Submissions by jinabell21 (Jina Bella)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
19th Feb 2012 1:57am
19th Feb 2012 1:57am
Final High
Breathing in the smoke
Clouds huffing out of your lungs
Things seem perfect the laughter filling your ears
But then the cough starts
The oxygen needed to function becomes less and less
The world starts to spin and you want to get off
On this high
On the strangling encasing your very being
Heart racing you stumble into the bathroom
Your friend staring at the door
Helpless as your own body tries to kill itself
"maybe you should call your dad."
He's on his way
But the stairs prove to be a daunting task
The world gets...
Clouds huffing out of your lungs
Things seem perfect the laughter filling your ears
But then the cough starts
The oxygen needed to function becomes less and less
The world starts to spin and you want to get off
On this high
On the strangling encasing your very being
Heart racing you stumble into the bathroom
Your friend staring at the door
Helpless as your own body tries to kill itself
"maybe you should call your dad."
He's on his way
But the stairs prove to be a daunting task
The world gets...
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LOVE POEM
Published
10th Feb 2012 1:15am
10th Feb 2012 1:15am
Fall
Grasping onto air
I fear I fell against my own will
Tears spilling over and flowing like an endless river
Screaming for nothing but wishing for everything
Smiling at the little things you do
The ones that make my heart flutter
As the butterflies dance in my stomach
And my face burns with heat
Terrified of what could be
What will happen when I close my eyes and try to dream
Bubbles form in my brain and words come out in senseless babble
My eyes glaze over and I see sparks fly when you smile
Your embrace
So warm and inviting lures me...
I fear I fell against my own will
Tears spilling over and flowing like an endless river
Screaming for nothing but wishing for everything
Smiling at the little things you do
The ones that make my heart flutter
As the butterflies dance in my stomach
And my face burns with heat
Terrified of what could be
What will happen when I close my eyes and try to dream
Bubbles form in my brain and words come out in senseless babble
My eyes glaze over and I see sparks fly when you smile
Your embrace
So warm and inviting lures me...
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SELF POEM
Published
6th Feb 2012 9:07pm
6th Feb 2012 9:07pm
Pretend
Walking along the broken road I will smile
And pretend everything is okay
No longer reaching out for the comfort of those who I thought I could rely on
No longer speaking unless spoken too like is expected
Nothing is wrong because everyone else is happy
So restrain the screaming in your head
The beating of your breaking heart
The ache in your lungs every time you gasp for air
Fade away like an old picture
Keep replaying like a broken record
Sit there like a little doll
It doesn't matter
Things are okay because your world is...
And pretend everything is okay
No longer reaching out for the comfort of those who I thought I could rely on
No longer speaking unless spoken too like is expected
Nothing is wrong because everyone else is happy
So restrain the screaming in your head
The beating of your breaking heart
The ache in your lungs every time you gasp for air
Fade away like an old picture
Keep replaying like a broken record
Sit there like a little doll
It doesn't matter
Things are okay because your world is...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
3rd Feb 2012 2:08pm
3rd Feb 2012 2:08pm
Stupid pride
Screwed up
Wrong place
Wrong time
I lost my temper with someone who didn't deserve
It
Words cold as ice and full of venom surged out my mouth before I realized what I had said
Ashamed I ignored her the entire day~since my anger brought out the worse in her and I got a taste of my own medicine
I'm sorry
It wasn't your fault,I caused this one
You said rude things as did I and nothing I can do will change that
We're Too alike,too similar. Not working
Never mad at you,the anger was directed towards the girl I see in the mirror
Not trying...
Wrong place
Wrong time
I lost my temper with someone who didn't deserve
It
Words cold as ice and full of venom surged out my mouth before I realized what I had said
Ashamed I ignored her the entire day~since my anger brought out the worse in her and I got a taste of my own medicine
I'm sorry
It wasn't your fault,I caused this one
You said rude things as did I and nothing I can do will change that
We're Too alike,too similar. Not working
Never mad at you,the anger was directed towards the girl I see in the mirror
Not trying...
