Submissions by soullessexpression (I--)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I am happily healing as of current. My work comes from raw in the moment materials. I hope my work reaches people who are struggling. Please know you are not alone. I know its rough right now but please keep going. Just keep breathing.
SELF POEM
Published
12th May 2023 7:31am
12th May 2023 7:31am
Smoke and Thunder
Thearpy
Why do I cry after sex
Why am I falling out of love?
Is it because my needs are not met?
Why does sex make me think of my past
Or my trauma
What do I do if my partner can't communicate with me
Why am I burnt out
What if I want to get hurt again
What if I am burnt out
Why do I want to be hurt
Am I suppsed to die sooner than later?
Thearpy why am I useless
Why am I so sad all the time
Why cant I be happy
Why does everything hurt
Thearpy why do I cry after...
Why do I cry after sex
Why am I falling out of love?
Is it because my needs are not met?
Why does sex make me think of my past
Or my trauma
What do I do if my partner can't communicate with me
Why am I burnt out
What if I want to get hurt again
What if I am burnt out
Why do I want to be hurt
Am I suppsed to die sooner than later?
Thearpy why am I useless
Why am I so sad all the time
Why cant I be happy
Why does everything hurt
Thearpy why do I cry after...
#depression
#SelfHarm
#confessional
#MentalHealth
#despair
205 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
19th Aug 2020 6:54am
19th Aug 2020 6:54am
Meat of Mine
No chemicals
Some water
No growth
Old shell
New light
Same eyes
Numbers are devils to me
This fleshy shell that garters my worth
She just wants to love herself
Slice it up to something else
Old habits
Heavy tears
Throat ache
No thoughts
Maybe it's because I'm viewed different
Maybe it's because I collapse harder
Maybe I'm not any stronger
It was never an issue before
Now I want myself dead without the consequences
Weight on my heart
Weight on my...
Some water
No growth
Old shell
New light
Same eyes
Numbers are devils to me
This fleshy shell that garters my worth
She just wants to love herself
Slice it up to something else
Old habits
Heavy tears
Throat ache
No thoughts
Maybe it's because I'm viewed different
Maybe it's because I collapse harder
Maybe I'm not any stronger
It was never an issue before
Now I want myself dead without the consequences
Weight on my heart
Weight on my...
#depression
#SelfHarm
#mirror
#shame
#MentalHealth
309 reads
1 Comment
EROTIC POEM
Published
3rd Jun 2020 12:38pm
3rd Jun 2020 12:38pm
Drip
Soaked in your existence
True solace,
True ecstasy
Tangled together mercilessly in the devine web of function and time
Consume me;
My flesh and blood rinsed up and over the words you speak
You seep into me like hot heavy concrete
Solid, secure, crushing
Dripping, messy, salty, sticky.
Shuddered and exposed
Complete devotion
Selfish submission
Allow me to take you high
Blinded and bound
Crafted to our demand
Go on,
Choke me in your trust-
I'll never let you touch the ground
True solace,
True ecstasy
Tangled together mercilessly in the devine web of function and time
Consume me;
My flesh and blood rinsed up and over the words you speak
You seep into me like hot heavy concrete
Solid, secure, crushing
Dripping, messy, salty, sticky.
Shuddered and exposed
Complete devotion
Selfish submission
Allow me to take you high
Blinded and bound
Crafted to our demand
Go on,
Choke me in your trust-
I'll never let you touch the ground
#lust
#sex
#erotic
#BDSM
#temptation
655 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
10th Jul 2019 7:25am
10th Jul 2019 7:25am
Today Tomorrow And Yesterday
#abuse
#SelfHarm
#healing
#SelfWorth
#DomesticViolence
438 reads
0 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
15th Feb 2019 5:03am
15th Feb 2019 5:03am
Wave Cloud
Dance upon my skin
You drip into me
Waves of your voice
Crash to echos
I'll sink deeper within you
'Till the pressure crushes me
I'll die drowned here in your sea
-And oddly it's comforting
The bubbles drift up and desert me
Like surrounding stars to the planets above
The deep ink will always drone me out
Swallowed and shredded
Crushed to dust
The stars ripple at the surface
Blood peels a path through the water
Release the sea
Your depths destroy me.
You drip into me
Waves of your voice
Crash to echos
I'll sink deeper within you
'Till the pressure crushes me
I'll die drowned here in your sea
-And oddly it's comforting
The bubbles drift up and desert me
Like surrounding stars to the planets above
The deep ink will always drone me out
Swallowed and shredded
Crushed to dust
The stars ripple at the surface
Blood peels a path through the water
Release the sea
Your depths destroy me.
#MovingOn
#acceptance
441 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
3rd Feb 2019 10:41pm
3rd Feb 2019 10:41pm
Hazel Eyes are Rare
From the day you entered my life
Purpose flooded in too
You were a make of me and another.
