Submissions by diablia363 (Alisha Ranstrom)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
diablia363 aka alisha I've been to nowhere and everywhere at same time ,I've felt so lost and silent. Until someone gave me deep underground on which to purge my thoughts spewing them from the depths of my mind..laying them out for others like me to find.
SELF POEM
Published
20th Apr 2020 2:45am
20th Apr 2020 2:45am
Grief lifes emotional rollercoaster ride
Angry cause you left us ,guilt ridden cause I didn't visit you more,
sad beyond compare , disappointed in the medical profession leukemiah can eat a bag of dicks, so can the doctors that took your pain killers and called you an addict , people are so misguided and sick , you suffered and hurt when it didn't have to happen , neurapathy depression my ma never complained bless her heart that went to shit on her six open heart surgeries later , she was a fighter so strong , to not have her smiling soul here is a fucking sin , She was unconditional love she never cared what I was or wasnt...
sad beyond compare , disappointed in the medical profession leukemiah can eat a bag of dicks, so can the doctors that took your pain killers and called you an addict , people are so misguided and sick , you suffered and hurt when it didn't have to happen , neurapathy depression my ma never complained bless her heart that went to shit on her six open heart surgeries later , she was a fighter so strong , to not have her smiling soul here is a fucking sin , She was unconditional love she never cared what I was or wasnt...
#kindness
#courage
#inspirational
#admiration
#emotions
458 reads
4 Comments
SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
28th Mar 2019 7:59am
28th Mar 2019 7:59am
overcome
I sometimes am overcome with emotions,
When I see the smile of a dog or hear the laughter of a child.
When I find life overwhelms me when an obstacle seems too large ,
when I'm making a mountain out of a molehill.
When I feel the shame of my past when the smile on my face hides the tears of my heart when life tries to keep me down
Your love for me the warmth of your fire within my soul,
The sun on my face and the smell of the morning dew washes this dirty world clean ,Your love is real your forgiveness is without judgment or condition , You've always waited...
When I see the smile of a dog or hear the laughter of a child.
When I find life overwhelms me when an obstacle seems too large ,
when I'm making a mountain out of a molehill.
When I feel the shame of my past when the smile on my face hides the tears of my heart when life tries to keep me down
Your love for me the warmth of your fire within my soul,
The sun on my face and the smell of the morning dew washes this dirty world clean ,Your love is real your forgiveness is without judgment or condition , You've always waited...
#happiness
#inspirational
#God
531 reads
SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
3rd Feb 2018 7:11am
3rd Feb 2018 7:11am
Empty
I used to think my life was full.
But I know realize its been so empty,
The shadowed dark recesses of a broken mind.
A world of dreams make believe ,head in the clouds.
But because of that lost mysterious look .
My empty pages were filled and now i am a book
Every page a new path i took rounding old paths
taking all of life's pleasures
And now suffering unrepentant Gods wrath,
taking a breath now deep and hold ,
Feeling a freedom I've only just come to understand
taking the plunge and taking hold of gods hand
My sin...
But I know realize its been so empty,
The shadowed dark recesses of a broken mind.
A world of dreams make believe ,head in the clouds.
But because of that lost mysterious look .
My empty pages were filled and now i am a book
Every page a new path i took rounding old paths
taking all of life's pleasures
And now suffering unrepentant Gods wrath,
taking a breath now deep and hold ,
Feeling a freedom I've only just come to understand
taking the plunge and taking hold of gods hand
My sin...
688 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
10th Aug 2017 7:56am
10th Aug 2017 7:56am
Remember when ,
Remember when wed speak for hours while you were at work
Remember when i could listen to you talk for hours
Do you think of me often or even at all
Do silently wish that id call
Do you fall asleep thinking of what ifs and maybes
Like i have been do you wish like i do
That what we had was really a something we had
I know some lines only make sense to me
But my love do you remember when we fell in love on the phone
Do you think of that girl so far away
Do you remember me often throughout your day
Would you even recognize me now ...
Remember when i could listen to you talk for hours
Do you think of me often or even at all
Do silently wish that id call
Do you fall asleep thinking of what ifs and maybes
Like i have been do you wish like i do
That what we had was really a something we had
I know some lines only make sense to me
But my love do you remember when we fell in love on the phone
Do you think of that girl so far away
Do you remember me often throughout your day
Would you even recognize me now ...
