Submissions by miseryomy
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
6th Sep 2020 2:38am
6th Sep 2020 2:38am
Chop Suey Pt.1 & 2
Chop Suey Pt.1
You say you want to cut and I say I do too.
There's no one else I'd rather cut with than you.
We could council and talk with another even while we do it.
People don’t get just what we do to get through this shit.
I ain’t trying to brag but I got way more scars than you.
I see you trying to catch up, let it out, we gotta do what we gotta do.
We can do this shit dancing, laughing and even holding hands.
Fuck off to all of you that don't try and refuse to understand.
I’m tired now, but you want to keep going. I can feel your...
You say you want to cut and I say I do too.
There's no one else I'd rather cut with than you.
We could council and talk with another even while we do it.
People don’t get just what we do to get through this shit.
I ain’t trying to brag but I got way more scars than you.
I see you trying to catch up, let it out, we gotta do what we gotta do.
We can do this shit dancing, laughing and even holding hands.
Fuck off to all of you that don't try and refuse to understand.
I’m tired now, but you want to keep going. I can feel your...
#regret
#dark
#heartbroken
#frustration
#bittersweet
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SELF POEM
Published
2nd Sep 2020 00:07am
2nd Sep 2020 00:07am
Rigor Mortis
I feel so lost and confused now.
Looking to finally reach out.
And there will never be anybody home.
Just myself in my mind writing another poem.
Now it’s thundering and lightning, just how I like it.
The show plays out exactly how I think to write it.
I feel so sad and angry now.
This weight on my shoulders wears me out.
All these drugs, endless music and being stoned.
Doesn’t help fill this void of being all alone.
The rain settles and skies brighten, I fucking hate it.
But I’ll keep writing and smiling just fake it. ...
Looking to finally reach out.
And there will never be anybody home.
Just myself in my mind writing another poem.
Now it’s thundering and lightning, just how I like it.
The show plays out exactly how I think to write it.
I feel so sad and angry now.
This weight on my shoulders wears me out.
All these drugs, endless music and being stoned.
Doesn’t help fill this void of being all alone.
The rain settles and skies brighten, I fucking hate it.
But I’ll keep writing and smiling just fake it. ...
#sadness
#loneliness
#rejection
#frustration
#emptiness
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SELF POEM
Published
25th Aug 2020 00:43am
25th Aug 2020 00:43am
The Ol' Crossroads
Wicked thoughts rage in my mind, but I stay still and quiet.
Passive with a smile and laughs, inside I violently riot.
Ask me how I am feeling and everything is great and fine.
Deep inside I feel it's finally the end of the times.
Explode or implode either way it's all an end to me.
I can’t help but think and constantly relive this fantasy.
You can only let go one time, and that makes it tough.
A million suicides to my soul would never be enough.
Gluten for self punishment has always been a favorite.
And that self punishment, you're...
Passive with a smile and laughs, inside I violently riot.
Ask me how I am feeling and everything is great and fine.
Deep inside I feel it's finally the end of the times.
Explode or implode either way it's all an end to me.
I can’t help but think and constantly relive this fantasy.
You can only let go one time, and that makes it tough.
A million suicides to my soul would never be enough.
Gluten for self punishment has always been a favorite.
And that self punishment, you're...
#sadness
#anger
#dark
#emptiness
#fear
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SELF POEM
Published
25th Aug 2020 00:42am
25th Aug 2020 00:42am
Finding myself
They all said they loved me and they all lied.
However this is not the reasoning for my suicide.
As a matter of fact just me having love for them.
Kept me going and smiling until this sad end.
Truth is I forgot how to love myself and that was ok.
I struggled forth and changed my habits and ways.
I finally found myself again after so many long years.
Looking back over the terror and chaos and endless tears.
I look in the mirror now and I can confidently smile.
Such self pride overcoming all those dark trials.
I know I found who I...
However this is not the reasoning for my suicide.
As a matter of fact just me having love for them.
Kept me going and smiling until this sad end.
Truth is I forgot how to love myself and that was ok.
