Submissions by jmerrick73
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Poetry is my outlet for expressing my depression, my anger, my love, my hate, my dark hellish life.
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
18th Jul 2013 2:27pm
18th Jul 2013 2:27pm
"worst......................
The worst day is when you wake up and realize you'll never get another piece of mail again.Family can't take it anymore.Your friends forget.Even the ones at charity correspondence start to back off.That's when you'd give anything for another piece of mail with your name on it.To let you know you still exist.To let you know you still matter!!
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SONG LYRICS
Published
17th Jul 2013 10:15pm
17th Jul 2013 10:15pm
"whutdayathink?
"Everybody hatin' on me cuz' i'm fuckin' crazy-bound to snap if ya task me-don't give a damn,don't give a fuck-go ahead press ya luck,i'll run over ya with a 10 ton mack truck-i hear evil voices in my head-evil sounds from beyond the dead-tellin' me whut lies ahead for me-how many will die cuz of me-fuck'em it's pleasure in life i seek-all i ever done in this life was fuckin' eeek-i really never had many friends-just knew alot of people with alot of ends-sellin' drugs or robbin' people-they weren't equal-this story there probably will be a sequel-like cube say's "life ain't nuthin'...
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SONG LYRICS
Published
17th Jul 2013 10:13pm
17th Jul 2013 10:13pm
"Whut i'm like"
what kind of person do ya think i am-i am the kind that just doesn't give a damn-i think my mind has developed a split personality-the kind of mind no one wants to be-i don't know much about the real me-just that i seem to be going fucking crazy-i use ta think like a thug-now i see now i think like i don't give a fuck-got to do something quick and fast-gotta get a job that i know will last-everytime i get hired-6 months later i'm fuckin' fired-life is hard for me ever since my life started-my family thinks i'm retarded-i think i was abused as a child-that may be why i'm so wild-i could have...
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
15th Jul 2013 4:24pm
15th Jul 2013 4:24pm
"Stuck & f**ked"
Stuck in the past,can't move forward.
I try and try,but still no progress.
My future,my final descent,is into my own personal hell where much of my time is spent.
My own twilight zone so to speak.
Daily,weekly,yearly,i feel all so week.
Between mental stress and mind tensions,
Pop many pm's to sleep & destroy my liver i had to mention.
Eat to destroy,drink to destroy,self medicate to destroy.
A downward spiral,I'm on this journey.
A quest of a permanent ending.
Is forgiveness to myself deserved?
My fam is no more,it is dissolved.
I've...
I try and try,but still no progress.
My future,my final descent,is into my own personal hell where much of my time is spent.
My own twilight zone so to speak.
Daily,weekly,yearly,i feel all so week.
Between mental stress and mind tensions,
Pop many pm's to sleep & destroy my liver i had to mention.
Eat to destroy,drink to destroy,self medicate to destroy.
A downward spiral,I'm on this journey.
A quest of a permanent ending.
Is forgiveness to myself deserved?
My fam is no more,it is dissolved.
I've...
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SONG LYRICS
Published
14th Jul 2013 9:17pm
14th Jul 2013 9:17pm
"The Last Dance"
"Last dance last chance yes i got'em alot of damn rants i ain't even tryin' to get into the next bitches pants-no more wife no more ball and chain all i gotta do now is get rid of this fucking pain before it drives me insane-once i get my mind right i'm gonna get my paper right so much paper means so much power that's right-i've had my last dance dealing with love feelings for a female not now not anymore i gives love the shove-only got got for my family and tha man above-i can't and i won't allow myself to fall for a bitch again one heartbreak is enough for me so all that "i need a...
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SONG LYRICS
Published
14th Jul 2013 9:08pm
14th Jul 2013 9:08pm
"My Heartbreak"
You don't have to look upon my face to know i'm depressed-you can hear it over the phone in my voice,my life iz a mess-my pain iz measured by the trails of my tears-i'll admit i've had thoughts of suicide,never acted upon it if i did my voice you wouldn't hear-mutha fuckaz judge me just by lookin' at me-you don't take the time to personally know me-yall mutha fuckaz need to just get tha fuck away from me-there's no where in the world i'd rather be-just in tha presence of my lord,my g.o.d-he know's my ass is unhappy-constantly talked down to by friends and family-i can go on and on keep on wit...
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Jul 2013 6:54pm
11th Jul 2013 6:54pm
"Happy"
I see everybody has it but me.why can't i have it like everybody? to have it,is it even in my destiny? god i wish i could have it oh so badly. i'd sell all my personal effects if that would help-nobody else can give it to me,i gotta achieve it all by myself-all i know is by me not having this,has driven me-to the bounds of insanity-all i know is this cold i feel isn't the weather-that's death approaching and it's getting hella closer-so cold,so dark,so lonely,so sad-no physical pain,just mental pain,and it hurts so damn bad-yeah i'll admit when i see others with all this joy-it makes me sick...
