Fear

I am becoming the very thing I have been trying so hard not to.

I feel my past catching up to me. I don't want to be like the rest of them.

I want to be the better half. I run, but my legs don't move.

They have become weighed down by my mistakes. They strip me of power.

Fear creeps into my mind. What am I to do? I see solutions.

They are just out of reach. I am finally able to grasp them, just for them to slip through my fingertips.

What is wrong with me? Why is this happening? Why cant i stop this?

I try so hard to end it, though the feelings won't go away.

I don't want to feel like this anymore. But what can I do?

I am afraid of myself. I fear the foundations I had struggled to set up are crumbling beneath my feet, leaving me no place to stand.

What is this place of darkness? This place of fear and destruction?