Submissions by diablia363 (Alisha Ranstrom)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
diablia363 aka alisha I've been to nowhere and everywhere at same time ,I've felt so lost and silent. Until someone gave me deep underground on which to purge my thoughts spewing them from the depths of my mind..laying them out for others like me to find.
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
21st Dec 2016 6:34am
21st Dec 2016 6:34am
The need
the need to be heard
the absolute need to be felt
to have my words
caress one's ear
and further infuse
to touch that soulful place within
a race to the finish
touching a person's desire
igniting a fire breathlessly
attaining the win
when read once then reread
than the climax comes
when were saved to a list
to be forever kept
the need of vast understanding
to be intimate with strangers
to become old knowing friends
in but a few stanzas
my need fulfilled
through your understanding ...
the absolute need to be felt
to have my words
caress one's ear
and further infuse
to touch that soulful place within
a race to the finish
touching a person's desire
igniting a fire breathlessly
attaining the win
when read once then reread
than the climax comes
when were saved to a list
to be forever kept
the need of vast understanding
to be intimate with strangers
to become old knowing friends
in but a few stanzas
my need fulfilled
through your understanding ...
643 reads
7 Comments
EROTIC POEM
Published
24th Nov 2016 00:53am
24th Nov 2016 00:53am
pondorous
The holidays used to mean so much
now I find no joy in baking or shopping
I fill space , keep a plastic smile on my face
my eyes cloud but where would i go
what would I do ?
I never look at me and see too much
I see lines where there was none
I see not ever being with the one.
I see a tired bored individual
and those two together are never
a winning combo on me
but I'm older wiser
I'm a spendthrift and a miser ha right
I'm lonely and lost in a sea of emotion
don't even like who i see looking back at me from my reflection...
now I find no joy in baking or shopping
I fill space , keep a plastic smile on my face
my eyes cloud but where would i go
what would I do ?
I never look at me and see too much
I see lines where there was none
I see not ever being with the one.
I see a tired bored individual
and those two together are never
a winning combo on me
but I'm older wiser
I'm a spendthrift and a miser ha right
I'm lonely and lost in a sea of emotion
don't even like who i see looking back at me from my reflection...
755 reads
0 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
25th Oct 2016 10:27am
25th Oct 2016 10:27am
Missed chances
Nothing in this dark dysmal exsi ,
I take my cold out side stance.,
But your being there whenever ,
Allowed me dare i say it to hope,
This time i gave myself the noose
Tied rope,
Wanting you ,needing your comfort,
,But the dream of meeting you,
Kept me focused. Kept me sane
Now i wish id only let your words
Into my brain ,
,Not allowing the attachment to grow
and take root.in my heart
A phone relationship against my grain
, but you made it worth every
Minute with sweet nothings
Those moments became my
Everything ,I had so...
I take my cold out side stance.,
But your being there whenever ,
Allowed me dare i say it to hope,
This time i gave myself the noose
Tied rope,
Wanting you ,needing your comfort,
,But the dream of meeting you,
Kept me focused. Kept me sane
Now i wish id only let your words
Into my brain ,
,Not allowing the attachment to grow
and take root.in my heart
A phone relationship against my grain
, but you made it worth every
Minute with sweet nothings
Those moments became my
Everything ,I had so...
616 reads
3 Comments
STORY POEM
Published
3rd Sep 2016 11:27pm
3rd Sep 2016 11:27pm
Chloe haamamila joy havarilla
There's such a good feeling,
I got making your passage easier
Into the new life you'll be born
You are being given a great mom.
I think I am your aunty godmother,
Surrogate female father self proclaimed ,your beautiful mother and I are great friends .
we are great cause
we are better than best.
I can't wait to meet you ,
I know you'll be beautiful
Smart and strong your name
Shall be given like a kiss from heaven
All God's blessings ,including your own angels of protection, May your heart Be as good and true as...
I got making your passage easier
Into the new life you'll be born
You are being given a great mom.
I think I am your aunty godmother,
Surrogate female father self proclaimed ,your beautiful mother and I are great friends .
we are great cause
we are better than best.
I can't wait to meet you ,
I know you'll be beautiful
Smart and strong your name
Shall be given like a kiss from heaven
All God's blessings ,including your own angels of protection, May your heart Be as good and true as...
532 reads
ANGER POEM
Published
27th Apr 2016 10:29pm
27th Apr 2016 10:29pm
Stop feeling sorry for yourself
Nobody can understand the self
Takes ovsr and your stuck in your head
Used to havd spunk in you a light
A LIFE THAT I FELT IMPORTANT
I kept trying no crying kept going
Even if my path was pointless
Still head held high so proud
Well where did pride find me
In an ambulance in the hospital for months
Had the drive to walk instead
Of feeling sorry for myself
A pitiful shell of the person
I used to be i cant move without stiffness and pain
I try hard to see a gods plan for me
But learning to live half a life now
When the only cause...
Takes ovsr and your stuck in your head
Used to havd spunk in you a light
A LIFE THAT I FELT IMPORTANT
I kept trying no crying kept going
Even if my path was pointless
Still head held high so proud
Well where did pride find me
In an ambulance in the hospital for months
Had the drive to walk instead
Of feeling sorry for myself
A pitiful shell of the person
I used to be i cant move without stiffness and pain
I try hard to see a gods plan for me
But learning to live half a life now
When the only cause...
