If only...

(not my best work, I know, but bear with me)

If I could turn off my feelings
I wouldn't get my hopes so high
Only to plummet towards an unforgiving surface

If I could turn off my feelings
I wouldn't get too close
Close enough to feel the warmth of what could have been

If I could turn off my feelings
I wouldn't feel the hurt
Of being pushed to the side again and again

But I can't

The once so beautiful heart I wear on my sleeve
Is now too decimated to be broken any more
So jaded by the constant abuse
And yet I feel the agony every time

If only I could turn off my feelings
But I can't