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LOVE POEM
Published
31st Jan 2012 00:07am
31st Jan 2012 00:07am
Wonder and Worry
Shooting stars are meant to wish on
I made a wish as a small child believing it would one day come true
Slowly the realization hit me the wish could be coming true
Or could turn into the nightmare I fear most
The witches have cast there spell on my heart
Enchanted me with there magic and mystery
The gremlins have tainted my blood
Hardened me and made me sickly
As I gaze into the night the faeries come out to play
They whisper words in my ear
Some of wisdom~some of trickery
I can't decide which is which
The road I am on...
I made a wish as a small child believing it would one day come true
Slowly the realization hit me the wish could be coming true
Or could turn into the nightmare I fear most
The witches have cast there spell on my heart
Enchanted me with there magic and mystery
The gremlins have tainted my blood
Hardened me and made me sickly
As I gaze into the night the faeries come out to play
They whisper words in my ear
Some of wisdom~some of trickery
I can't decide which is which
The road I am on...
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ANGER POEM
Published
28th Jan 2012 5:02am
28th Jan 2012 5:02am
Not the best night
Sick of the laughter
Tired of the strained smiles
Annoyed by the faces I care not for
Leave me alone I don't like this
I don't want to be here it's too crowded
Too noisy
Too much
All happy and giggly,all of you
I can't stand it
All flocked together like the white sheep you are
While I stand alone the black one out of them all
Yes I am selfish-get over it
Shut up and listen to me
I. Can't. Stand. This.
My mind is throbbing and there's an ache in my heart
Leave me alone or
Deal With Me Like A Fucking Man.
They're not my...
Tired of the strained smiles
Annoyed by the faces I care not for
Leave me alone I don't like this
I don't want to be here it's too crowded
Too noisy
Too much
All happy and giggly,all of you
I can't stand it
All flocked together like the white sheep you are
While I stand alone the black one out of them all
Yes I am selfish-get over it
Shut up and listen to me
I. Can't. Stand. This.
My mind is throbbing and there's an ache in my heart
Leave me alone or
Deal With Me Like A Fucking Man.
They're not my...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
22nd Jan 2012 9:32pm
22nd Jan 2012 9:32pm
scattered thoughts
I am alive, but I am not
the stars can't shine bright enough to blind me from the pain
that the dark world brings every night
while you sleep sound in your bed the
voices
crawl into my head, whisper and taunt
screaming things that should be done,things that have gone wrong
things that should've never been made
using the blade the world fades away into this empty nothing
that makes me content and happy
but wait..?
where did the water come from? why can't I suddenly breathe?
drowning
in my life,in my mistakes, in things I could've done but...
the stars can't shine bright enough to blind me from the pain
that the dark world brings every night
while you sleep sound in your bed the
voices
crawl into my head, whisper and taunt
screaming things that should be done,things that have gone wrong
things that should've never been made
using the blade the world fades away into this empty nothing
that makes me content and happy
but wait..?
where did the water come from? why can't I suddenly breathe?
drowning
in my life,in my mistakes, in things I could've done but...
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LOVE POEM
Published
17th Jan 2012 5:55pm
17th Jan 2012 5:55pm
Can't feel a thing
Things are getting better...aren't they? We are no longer fighting.
We talked it out,that's great. I'm happy we figured this out.
But I never expected "us" to fight like that. We used to be like two peas in a pod.
My feelings have changed,or maybe I'm just accepting them now instead of trying to feel something else.
I know I'm not in love,why can't I be happy with you? Why can't I feel the same,so am I just going to string you along until another fight happens or until I get bored?
That's not fair to you,and is it wrong I think of her more than I should?
Her...
We talked it out,that's great. I'm happy we figured this out.
But I never expected "us" to fight like that. We used to be like two peas in a pod.
My feelings have changed,or maybe I'm just accepting them now instead of trying to feel something else.
I know I'm not in love,why can't I be happy with you? Why can't I feel the same,so am I just going to string you along until another fight happens or until I get bored?
That's not fair to you,and is it wrong I think of her more than I should?
Her...