#PopCulture
723 reads
4 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
8th Aug 2017 2:30pm
8th Aug 2017 2:30pm
i dont know
I don't know why I can't seem to stay away
except I love the torture sweet to the fray
there's nothing better than ridicule
however minuscule to set pride aside
beyond my word I quietly hide
surrounded by greatness smiling
yet crippled with the fear losing touch
the sense of feel doubting all things
even when seeming real shedding
facades wore like a snakes skin
tampering with gratitude
eating souls like food
being judgemental and often rude
but to each his own
your habits are to shrink others so you feel tall
ugly...
except I love the torture sweet to the fray
there's nothing better than ridicule
however minuscule to set pride aside
beyond my word I quietly hide
surrounded by greatness smiling
yet crippled with the fear losing touch
the sense of feel doubting all things
even when seeming real shedding
facades wore like a snakes skin
tampering with gratitude
eating souls like food
being judgemental and often rude
but to each his own
your habits are to shrink others so you feel tall
ugly...
#FeelingLost
#FeelingTrapped
#emotional
#apathy
#emotions
641 reads
0 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
10th Jul 2017 1:55am
10th Jul 2017 1:55am
A Fat Girls Wish(if only)
only me just me all of me
I wish that I was about half of what I've become
heavier than I been ever
if only I could have surgery t
that miraculously took the weight away
I think if only I wasn't such a good cook
if only meth wasn't illegal lol
if only my metabolism was as quick as my youth
if only I could stay dedicated and true to exercise and diet
if only food wasn't soo good
if only yoga did more than help with pain
if only skinny propaganda didn't run through my brain
if only I hated ice cream and midnight cereal
if only...
I wish that I was about half of what I've become
heavier than I been ever
if only I could have surgery t
that miraculously took the weight away
I think if only I wasn't such a good cook
if only meth wasn't illegal lol
if only my metabolism was as quick as my youth
if only I could stay dedicated and true to exercise and diet
if only food wasn't soo good
if only yoga did more than help with pain
if only skinny propaganda didn't run through my brain
if only I hated ice cream and midnight cereal
if only...
701 reads
SELF POEM
Published
20th May 2017 2:03am
20th May 2017 2:03am
Namaste
The beautiful first rays of the sun
brings the pollinating bees, plants, and trees.
the birds seem to fly lower coasting wings spread lazily.
The best part of the sun is the life it seems to breathe into me
it awakens an inner smile that the year-long winters diminish
it brings my practice a lightened energetic intention
I thank myself and the sun for coming to practice today
namaste .
brings the pollinating bees, plants, and trees.
the birds seem to fly lower coasting wings spread lazily.
The best part of the sun is the life it seems to breathe into me
it awakens an inner smile that the year-long winters diminish
it brings my practice a lightened energetic intention
I thank myself and the sun for coming to practice today
namaste .
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1 Comment
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
17th May 2017 3:33am
17th May 2017 3:33am
sckitzophrenics thought process( things we know)
There are things in life we know
like how I'm real
and how your fake
how I always give
and they always take
how people can't ever
be dependable
how I look strong
but inside I break
how my mouth is closed
but in my mind's eye
it is wide and howling
my hands are at my sides
but I see them hit claw punch and destroy
but still, my hands are uselessly clenched in fists
how bloody old scars mar my wrists
the words are quieted by the screams
the wakefulness is strangely diluted with dreams
the whys and...
like how I'm real
and how your fake
how I always give
and they always take
how people can't ever
be dependable
how I look strong
but inside I break
how my mouth is closed
but in my mind's eye
it is wide and howling
my hands are at my sides
but I see them hit claw punch and destroy
but still, my hands are uselessly clenched in fists
how bloody old scars mar my wrists
the words are quieted by the screams
the wakefulness is strangely diluted with dreams
the whys and...
645 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
24th Mar 2017 5:45pm
24th Mar 2017 5:45pm
nowhere
Don't cry if your 41 and nowhere
cause your still- walking your path and
no one can take that truth away
you may not feel you've accomplished
anything-real ,
but that's just how you feel .
your empathy for others pain
the confidence with which you carry
the scars and burdens of time
do not take from the gentle intensity
of your green eyes
your smile meets them at each corner
so you can't become all you hoped
but you can absolutely keep climbing
keep trudging through the waste
for the precious moments of...
cause your still- walking your path and
no one can take that truth away
you may not feel you've accomplished
anything-real ,
but that's just how you feel .
your empathy for others pain
the confidence with which you carry
the scars and burdens of time
do not take from the gentle intensity
of your green eyes
your smile meets them at each corner
so you can't become all you hoped
but you can absolutely keep climbing
keep trudging through the waste
for the precious moments of...
688 reads
0 Comments
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