I struggled forth and changed my habits and ways.
I finally found myself again after so many long years.
Looking back over the terror and chaos and endless tears.
I look in the mirror now and I can confidently smile.
Such self pride overcoming all those dark trials.
I know I found who I...
#sadness
#loneliness
#dark
#emptiness
#fear
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SELF POEM
Published
1st Aug 2020 1:47am
1st Aug 2020 1:47am
Spooky ghost town (first part)
Spooky ghost town and I’m the one that brought it down. No I ain’t clowning around. You can still hear them trying to claw their way out the ground. Mind still aches, hearts still pound. Make no mistake, get in my face you'll be thrown around. This is my ghost town and if you ain’t down hurry and get the fuck out. Pout, shout, I don’t want none of it. Shout out loud trying to make something of it. Tonight I'm hunting a bitch.. down.
All I hear is talk, never see any action. Here’s my reaction. Blast you in the face yeah that’s what happened. I'm done being cool and collective, Done...
All I hear is talk, never see any action. Here’s my reaction. Blast you in the face yeah that’s what happened. I'm done being cool and collective, Done...
#anger
#hate
#dark
#frustration
#greed
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SELF POEM
Published
31st Jul 2020 10:56pm
31st Jul 2020 10:56pm
Once Again (A detach from my reality)
And there I once again stood looking down at myself.
Once again giving into the illness of mental health.
I must have died a thousand times by now.
And in my head I quietly wonder how.
Then as cruel as fate could be I wake from another dream.
Back to this wretched reality, all I have left is pain and screams.
And there I once again stood looking down over you.
Blood stained hands, wondering if this actually true.
I must have killed a thousand times by now.
And in my head I angrily wonder how.
Once again giving into the illness of mental health.
I must have died a thousand times by now.
And in my head I quietly wonder how.
Then as cruel as fate could be I wake from another dream.
Back to this wretched reality, all I have left is pain and screams.
And there I once again stood looking down over you.
Blood stained hands, wondering if this actually true.
I must have killed a thousand times by now.
And in my head I angrily wonder how.
#anger
#hate
#loneliness
#dark
#frustration
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SELF POEM
Published
23rd Jul 2020 6:07am
23rd Jul 2020 6:07am
One of my last memories Pt.1 & Pt.2 (double delight of dying)
One of my last memories Pt.1
Hi guys it’s just me.
Back with a bit of poetry.
You know I feel like crying?
You know it feels like I’m dying?
Pay attention to lines and you will know.
I’m dying now but death won't come until it snows.
-
One of my last memories Pt.2
As it is painful it is marvelous how slow death takes its toll.
Getting by on drugs of wonder and that good ol’ rock n’ roll.
I wished I would have hugged and kissed a lot more.
It’s kinda too late when death is knocking at your door.
I know I...
Hi guys it’s just me.
Back with a bit of poetry.
You know I feel like crying?
You know it feels like I’m dying?
Pay attention to lines and you will know.
I’m dying now but death won't come until it snows.
-
One of my last memories Pt.2
As it is painful it is marvelous how slow death takes its toll.
Getting by on drugs of wonder and that good ol’ rock n’ roll.
I wished I would have hugged and kissed a lot more.
It’s kinda too late when death is knocking at your door.
I know I...
#sadness
#regret
#dark
#suffering
#fear
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SELF POEM
Published
23rd Jul 2020 00:32am
23rd Jul 2020 00:32am
Once again
The pain of misery and the misery of pain.
Dying once again, only myself I can blame.
Even though I have always wanted to die.
I’m not settled enough to say good-byes.
Suicidal for over half of my life time.
Deep concerns when I tell everyone I’m fine.
I guess I really wanted to grow old and frail.
But when tracks are broken the train will derail.
Is this finally my time, my time to let it all go?
Once again dazed and confused in life's shit show.
Better wishes and promises I should have made.
Perhaps even a prayer in hope God will save. ...
Dying once again, only myself I can blame.
Even though I have always wanted to die.