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SELF POEM
Published
15th Jan 2012 8:05pm
15th Jan 2012 8:05pm
empty smile
Staring for hours
at my little friend, the one that makes things better
the one that makes the pain go away
[i]if only for a little while[/i]
no one needs to know the secret
no one needs to try and help
It's not like I would want it anyway
Frustration and anger built up
swelling in my chest
slowly bubbling over and flowing out crimson red
a relief is filled
followed by a hearbreaking numbness
the kind that keeps you silent
the kind that forces you to smile though there is nothing funny
Pretend like everything is okay--though nothing is...
at my little friend, the one that makes things better
the one that makes the pain go away
[i]if only for a little while[/i]
no one needs to know the secret
no one needs to try and help
It's not like I would want it anyway
Frustration and anger built up
swelling in my chest
slowly bubbling over and flowing out crimson red
a relief is filled
followed by a hearbreaking numbness
the kind that keeps you silent
the kind that forces you to smile though there is nothing funny
Pretend like everything is okay--though nothing is...
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LOVE POEM
Published
14th Jan 2012 2:55pm
14th Jan 2012 2:55pm
Really?
I'm the bitch?
I'm your problem?
You're an asshole,how dare you say those things
TO SOMEONE WHO ISN'T ME
Did you think she wouldn't tell me?
She wouldn't keep that from me,are you that stupid?
You're problems are bigger than mine?
Who do you think you are?
I understand you are going through a lot right now
NOW STOP TAKING IT OUT ON ME
It's not my fault you don't know what they know
THEY don't make me feel like shit
THEY keep me from falling apart
THEY help me when I can't handle things
What do you do? You throw a pity party,you throw...
I'm your problem?
You're an asshole,how dare you say those things
TO SOMEONE WHO ISN'T ME
Did you think she wouldn't tell me?
She wouldn't keep that from me,are you that stupid?
You're problems are bigger than mine?
Who do you think you are?
I understand you are going through a lot right now
NOW STOP TAKING IT OUT ON ME
It's not my fault you don't know what they know
THEY don't make me feel like shit
THEY keep me from falling apart
THEY help me when I can't handle things
What do you do? You throw a pity party,you throw...
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LOVE POEM
Published
13th Jan 2012 9:01pm
13th Jan 2012 9:01pm
Fix this mess
Reality takes a blow at my chest when the realization that you went to my friend
About me
About what's wrong with me,why I'm being a bitch
That youre worried and other things I do not know yet
The ache is felt every time I breathe
I have to be the bigger person here-because I know I am partly to blame
I have to swallow my pride and apologize,be willing to work this out
All of this is still new to me,it scares me more than you think
I put on a brave face since I know your life is crumbling
You have so much to worry about,I'm scared things are falling...
About me
About what's wrong with me,why I'm being a bitch
That youre worried and other things I do not know yet
The ache is felt every time I breathe
I have to be the bigger person here-because I know I am partly to blame
I have to swallow my pride and apologize,be willing to work this out
All of this is still new to me,it scares me more than you think
I put on a brave face since I know your life is crumbling
You have so much to worry about,I'm scared things are falling...
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Jan 2012 8:26pm
11th Jan 2012 8:26pm
Don't look in the mirror
What is so special about you?
Who do you think you are you stuck up whore
No one likes you because you don't care about anyone but yourself
You're selfish-daddy gets you anything you want
I can't stand you
You're spoiled-you never had to work to get anything
Who are you to judge people you sick freak?
As if you deserve to have the right too
Why can't you just leave,no one would miss you
You're not important stop trying to be someone you're not
I can't stand to look at your face
To hear your voice
To know you try and pretend to be happy...
Who do you think you are you stuck up whore
No one likes you because you don't care about anyone but yourself
You're selfish-daddy gets you anything you want
I can't stand you
You're spoiled-you never had to work to get anything
Who are you to judge people you sick freak?
As if you deserve to have the right too
Why can't you just leave,no one would miss you
You're not important stop trying to be someone you're not
I can't stand to look at your face
To hear your voice
To know you try and pretend to be happy...
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