Submissions by eddieAe
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
11th Apr 2021 8:42pm
11th Apr 2021 8:42pm
My Perfect plan worked so good it ended being my downfall
I fucking stink like cold sweat and rain
The pure stench cannot match my inner pain
Maybe its true what was written on my diagnosis or maybe me trying to get a social security check worked so good that now I'm starting to believe its true losing focus
11 months is all it took for my monthly check now going on ten years
Lost all motivation knowing checks in the mail and feel real shitty when I hear someone who really needs it saying they have been waiting for years
Now I have my check and a reason for people to call the cops on me all the time ...
The pure stench cannot match my inner pain
Maybe its true what was written on my diagnosis or maybe me trying to get a social security check worked so good that now I'm starting to believe its true losing focus
11 months is all it took for my monthly check now going on ten years
Lost all motivation knowing checks in the mail and feel real shitty when I hear someone who really needs it saying they have been waiting for years
Now I have my check and a reason for people to call the cops on me all the time ...
#SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Apr 2021 8:35pm
11th Apr 2021 8:35pm
Crooked
Hope love joy and peace is what I long for
But my smile is crooked making me so ugly I have to go pay for a whore
People are so superficial that I'm always alone
Can't even use the face lock screen because of my disability
Usually First Impressions consist of if I had a stroke or my parents were brother and sister like I'm some fucking hillbilly
Only wish you'd see me behind my hideous decor
Now every day you bring me closer to what's above
Content for just one kiss of those soft lips
Growing up all alone cafeteria I sit
Kids can be so...
But my smile is crooked making me so ugly I have to go pay for a whore
People are so superficial that I'm always alone
Can't even use the face lock screen because of my disability
Usually First Impressions consist of if I had a stroke or my parents were brother and sister like I'm some fucking hillbilly
Only wish you'd see me behind my hideous decor
Now every day you bring me closer to what's above
Content for just one kiss of those soft lips
Growing up all alone cafeteria I sit
Kids can be so...
#addiction
#disability
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DRUGS POEM
Published
21st Dec 2016 5:53pm
21st Dec 2016 5:53pm
Craven
Once Upon a tweakers theory drugs are f***** up and death is scary dripping sweat paranoid I sit thinking cops outside my door
Than wait here it comes not a soul knocking on my trailer door
Nothing but fucked up thoughts and loneliness this dope pheene has in store
Been two days no sleep things ain't the same as they were before
Wishing my dog would stop skeeming on me as he quietly sits their in my bedroom floor
Only if he could talk like Poe's raven cursing me never more never more
Illusions flooding wildlly as my brain enjoys dopamine galor
Thinking of...
Than wait here it comes not a soul knocking on my trailer door
Nothing but fucked up thoughts and loneliness this dope pheene has in store
Been two days no sleep things ain't the same as they were before
Wishing my dog would stop skeeming on me as he quietly sits their in my bedroom floor
Only if he could talk like Poe's raven cursing me never more never more
Illusions flooding wildlly as my brain enjoys dopamine galor
Thinking of...
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DRUGS POEM
Published
1st Dec 2016 3:59pm
1st Dec 2016 3:59pm
Maryjane
Puff Puff pass that's all I hear
Not giving a fuck what I learned in class all those years
The relaxation it gives you only lasts a while
Slowly regressing making every step in life seem like a mile
Not knowing that opening my mind with you at a young age can lead me hear
Tried every drug in the book at least once over the years
Shoot it sort it smoke it that's me ever since graduating from the school of weed
Only regret is that I waited until I was an adult
Cuz my thinking of a child tells the world it's your fault
Gateway ??
Not giving a fuck what I learned in class all those years
The relaxation it gives you only lasts a while
Slowly regressing making every step in life seem like a mile
Not knowing that opening my mind with you at a young age can lead me hear
Tried every drug in the book at least once over the years
Shoot it sort it smoke it that's me ever since graduating from the school of weed
Only regret is that I waited until I was an adult
Cuz my thinking of a child tells the world it's your fault
Gateway ??
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DRUGS POEM
Published
8th Nov 2016 3:19pm
8th Nov 2016 3:19pm
If only
I love the person I've become but I hate my soul just trying to get through today without smoking a bowl . it started with weed at the age of ten than it quickly progressed to time in the pen . if only I stayed away from that crack pipe at thirteen . than I would have had to tell my mom no I want to stay clean . A relationship between a mother and child based on crack cocaine yes it was my own thinking that influenced my brain . crystal and black seemed harmless at the time , but I truly know in my heart if I don't quit soon nobody will want to remember MY rhyme . its times like this I long...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
3rd Nov 2016 3:18pm
3rd Nov 2016 3:18pm
Changeof seasons
A breezy fall day three months after the month of May
Not knowing what I want Change peace or surrender to bed into my eternal stay
temperature begins to drop what was green is now orange summer once again summer becomes just a thought
hopefully nature's beauty and change will enlighten my soul to the gift of life
What's important is right in front of me taken for granted at times
covered with snow like my fucked up lies
Can be taken away just like the leaves raked in a misguided bag
All the summer memories I didn't get o I wish I had
A breezy fall day...
Not knowing what I want Change peace or surrender to bed into my eternal stay
temperature begins to drop what was green is now orange summer once again summer becomes just a thought
hopefully nature's beauty and change will enlighten my soul to the gift of life
What's important is right in front of me taken for granted at times
covered with snow like my fucked up lies
Can be taken away just like the leaves raked in a misguided bag
All the summer memories I didn't get o I wish I had
A breezy fall day...