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SONG LYRICS
Published
11th Jul 2013 6:51pm
11th Jul 2013 6:51pm
"From the dark to the light"
"Let me paint this picture of my so called life for ya-since i mostly speak on the negative,this ending will be a shock to ya-i am however gonna begin this with the darkness-the wicked shit that i like to spit,that keeps you the farthest-like when someone pisses me off to the max-i take it to the extreme when i murder their asses on wax-whether it be a .45 slug or a bloody decapitation-if they wouldn't have fucked with me,they wouldn't have been in this fucked situation-ruthless,insane poetry is the title for all this bloody mess-talkin' shit puttin' me to the test-silly mutha fuckaz i...
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SONG LYRICS
Published
10th Jul 2013 7:27pm
10th Jul 2013 7:27pm
"Decieved"
it's just like i said in the past-women can love and leave without a drop of a tear and leave your ass-there you sit broken hearted-wonderin' how did this fuck shit get started-my wife left me, then we started talkin' again-she said we could get back together again-then a week later i call her up,she tells me-she's fallen out of love with me-and she's found someone close to her at her j.o.b-now guess who's left in the dark cryin' over this wrecked relationship-of course it's me the b.e.d the one who never gives a shit-don't you hate that shit when your in a torn relationship-and then the...
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SONG LYRICS
Published
10th Jul 2013 7:23pm
10th Jul 2013 7:23pm
"Dark side"
"I'm not goth but live on the dark side-i'm inviting you all to my life,my hellish ride-show you how my wicked rhymes are made-tell you why around my neck i carry this razor blade-sometimes i feel like i can't handle the pressures of life-i just wanna o.d. on pillz or slit my wrists end my life-so much bullshit i alwayz gotta deal wit-so much shit my mind can't handle it-family and friendz seen my wicked wayz so they stay away-had so many jobs,fucked them up,where am i at today-absolutley nowhere,ain't got a fuckin cent to my name-no job,no money,no transpo,no love,maximum overload in...
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
9th Jul 2013 6:05pm
9th Jul 2013 6:05pm
"WHY I AM A f**k UP & DESERVE TO DIE"
1.WINN-DIXIE 1990
2.DAVID'S BBQ 1993
3.RALLY'S BURGERS (jacksonville,fl) 1993
4.FOOD LION 1994
5.APARTMENT INN 1994
6.KRISPY KREME 1995
7.LIL' CEASARS PIZZA 1995
8.LIL' CHAMP 1995
9.SPRINT FOOD STORES 1995
10.TARGET 1996
11.CRACKER BARRELL 1996
12.I.T.S LABOR 1996
13.PUBLIX 1996-1997
14.I.T.T CLEANING CORP. 1997
15.CURTIS GROUP SECURITY 1997
16.WELLS FARGO SECURITY 1997
17.SECUREX SECURITY 1997
18.SUNTEC PAINT 1998
19.I.T.S SECURITY 1998
20.ARGENBRIGHT SECURITY 1998 ...
2.DAVID'S BBQ 1993
3.RALLY'S BURGERS (jacksonville,fl) 1993
4.FOOD LION 1994
5.APARTMENT INN 1994
6.KRISPY KREME 1995
7.LIL' CEASARS PIZZA 1995
8.LIL' CHAMP 1995
9.SPRINT FOOD STORES 1995
10.TARGET 1996
11.CRACKER BARRELL 1996
12.I.T.S LABOR 1996
13.PUBLIX 1996-1997
14.I.T.T CLEANING CORP. 1997
15.CURTIS GROUP SECURITY 1997
16.WELLS FARGO SECURITY 1997
17.SECUREX SECURITY 1997
18.SUNTEC PAINT 1998
19.I.T.S SECURITY 1998
20.ARGENBRIGHT SECURITY 1998 ...
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
9th Jul 2013 6:01pm
9th Jul 2013 6:01pm
"They.........................
they shoulda killed my mutha fuckin ass when i was born.i aint shit,aint never gonna amount to shit,god,i wish i would just die and be with you in heaven.my mindz in a mutha fuckin knot.my head hurts so fuckin bad.my eyes ache.i hate feeling this way.i'm sinking into catatonia.noone gives a phuk anywayz,i burnt all the fuckin bridges down.and they will never be re-built.there aint no damn wood or steel left to build the damn bridges back.i been forever dis-owned.i don't mean shit.phukk it.phukk it to hell.kill me pillz,watch me break,watch me burn,watch me cry,watch me do and say the most...
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