Defined By Bad History

Cold, broken and sick
Her feelings are hurt
She's crying, but I'm uncaring
Why didn't I see then that it was because of me

A history of fighting and bullying
Every one thinks I'm a villain
So if I'm a renegade I should take the credit
Even if I hate myself and I hate it

Everyone hates me, shunned and isolated
This is what I wanted, it felt so good
No one who cares or to care about, I am alone
So why do I feel this way like my soul was sewn outside of my skin
And my body is just an empty shell, going straight to hell

This is not the life I planned on living
The person I wanted to be took a wrong turn
Lost in a Web of lies and hate
My friends are blurred in with my enemies

Don't try to help me, I will hurt you
I'm sad and I'm regretful
But I'm bad
Sorry for being so vile, it's all I know