Submissions by johnnymull (john mullen)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Johnnymull Whatever i think or see i write about.I have not wrote poetry before .Only when i was in prison.Keeps me sane sometimes when i need my time.
It is what it is.
Born into this world.No sight nor sound no love.
The depths of hell.Left alone.
Prone to the clutches of the unknown.
Alive,yet entombed in the wrath of the beast.No
soul,just murky shades of life all around.
No emotions.
Just life.
The depths of hell.Left alone.
Prone to the clutches of the unknown.
Alive,yet entombed in the wrath of the beast.No
soul,just murky shades of life all around.
No emotions.
Just life.
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RELEASE
Don't know what to say,or even where to start.
This week has been no love in my heart.
I know its there,its just getting it out.
Releasing the pressure and all the self doubt.
I could open up, let this boiling point flow.
If i did would they really listen, want to know.
The same old play .Day by day.
This is what i keep in my cell.It is worse than hell.
Deep down in the depths of my mind I suppose it is like doing time
Being there within the walls of your home.
If i go out i'm more likely to get pulled in to score.
I said i wouldn't.Stay on the...
This week has been no love in my heart.
I know its there,its just getting it out.
Releasing the pressure and all the self doubt.
I could open up, let this boiling point flow.
If i did would they really listen, want to know.
The same old play .Day by day.
This is what i keep in my cell.It is worse than hell.
Deep down in the depths of my mind I suppose it is like doing time
Being there within the walls of your home.
If i go out i'm more likely to get pulled in to score.
I said i wouldn't.Stay on the...
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Can i do for you.
Can i run my fingers through your hair.
Feel the soft sleek strands on my finger tips.
Put arms around you caress your smooth skin.
Not daring to drop the respect,not enter within.
Put my cheeks by your ears so dainty and pose
Can i whisper sweet words i would love for you to hear.
Can i lay down besides you and smother you with love and affection as though from the angels above.
Eternal love that would never be wasted
Eternal love that will never be lost.
Feel the soft sleek strands on my finger tips.
Put arms around you caress your smooth skin.
Not daring to drop the respect,not enter within.
Put my cheeks by your ears so dainty and pose
Can i whisper sweet words i would love for you to hear.
Can i lay down besides you and smother you with love and affection as though from the angels above.
Eternal love that would never be wasted
Eternal love that will never be lost.
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Searching
Have you ever really just sat down.Doesn't matter where. Not knowing what your thoughts are.Not knowing where you stand in life.Not knowing if your really alive.Just for those few moments,not knowing if you really exist on this twisted planet called earth.A planet full of light yet so dark at that lonely time.So dark it feels like the depths of your soul you have to battle to pull yourself out.You say its only been a few seconds or been in a world of your own.It could be that place of solace you have been searching for.
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THE FIGHT
I've been fighting for so long,trying to keep myself from harm.
It is a fight .The hardest that's come across my path.
It's the fight in my head,the fight in my weakness that really tares me apart.My self doubt and my indecision ,there really coming out.
i tell myself lies,i come out with denials i use my own reasoning for reasons.I could argue all night.Just give up the fight.
That would be the easy way out.Don't care about the heartache or pain But if there's one thing i have learned about myself is that there is more than just me to think about. I have 3 children and a...
It is a fight .The hardest that's come across my path.
It's the fight in my head,the fight in my weakness that really tares me apart.My self doubt and my indecision ,there really coming out.
i tell myself lies,i come out with denials i use my own reasoning for reasons.I could argue all night.Just give up the fight.
That would be the easy way out.Don't care about the heartache or pain But if there's one thing i have learned about myself is that there is more than just me to think about. I have 3 children and a...
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Only if
If i was a friend i would cross an ocean for you
i would be there for you i would kill for you
If i was a friend i would be right there
i would always be true only for you
If i was a friend i would be your ears
i would hear your cries i would make you smile
If i was a friend there wouldn't be any tears
i would dry your eyes If i was your friend.
i would be there for you i would kill for you
If i was a friend i would be right there
i would always be true only for you
If i was a friend i would be your ears
i would hear your cries i would make you smile
If i was a friend there wouldn't be any tears
i would dry your eyes If i was your friend.
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The addict and his leaf
Blowing in the wind.Breaking away.Crispy scrunch.Staggering side too side silently floating down to earth.Sponge landing on a soft bed of grass.Reaching out,stretching out. Truly seeking to be back to where it all began Dark,damp,cold and dirty.All as i need now is the weather to turn against me.I feel as though i'm vegetating.Slimey,greasey and incomprehendable.Now i feel even the snow is having a bite off me.Here comes the ice its trying to finish me.Please will somebody save me.There's nobody here.It looks like its down to me. It feels like...
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Good on you.
That can't be you i'm looking at.You look 10 years younger and your twice the size you was ,yes a little fat. What happened to the person that i last seen.You know,the person i last spoke to on the other crap.How did you train your brain from wantig that pain.Surely you won't go back to that again.Pain,that was insane.You know youv'e got to start all over again.Got to stay safe and keep it real.Just one day at a time,i know you .YOU won't let yourself fail
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Awrite for the aged
You say your old.you feel old, your past the sell by date. You say your old.Always feel the cold.Got to wear double layers .Catch colds easy and do not like to moan.You say your not as quick now your getting on.You say you cant climb the stairs no more unless your on your arse.You say you cant have fun anymore but you still have that sweet young smile and those same blue eyes you used to watch me with,they still have that gleaming shine.
So open your eyes,give me that great big smile.Dont have a care in the world . ITS JUST ME AND YOU LOVExxxxxx ...
So open your eyes,give me that great big smile.Dont have a care in the world . ITS JUST ME AND YOU LOVExxxxxx ...
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Poem about suicide
Its time to go to the depths of Despare. Time to see if there really is a hell down there. Had enough,thought it through.Cant speak to anyone apart from you. But your not here to rest my weary head,theres nothing else for it .BY THE TIME YOU GOT THIS I WILL ALREADY BE DEAD.
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Your vows taken to the limit.
Test our vows For Better. Best days of my life.When i lived up to the word excite.Exciting to wake up.Exciteing to mix.Exciteing to live life as part of a family.Exciteing we all lived life.Lived life to the max. Worse there has been,15 years of hell,never giving it a rest, not a day on a go slow.Up ,down,round and round.Family started to reject me,did not want to know me.No not me,the stranger inside me.It was suffocating the love we had inside us. Richer i...
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Hard Time
Can i wake up and face up,to the bars that i have put up.Not knowing if today will be the slip up. Yes ,i dread this day from my give up. Its been fifty days off my sentence but,i know i am free, its the sentence inside me that i will not let be. If i relax,let my guard down,go back to freedom.I will never get the love back that i have been seeking. THE HARDEST BATTLE I KEEP IN MY HEAD ITS THE PRISON SENTENCE I PUT THERE MYSELF.
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