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UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
4th Oct 2016 1:03am
4th Oct 2016 1:03am
Change
A breezy fall day three months after the month of May
temperature begins to drop what was green is now orange summer once again becomes just a thought hopefully nature's beauty and change will enlighten my soul to the gift of life
What's important is right in front of me taken for granted at times
covered with snow like my fucked up lies
Can be taken away just like the leaves raked in a plastic bag
All the summer memories I didn't get o I wish I had
A breezy fall day three months after the month of May
May life's beauty of nature bring enlightenment to...
temperature begins to drop what was green is now orange summer once again becomes just a thought hopefully nature's beauty and change will enlighten my soul to the gift of life
What's important is right in front of me taken for granted at times
covered with snow like my fucked up lies
Can be taken away just like the leaves raked in a plastic bag
All the summer memories I didn't get o I wish I had
A breezy fall day three months after the month of May
May life's beauty of nature bring enlightenment to...
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UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
25th Sep 2016 6:42am
25th Sep 2016 6:42am
Grateful
I want to say goodnight and god bless
Focused on today and tomorrow fuck the rest.
Being able to be happy and proud is truly a blessing .
Living my life in gods name asking forgiveness while I'm confessing
I am a sinner not proud of what I've done
Using my hands as deadly weapons just like a gun
I must remember that he sacrificed his only son for me
My soul is not mine but his to set free
I'm a drug addict with all the honest intentions
Trying to defeat this insanity and learn a lesson
I know I can be a good man in his eyes
All it takes is...
Focused on today and tomorrow fuck the rest.
Being able to be happy and proud is truly a blessing .
Living my life in gods name asking forgiveness while I'm confessing
I am a sinner not proud of what I've done
Using my hands as deadly weapons just like a gun
I must remember that he sacrificed his only son for me
My soul is not mine but his to set free
I'm a drug addict with all the honest intentions
Trying to defeat this insanity and learn a lesson
I know I can be a good man in his eyes
All it takes is...
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DRUGS POEM
Published
23rd Sep 2016 4:55pm
23rd Sep 2016 4:55pm
f**k
The life of a drug addict is never hard thats what i was told
Coming from a person never addicted to substance a comment so bold
Its something i admire most in myself my 29 years
Living and surviving a harsh lifestyle fighting my greatest fears
Through social media im perceived as an addict with a good heart
Through the eyes of my close family burns hate wanti.g failure fuck letting me start
Maybe its me who has the mental illness which im proud of
But its them in denial as i bring them a new pipe and and some drugs
All i know is i need to make this work...
Coming from a person never addicted to substance a comment so bold
Its something i admire most in myself my 29 years
Living and surviving a harsh lifestyle fighting my greatest fears
Through social media im perceived as an addict with a good heart
Through the eyes of my close family burns hate wanti.g failure fuck letting me start
Maybe its me who has the mental illness which im proud of
But its them in denial as i bring them a new pipe and and some drugs
All i know is i need to make this work...
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DRUGS POEM
Published
7th Sep 2016 4:45am
7th Sep 2016 4:45am
Hepatitis me
Sitting all alone in a doctors office nothing but desperation and open space
especially when he or she comes in to play reeper face to face
all that's left to do is get on your knees and humble thy self
cuz not even he sees how rich you are or concerned towards ones wealth
it's an inner strength that has to spark a change
Relying on external has got you nowhere but handcuffs straight jackets almost insane
Hepatitis c isn't a death sentance anymore
It's all on you to determine whether this life is worth living for
especially when he or she comes in to play reeper face to face
all that's left to do is get on your knees and humble thy self
cuz not even he sees how rich you are or concerned towards ones wealth
it's an inner strength that has to spark a change
Relying on external has got you nowhere but handcuffs straight jackets almost insane
Hepatitis c isn't a death sentance anymore
It's all on you to determine whether this life is worth living for
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
7th Sep 2016 4:43am
7th Sep 2016 4:43am
Wrongful ignorance
I fucking stink like cold sweat and rain
The pure stench cannot match my inner pain
The back of a cop car filled with tears
Doing nothing wrong but what was heard with ears
Only thing told was I did no crime
Not one but two cops hospital ready escort one at each side afraid of going back to psych ward wishing for change
To my suprise the staff is wanting the best
Now I'm judgemental that I confess
GRATEFUL for a release and some awkward days
Hopefully next time ignorance is put a stray
The pure stench cannot match my inner pain
The back of a cop car filled with tears
Doing nothing wrong but what was heard with ears
Only thing told was I did no crime
Not one but two cops hospital ready escort one at each side afraid of going back to psych ward wishing for change
To my suprise the staff is wanting the best
Now I'm judgemental that I confess
GRATEFUL for a release and some awkward days
Hopefully next time ignorance is put a stray
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DARK POEM
Published
19th Aug 2016 9:37pm
19th Aug 2016 9:37pm
Addicted subconscious
I c who you are in the dark night ] [ edit ]
I c who you are in the dark night
Y don't you ever come out show yourself in the light
Its OK to be scared once in a while
Nobody wants to hurt you all they want to c is your smile
I'm not trying to make you do anything you don't want to do
But if you stay tucked away like a coward than only I will know the real you
Y is it only your mother and father can make your inner child come out
I know them stab wounds hurt quit fronting I know what your all about
Fifty what's that supposed to mean
Shit I've...
I c who you are in the dark night
Y don't you ever come out show yourself in the light
Its OK to be scared once in a while
Nobody wants to hurt you all they want to c is your smile
I'm not trying to make you do anything you don't want to do
But if you stay tucked away like a coward than only I will know the real you
Y is it only your mother and father can make your inner child come out
I know them stab wounds hurt quit fronting I know what your all about
Fifty what's that supposed to mean
Shit I've...
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