My Last Letter

I'm fucking miserable.
I'm stereotypical.
I'm a lying, cheating,
Cock-sucking, attention-
Seeking, bulimic little
Whore. I'll tear you to
Pieces. I'll burn you as
You bleed. I will leave.
I cannot stay because
I know I'll hurt you. I'm
So sorry I do. I love you.
I do have feelings. They're
Overwhelming me. They
Are killing me. They might
Even get to me first, if
I don't just do it myself.
I don't want to live, but I'm
too much of a little bitch
To just end it. I'll just
Swallow down some pills,
Take a razor to my wrists,
Because I do it for your
Fucking attention. Not to
Help me. I just can't
Help myself. I want to be
Placed in a grave, six feet
Under the earth, amongst
The dirt. It's where I fucking
Belong nowadays. I'm so
Miserable all the time. I feel
So fat, so ugly, so alone. I
Know no one cares. I just
Want this all to stop. I am
So pathetic. I make myself
Puke because of just how
Disgusting I am. I want to
Change everything about the
Way I look, the way I am. It
Will not get better unless I
Am dead. I've lied so many
Times I don't remember the
Truth. All I know is I love
You, though I'll never ever
Be good enough. I'll never be
Pretty enough, thin enough,
Perfect enough, to deserve
You. You deserve so much
Better but I just keep holding
On to you, suffocating both
Me and you. I'm so sorry for
Hurting you. I want to die.
I have to say goodbye. I want
My heart to stop beating. I
Need to stop feeling. I want
To be a part of everything
And nothing, all at the same
Time. I want the voices to
Shut the fuck up. I want to
Be good enough. I have to stop
Living this lie. And i'm saying
All of this just for attention. I
Feel so alone. I wish I would
Die. All I do is cry. I'm so sorry,
Mom. I'm so sorry, Dad. This
Is the answer. It's my only
Option, it's my last resort, I'm
Fucking miserable. I'm so
Stereotypical. I cannot and
Should not be forgiven for
What I've done, for what I've
Become. I'm a lying, cheating,
Cock-sucking, attention-
Seeking, bulimic little
Whore.