I’m not settled enough to say good-byes.
Suicidal for over half of my life time.
Deep concerns when I tell everyone I’m fine.
I guess I really wanted to grow old and frail.
But when tracks are broken the train will derail.
Is this finally my time, my time to let it all go?
Once again dazed and confused in life's shit show.
Better wishes and promises I should have made.
Perhaps even a prayer in hope God will save. ...
#anxiety
#grief
#loneliness
#dark
#confusion
420 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
10th Jul 2020 10:44pm
10th Jul 2020 10:44pm
Heightened awareness
And there I stood high above the earth.
Smiling at my slow moving hearse.
A beautiful sight indeed, never thought I'd have a funeral.
And look at all those people that showed up!
Even the ones I thought for sure hated me.
And there I stood high above the earth.
With bittersweet memories since birth.
A beautiful sight indeed, watching them bury me.
I see you look up here as if you know I’m watching.
And yes I always loved you too! Still do.
And there I stood high above the earth.
Pondering the thought of death, is...
Smiling at my slow moving hearse.
A beautiful sight indeed, never thought I'd have a funeral.
And look at all those people that showed up!
Even the ones I thought for sure hated me.
And there I stood high above the earth.
With bittersweet memories since birth.
A beautiful sight indeed, watching them bury me.
I see you look up here as if you know I’m watching.
And yes I always loved you too! Still do.
And there I stood high above the earth.
Pondering the thought of death, is...
#love
#dark
#death
#gratitude
#emotions
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SELF POEM
Published
6th Jul 2020 11:33pm
6th Jul 2020 11:33pm
Entry 492
Today I was surrounded by love and friendship. Though somehow I felt nearly invisible. Maybe a shadow or silhouette perhaps even a ghost. My voice fell upon 18 ears and was never heard. I laughed at my own jokes even though it was spoken loudly, no attention was paid too. I find relief most of the time not being the popular one or even unknown at times. It’s less drama to deal with. Less heartache and pain. However when that heartache and pain become too much I rely on them to just listen. Not to cure my problems, no offerings, no gifts. Just an ear to listen when I need to be heard. In those...
#sadness
#loneliness
#rejection
#frustration
#confusion
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LOVE POEM
Published
4th Jul 2020 10:47pm
4th Jul 2020 10:47pm
A phone call (her wish)
All she wanted was for me to talk to her on the phone.
I was dying that day, I wish she would have known.
8 months now separated on the opposite sides of the country.
Kids, jobs, love just leads to more heartache and poetry.
I wish she knew I tried to call her on the phone.
Now that I am dead it will forever be unknown.
I was dying that day, I wish she would have known.
8 months now separated on the opposite sides of the country.
Kids, jobs, love just leads to more heartache and poetry.
I wish she knew I tried to call her on the phone.
Now that I am dead it will forever be unknown.
#sadness
#BestFriend
#death
#lover
#crush
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STORY POEM
Published
4th Jul 2020 4:07am
4th Jul 2020 4:07am
A crippled ruthless fairy (Complete)
A crippled ruthless fairy Pt.1 (Begin Fairy Tale Block)
A crippled fairy exalted in torment, banished from the lands.
A crooked walk, with broken wings, and crippled hands.
Jet black eyes like the blackholes in stories of space.
Wrinkles and cobwebs adorned their tattered face.
Long creepy brown nails almost match their height.
A slow crippling crawl on the forest ground in the night.
Little strands of hair on his head look like ancient string.
On this very occasion a set of rusty blades he would bring.
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A crippled...
A crippled fairy exalted in torment, banished from the lands.
A crooked walk, with broken wings, and crippled hands.
Jet black eyes like the blackholes in stories of space.
Wrinkles and cobwebs adorned their tattered face.
Long creepy brown nails almost match their height.
A slow crippling crawl on the forest ground in the night.
Little strands of hair on his head look like ancient string.
On this very occasion a set of rusty blades he would bring.
-
A crippled...
#dark
#death
#fate
#nightmares
#curse
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