Submissions by closram25
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
6th Jun 2020 7:58pm
6th Jun 2020 7:58pm
Untitled
And I'm always alone
I found peace within the darkness
And lately I've been lost and confused
I got voices saying I'll always lose,
In this trench for quite some time now
I don't remember how I got here
But I know I don't have anything to lose
Because everyone left when they could.
And I got a good heart still; and still
Made sure everyone around me was good
Staring at the man in the broken mirror.
Time changed
People change
And eventually,
So did I.
I found peace within the darkness
And lately I've been lost and confused
I got voices saying I'll always lose,
In this trench for quite some time now
I don't remember how I got here
But I know I don't have anything to lose
Because everyone left when they could.
And I got a good heart still; and still
Made sure everyone around me was good
Staring at the man in the broken mirror.
Time changed
People change
And eventually,
So did I.
#FeelingLost
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SELF POEM
Published
29th May 2020 11:20pm
29th May 2020 11:20pm
Ethereal of sadness
Pray for me I know I'm not alright yeah
I spend my time alone at night
Watch the stars as I drink excessively
Mind flooded as I cry out to nobody
Baby I don't want to do this
Heart broke I don't see any changes
Tightrope as my mind rages;
Hellbent when there was no haven.
What's it like to be wanted,
I only ask this cause I'm haunted
Lost in the unknown, I can't pretend;
I'm alone to the very end
I just want a friend
But they only care about material,
Call me crazy I can feel my end.
I see all...
I spend my time alone at night
Watch the stars as I drink excessively
Mind flooded as I cry out to nobody
Baby I don't want to do this
Heart broke I don't see any changes
Tightrope as my mind rages;
Hellbent when there was no haven.
What's it like to be wanted,
I only ask this cause I'm haunted
Lost in the unknown, I can't pretend;
I'm alone to the very end
I just want a friend
But they only care about material,
Call me crazy I can feel my end.
I see all...
#loneliness
#MentalHealth
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SELF POEM
Published
16th May 2020 4:28pm
16th May 2020 4:28pm
Thoughts of a broken soul
I don't feel alive
Hand on the 9 I've been trying to survive
Alone; it gets hard trying to strive when you've been striving alone
All the time in the world, & nobody want it
A memory that's what I'm striving for
If I left today I wouldn't remember me.
Everyone say your special but not a priority and that tends to get to me
But I guess that's not important
so I've been told.
All the visions in my world nobody want to be part of it.
I've been drinking heavily no luck it kills me
Tired of hearing only words
Maybe I don't belong ...
Hand on the 9 I've been trying to survive
Alone; it gets hard trying to strive when you've been striving alone
All the time in the world, & nobody want it
A memory that's what I'm striving for
If I left today I wouldn't remember me.
Everyone say your special but not a priority and that tends to get to me
But I guess that's not important
so I've been told.
All the visions in my world nobody want to be part of it.
I've been drinking heavily no luck it kills me
Tired of hearing only words
Maybe I don't belong ...
#anxiety
#depression
#loneliness
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SELF POEM
Published
16th May 2020 4:15pm
16th May 2020 4:15pm
Like a treadmill
Mama I'm sorry I'm always tired
I'm still searching for a reason
Nirvana is what I desire.
I breathe but haven't felt alive
I walked but haven't made progression
Come home from work and
I don't want to be bothered
Lock myself in and find myself bothered,
I reached out for closure and in return
Only got a cold shoulder.
Why am I always alone!?
All these drugs; there's no longer an effect
All this money but it can't buy happiness.
I'm still searching for a reason
Nirvana is what I desire.
I breathe but haven't felt alive
I walked but haven't made progression
Come home from work and
I don't want to be bothered
Lock myself in and find myself bothered,
I reached out for closure and in return
Only got a cold shoulder.
Why am I always alone!?
All these drugs; there's no longer an effect
All this money but it can't buy happiness.
#depression
#loneliness
#MentalHealth
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SELF POEM
Published
17th Apr 2020 5:49am
17th Apr 2020 5:49am
Broken Glass
Searching for the answers I'm not content
People wave as I'm staring out the window; no one knows my true intent;
I smile as I hold back the tears.
Heart broken, there was no shoulder
I got my shit together; alas all alone
Don't think I was made for happiness
Staring out the window
No one knows my true intent.
People wave as I'm staring out the window; no one knows my true intent;
I smile as I hold back the tears.
Heart broken, there was no shoulder
I got my shit together; alas all alone
Don't think I was made for happiness
Staring out the window
No one knows my true intent.
