Submissions by nightbirdblue (enbyblue)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I am fluid polygender, identifying as both “she/her” & ”they/them” • Panromantic and married to the love of my life! 🏳️🌈 Poetry on mental illness, spirituality, LGBTQIA2+ experiences, and surviving DV.
Nerds Hurt Too
#anger
#identity
#SelfHarm
#misunderstood
#lust
576 reads
14 Comments
The Other F-Word
This morning in mourning
As the sun warms, slowly rising
Rays glisten against the crystals
Clumped up molecular holdings
Desperately forming life
The first bite of Winter’s Frost
Coating blades of grass and rooftops
The leaves are gracefully falling
Without even a breeze
They end their life now willingly
As they make the plunge to their earthly grave
Permanent home of season’s ending
Can’t help but hear what they have to say
Autumn's voice crinkling and crunching underfoot
Winter is...
As the sun warms, slowly rising
Rays glisten against the crystals
Clumped up molecular holdings
Desperately forming life
The first bite of Winter’s Frost
Coating blades of grass and rooftops
The leaves are gracefully falling
Without even a breeze
They end their life now willingly
As they make the plunge to their earthly grave
Permanent home of season’s ending
Can’t help but hear what they have to say
Autumn's voice crinkling and crunching underfoot
Winter is...
#winter
#fall
#morning
#LifeCycle
#nature
512 reads
10 Comments
Release
Packed all my stuff up good
Like a little Girl Scout
More like a little Brownie
Young cadet with a duty
Eating all the many little munchies
All the sweet tum-yummies
Forgetting one day
This will all catch up with me
Whether I’m packing my bags or
Developing diabetes
It runs in the family
Already lost Aunt Sandy
But the fetters we ignore
Are the ones that win the wars
Contemplations misinformed
Self judgements passed
When at once we were born
Rebirth; the cycle of suffering
We journey...
Like a little Girl Scout
More like a little Brownie
Young cadet with a duty
Eating all the many little munchies
All the sweet tum-yummies
Forgetting one day
This will all catch up with me
Whether I’m packing my bags or
Developing diabetes
It runs in the family
Already lost Aunt Sandy
But the fetters we ignore
Are the ones that win the wars
Contemplations misinformed
Self judgements passed
When at once we were born
Rebirth; the cycle of suffering
We journey...
#rebirth
#LifeChangingMoment
#LifeCycle
#SelfReflection
#regret
595 reads
12 Comments
Taming the Ten (Beasts Within)
#loneliness
#abuse
#SelfHarm
#depression
#insomnia
817 reads
18 Comments
Big Pharma
Labels here cast
as defined from
their textbook:
Diagnosis #1-
major depressive
disorder;
this horror
subconsious
she must overcome
Here let me just
inspect your scars too:
Diagnosis #2-
self mutilator;
it’s her sacred
revelator
tapestry curator
the lines are drawn
...
as defined from
their textbook:
Diagnosis #1-
major depressive
disorder;
this horror
subconsious
she must overcome
Here let me just
inspect your scars too:
Diagnosis #2-
self mutilator;
it’s her sacred
revelator
tapestry curator
the lines are drawn
...
#depression
#SelfHarm
#insomnia
#OCD
#MentalHealth
1342 reads
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Purging
I rip
from abreast
this heart
from my chest
splatter neatly
upon my
dinner table
feeling
and sensing
on a platter
left alone to
intermingle
bite off
some sorrow
chew up
your ventricles
let the teeth
of your thoughts
digest
judgments
abound
anxiously
gulp down
some refreshing
ethereal air
taste the
intuition
bitter upon
your tongue
where
languid moods
still linger
perceiving
hollowed out
purity ...
from abreast
this heart
from my chest
splatter neatly
upon my
dinner table
feeling
and sensing
on a platter
left alone to
intermingle
bite off
some sorrow
chew up
your ventricles
let the teeth
of your thoughts
digest
judgments
abound
anxiously
gulp down
some refreshing
ethereal air
taste the
intuition
bitter upon
your tongue
where
languid moods
still linger
perceiving
hollowed out
purity ...