788 reads
1 Comment
DRUGS POEM
Published
28th Mar 2016 1:30am
28th Mar 2016 1:30am
maybe
I never said I was right
You never said I wasn't
You are my light even
though you've become dark
I haven't ever expected to have you forgive me
I could be selfish and pray you'd forget
But just maybe your eyes never caught my regret
Just cause I always smiled when inside
I had totally died,and any burning tears I choked on
I'd hide deep inside I know you owe me nothing
And any shred I'll gladly take
Not cause I think I'm not worth more
But because you never asked to be born
I brought you here with the promise and intent
To give you all...
You never said I wasn't
You are my light even
though you've become dark
I haven't ever expected to have you forgive me
I could be selfish and pray you'd forget
But just maybe your eyes never caught my regret
Just cause I always smiled when inside
I had totally died,and any burning tears I choked on
I'd hide deep inside I know you owe me nothing
And any shred I'll gladly take
Not cause I think I'm not worth more
But because you never asked to be born
I brought you here with the promise and intent
To give you all...
950 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
27th Mar 2016 2:34am
27th Mar 2016 2:34am
three sides to every story
What two people remember
Two people live the same situation
Together mind you
How there's three sides to every story.
My version, your version , and the truth,
I never Candy coated my shortcomings
I know I've lived selfishly I hate to use a crutch
But I was on drugs and at times I let my dependence
Make choices for me rather than my heart or mind
But unfortunately I'm human and prone to mistakes
😈 I know I deserve nothing but the middle finger
But I thought if you could have a real life with your dad
cause he was living right...
Two people live the same situation
Together mind you
How there's three sides to every story.
My version, your version , and the truth,
I never Candy coated my shortcomings
I know I've lived selfishly I hate to use a crutch
But I was on drugs and at times I let my dependence
Make choices for me rather than my heart or mind
But unfortunately I'm human and prone to mistakes
😈 I know I deserve nothing but the middle finger
But I thought if you could have a real life with your dad
cause he was living right...
760 reads
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
4th Feb 2016 8:49pm
4th Feb 2016 8:49pm
Broken wings
Early in the morning. All alone with only the rain
I sit ponder my life so riddled with pain
A solo exsistence filled with disdain
I'm a few weeks to forty years old
And my years have all been wasted
All forbidden fruits I've at least tasted
Discretion never my Top priority
An angel with tattered wings
And a broken halo no shoulders left
Just brittle crumbling bones
The weight of the world no longer my burden
Only my death seems the only truth that is certain
No more unconditional love and forgiveness
Turning the other cheek no longer...
I sit ponder my life so riddled with pain
A solo exsistence filled with disdain
I'm a few weeks to forty years old
And my years have all been wasted
All forbidden fruits I've at least tasted
Discretion never my Top priority
An angel with tattered wings
And a broken halo no shoulders left
Just brittle crumbling bones
The weight of the world no longer my burden
Only my death seems the only truth that is certain
No more unconditional love and forgiveness
Turning the other cheek no longer...
819 reads
4 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
22nd Oct 2015 1:02am
22nd Oct 2015 1:02am
Jealousy
Did you know as you whine and cry
In my minds eye I see me smashing you in the mouth
Do you know I struggle every month
Nobody helps me financially
I provide for me and my son
You get everything handed to you
Everybody falls all over themselves
To give you all I struggle for
I guess I'm really not mad at you I'm disgusted by me and
my green eyed
Jealousy .You scoff at me like I should do more but why should
I cater to you too
Cause I don't victimize myself
The way you do
I'm a survivor not a victim
I learned how to cope
How...
In my minds eye I see me smashing you in the mouth
Do you know I struggle every month
Nobody helps me financially
I provide for me and my son
You get everything handed to you
Everybody falls all over themselves
To give you all I struggle for
I guess I'm really not mad at you I'm disgusted by me and
my green eyed
Jealousy .You scoff at me like I should do more but why should
I cater to you too
Cause I don't victimize myself
The way you do
I'm a survivor not a victim
I learned how to cope
How...
604 reads
1 Comment
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
23rd Sep 2015 6:30am
23rd Sep 2015 6:30am
The cost of a place
Is there never a place for me
One that is an equal exchange
Is the hope so strange
I speak to you but you don't see
I do all I can down to be free
Are you stupid I never expected it to be
I pay my way and you over charge
And think yourself entitled
To all of my energy and attention
Too
I pay rent and work for you
And you act like I do nada
And buy yourself Prada
While I'm no hater
I just don't see how you think I owe
You so much I cringe at your touch
Your words are lies
You can't be accountable
You make me sick ...
One that is an equal exchange
Is the hope so strange
I speak to you but you don't see
I do all I can down to be free
Are you stupid I never expected it to be
I pay my way and you over charge
And think yourself entitled
To all of my energy and attention
Too
I pay rent and work for you
And you act like I do nada
And buy yourself Prada
While I'm no hater
I just don't see how you think I owe
You so much I cringe at your touch
Your words are lies
You can't be accountable
You make me sick ...
570 reads
1 Comment
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