dream

i had dozed off for a
while
i was driving one day
had a dream
of a way of life could be
but that was all in my head
tractor trailers don't haul forgiveness
truckers don't transport hope
 
california is gonna kill me
with long shot 3 to 1 odds
every time i speak  
i forget i was facing forward
 
i just wanna say something about a gurney
and leather binds
atrophine and loperamide  
heather moss and a kango
disappointment
portland
a touch out of phase for a shift
 
i have'nt been much good for conversation
i have no apologies
i have no i've been just gettin it bad
i have no too much csi and svu to complain about
i have a few losing powerballs  
but i burn them in the backyard with dirty needles
and notes about chord progressions my father used to pass
i need these things no more
 
i bought an auger  
i pissed on ny and spit all over la
i called upon above the waist
to keep me from always focusing on below
i gave up on guns
and roses
 and gave in to gastrointestinal
grey face to grey hair
to i need to see a doctor  
how the fuck did i get here