#EatingDisorder
#anxiety
#identity
#misunderstood
#symbolism
1191 reads
31 Comments
Overcoming Bondage
culpability;
ultimate apathy
his ‘inability’
to hold his own
in this crazy
modern day world
understanding
though I am
this place is a monster
eating every shred
of viable emotion
snaking and enslaving
every soul
...but comes a time
when you cannot hide
cannot stay sheltered
from the real world
society’s sickness
we cannot unfurl
though weary
we must take heed
step forward from
your constructs
stand tall in spite
claim your self ...
ultimate apathy
his ‘inability’
to hold his own
in this crazy
modern day world
understanding
though I am
this place is a monster
eating every shred
of viable emotion
snaking and enslaving
every soul
...but comes a time
when you cannot hide
cannot stay sheltered
from the real world
society’s sickness
we cannot unfurl
though weary
we must take heed
step forward from
your constructs
stand tall in spite
claim your self ...
#oppression
#motivational
#TruthOfLife
#LifeStruggles
#relationships
636 reads
14 Comments
Honest Reflection
But don’t
we all crave
release?
From the effects
of our own
sufferings?
Whatever
they may be.
We must see
with eyes
unscathed,
the furnishings
of our own
personal
destructions;
coping patterns.
Greet your
demons,
feed them
full of love;
forgiveness.
Do you believe this?
How far will you
choose to go
to lay rest
your ego?
The release
of all suffering…
How far
will you take it,
and in which
direction?
Does it benefit
all...
we all crave
release?
From the effects
of our own
sufferings?
Whatever
they may be.
We must see
with eyes
unscathed,
the furnishings
of our own
personal
destructions;
coping patterns.
Greet your
demons,
feed them
full of love;
forgiveness.
Do you believe this?
How far will you
choose to go
to lay rest
your ego?
The release
of all suffering…
How far
will you take it,
and in which
direction?
Does it benefit
all...
#TruthOfLife
#honesty
#learning
#peace
#spiritual
513 reads
14 Comments
Coffee
Fresh Pot!
So hot it's...
...baked
like a munchie
a gently toasted
desert
delectable
to the senses
Oh caffeine!
So hot it's...
...baked
like a munchie
a gently toasted
desert
delectable
to the senses
Oh caffeine!
#marijuana
#coffee
#food
#funny
#minimalist
997 reads
15 Comments
Patience is a Virtue
for a helping hand
is all that I ask
I do need help
I need you to help me
with this problem
this unresolved
conflict
this little thing called
balance
how many years
do you think
I can be patient
before I feel taken
for granted
taken advantage of
while you brood over
your own dilemmas
eight years of working out
your own anthem
you’ve come...
is all that I ask
I do need help
I need you to help me
with this problem
this unresolved
conflict
this little thing called
balance
how many years
do you think
I can be patient
before I feel taken
for granted
taken advantage of
while you brood over
your own dilemmas
eight years of working out
your own anthem
you’ve come...
#heartbroken
#abuse
#sadness
#anger
#relationships
606 reads
Dance
everything is a dance
a mathematical equation
elaborate calculations
where is the beat, the rhythm
in heartfelt situations with
variables to the solution
presenting no simulations
the ebb and flow of celebrations
or whipping fury of damnations
all under the same cosmic vibrations
manifesting answers to circumstances
no hesitations with tools in hand
maneuvering manuscripts of calibration
we master the derivative of the outcome ...
a mathematical equation
elaborate calculations
where is the beat, the rhythm
in heartfelt situations with
variables to the solution
presenting no simulations
the ebb and flow of celebrations
or whipping fury of damnations
all under the same cosmic vibrations
manifesting answers to circumstances
no hesitations with tools in hand
maneuvering manuscripts of calibration
we master the derivative of the outcome ...
#spiritual
#identity
#TruthOfLife
#PowerOfWords
#learning
897 reads
24 Comments
Abstract
sitting in this spider web
I feel the creepy
...crawlers...
dark...
in this corner
night lurkers sing
blissed
by the Chinese tradition
waves of sound infusing
cocoon of my heart
the claw sinks in
syncs...
time relays
until
death do us part
I feel the creepy
...crawlers...
dark...
in this corner
night lurkers sing
blissed
by the Chinese tradition
waves of sound infusing
cocoon of my heart
the claw sinks in
syncs...
time relays
until
death do us part
#night
#shadows
#music
#scary
#insomnia
570 reads
10 Comments
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