing but ugly
I compare myself to the Victoria Secret Model's a lot
I beat myself up and hate myself because I want to look just like them
But I don't
So I don't eat

Other days I think I'm the most beautiful person ever
I think highly of myself
I think that I can do anything
And I eat a lot

There are days with my boyfriend
I think that he doesn't care at all
I think that he doesn't love me
I think about breaking up with him

Other days with my boyfriend
I think that he cares so much
I think that he loves me so much
I never think about breaking up with him

There are days when I feel...
so empty
So alone
So broken
Then I think about cutting or ending it

Other days I feel...
So happy
So joyful
So estatic
I never think about cutting or ending it

This...Is what BPD feels like...