As a father
There is so much I can do
To improve your life
My job is to teach you
My job is to provide for you
My job is to put you first
My job is to protect you
My job is to build you up
This life came with no instructions
No answers
Just questions
And in the years i've watched you grow
I still find that you surprise me
You still became who you wanted to be
...
Purpose flooded in too
You were a make of me and another.
As a father
There is so much I can do
To improve your life
My job is to teach you
My job is to provide for you
My job is to put you first
My job is to protect you
My job is to build you up
This life came with no instructions
No answers
Just questions
And in the years i've watched you grow
I still find that you surprise me
You still became who you wanted to be
...
#strength
#father
#children
#family
#daughter
372 reads
1 Comment
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
5th Jan 2019 11:17am
5th Jan 2019 11:17am
Handfuls Enough for a Heart
Here I lay
Staring into a light from above. Formed of function. A grace.
Around me is a void, it all goes silent; Even the air grows still.
And all of you is gone
Your mind, words, and presence
Like clock work I feel like I do every day once more
Lately I hadn't any reason for breathing
Honestly I could only come up with a handful of reasons to stay
Like with everything else.
Even so, you are all lines at work
Lines you sketch
Lines you write
Even life lines
Because I've never seen...
Staring into a light from above. Formed of function. A grace.
Around me is a void, it all goes silent; Even the air grows still.
And all of you is gone
Your mind, words, and presence
Like clock work I feel like I do every day once more
Lately I hadn't any reason for breathing
Honestly I could only come up with a handful of reasons to stay
Like with everything else.
Even so, you are all lines at work
Lines you sketch
Lines you write
Even life lines
Because I've never seen...
#relationships
#suicide
#confessional
#support
#emotional
460 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
3rd Dec 2018 11:30am
3rd Dec 2018 11:30am
Seatbelts Twisting
I took a turn and got myself lost off a dead end
The brakes gave out
Jammed all at once
We're hittin 30 miles and cruising
I find pot holes
So damn many,
Breaks in the asphalt
Junk and litter lie around
They shutter as I pass crusing at 45
Rerouting
Rerouting
We're approaching a steep decline
We still have a few miles
Keep coasting.. I see it
Don't take me back there
My head feels like fog lights
I can't breathe there
...
The brakes gave out
Jammed all at once
We're hittin 30 miles and cruising
I find pot holes
So damn many,
Breaks in the asphalt
Junk and litter lie around
They shutter as I pass crusing at 45
Rerouting
Rerouting
We're approaching a steep decline
We still have a few miles
Keep coasting.. I see it
Don't take me back there
My head feels like fog lights
I can't breathe there
...
#anger
#depression
#cars
#temptation
#sacrifice
419 reads
1 Comment
DRUGS POEM
Published
10th Aug 2018 11:33am
10th Aug 2018 11:33am
Confessional: 100mg Rx
I don't know how to
Start this
Because my heads so fucking clogged up right now and it's chasing shadows
I slipped up.
I always just can't trust myself to know
I'm un-fucking-well.
When I am well its not because of my hand
No it's a mind altering chemical.
Medicine- chemicals.
Medicine tells a person they are sick
No matter how you slice it
They aren't taking it for taste.
-I can damn well tell you that
I think I am so strong,
So powerful
That I don't...
Start this
Because my heads so fucking clogged up right now and it's chasing shadows
I slipped up.
I always just can't trust myself to know
I'm un-fucking-well.
When I am well its not because of my hand
No it's a mind altering chemical.
Medicine- chemicals.
Medicine tells a person they are sick
No matter how you slice it
They aren't taking it for taste.
-I can damn well tell you that
I think I am so strong,
So powerful
That I don't...
#anger
#depression
#confessional
#MentalHealth
#PTSD
586 reads
4 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
9th Aug 2018 8:36am
9th Aug 2018 8:36am
Amaretto, Coffee Liqueur, Irish Cream...
Every now and again you clip memorys in my mind
Your eyes are the darkest i've ever seen
Surprisingly the warmest
Even when they are blood shot tired
Woozy drunk
Or behind a thin frame
You were what
He wasn't
Everything.
And it terrified me and lit my fuse all at once.
I held such comfort knowing you were on a whole different horizon as them
Because you showed me I deserved someone better.
I knew Id always cared too much for you
Funny you had no faith
Your name made me...
Your eyes are the darkest i've ever seen
Surprisingly the warmest
Even when they are blood shot tired
Woozy drunk
Or behind a thin frame
You were what
He wasn't
Everything.
And it terrified me and lit my fuse all at once.
I held such comfort knowing you were on a whole different horizon as them
Because you showed me I deserved someone better.
I knew Id always cared too much for you
Funny you had no faith
Your name made me...
#regret
#friendship
#alcohol
#coffee
#memories
448 reads
0 Comments
EROTIC POEM
Published
8th Jul 2018 9:41am
8th Jul 2018 9:41am
Slaved and Swallowed
#sex
#BDSM
746 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
1st Jun 2018 9:26am
1st Jun 2018 9:26am
Honest Birth
#SelfHarm
#addiction
#PTSD
587 reads
2 Comments
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