#depression
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SELF POEM
Published
27th Feb 2020 3:40am
27th Feb 2020 3:40am
N/a
I'm alone; I'm lost in the unknown,
I crave attention like a human
Don't believe in happiness that's an allusion
I dont know where to go
Astral project to find my soul
poison my body you should already know.
I don't even try, the energy never match
Bad vibes forever that's all I catch.
23 years my heart's filled with wrath
Momma worry that I might actually be a psychopath;
I worry today might be my last.
Sadness all my life
loneliness is what it feels like
Third time's the charm,
XoXo.
I crave attention like a human
Don't believe in happiness that's an allusion
I dont know where to go
Astral project to find my soul
poison my body you should already know.
I don't even try, the energy never match
Bad vibes forever that's all I catch.
23 years my heart's filled with wrath
Momma worry that I might actually be a psychopath;
I worry today might be my last.
Sadness all my life
loneliness is what it feels like
Third time's the charm,
XoXo.
#LifeStruggles
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SELF POEM
Published
5th Feb 2020 6:07pm
5th Feb 2020 6:07pm
Save me Luke
Looking for a reason why I should stay;
No one truly cares I've seen for 22 years
I know I'm not alright I'm looking for the kill
Numb to all this pain I took all the pills;
Body twitching why would they
want to save me
All my life it was darkness Anakin;
The cycle continues.
No one truly cares I've seen for 22 years
I know I'm not alright I'm looking for the kill
Numb to all this pain I took all the pills;
Body twitching why would they
want to save me
All my life it was darkness Anakin;
The cycle continues.
#depression
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LOVE POEM
Published
4th Sep 2019 9:16pm
4th Sep 2019 9:16pm
Don't know love; she's a stranger to me
All my life I've been chasing
I wrote cards I'll never send
The girl I fell in love with;
Just tied the knots...
Can't be happy, but I'm happy for her.;
I tried until the end but
Everyone leaves in the end.
Drowning in the whiskey
Wishing I was dead...
Can't be happy; but I'm happy for her..
I cared when no one else did
So you went and broke down the bridge.
I spend my final days by my lonely
I don't know love; she's a stranger to me.
I wrote cards I'll never send
The girl I fell in love with;
Just tied the knots...
Can't be happy, but I'm happy for her.;
I tried until the end but
Everyone leaves in the end.
Drowning in the whiskey
Wishing I was dead...
Can't be happy; but I'm happy for her..
I cared when no one else did
So you went and broke down the bridge.
I spend my final days by my lonely
I don't know love; she's a stranger to me.
#loneliness
#heartbroken
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Jun 2019 9:09pm
11th Jun 2019 9:09pm
Pandora's Box
I long for contact I'm tired of feeling alone
I'm tired of reaching for death
When he doesn't want to claim my own..
I know I'm loved. I know.. I know.
I put the noose round my neck broad daylight
Wear it as a chain so I can be alright
Quick thinking so I can be alright
All these negatives from pandora's box,
There is no hope
I'm tired of reaching for death
When he doesn't want to claim my own..
I know I'm loved. I know.. I know.
I put the noose round my neck broad daylight
Wear it as a chain so I can be alright
Quick thinking so I can be alright
All these negatives from pandora's box,
There is no hope
#depression
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LOVE POEM
Published
27th Jan 2019 2:09pm
27th Jan 2019 2:09pm
Die Alone
She wants to see me die alone
Reassure me with empty words,
Break my heart yet again.
Chasing white lies there she go
Reassured with empty words,
Break her heart yet again..
What's it like to be loved?
Inside a world filled with distrust
Do I have what it takes to keep on going.
Seven years have gone down the drain.
Put me out my misery, so it no longer rains
She wants to see me die alone
Reassure me with empty words.
I picked my poison oh yes I have,
Waiting to die down this lonesome path,
I picked my poison oh yes I...
Reassure me with empty words,
Break my heart yet again.
Chasing white lies there she go
Reassured with empty words,
Break her heart yet again..
What's it like to be loved?
Inside a world filled with distrust
Do I have what it takes to keep on going.
Seven years have gone down the drain.
Put me out my misery, so it no longer rains
She wants to see me die alone
Reassure me with empty words.
I picked my poison oh yes I have,
Waiting to die down this lonesome path,
I picked my poison oh yes I...
#depression
#loneliness
#heartbroken
#fate
#FirstLove
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SELF POEM
Published
24th Jan 2019 1:42pm
24th Jan 2019 1:42pm
Life Interlude
Who do I go to when death is behind me
Riding my tailgate waiting for I to lose control
For whom do the bells toll when I still have a life to live.
Time waits for none, but its frozen as I make this painful decision...
Riding my tailgate waiting for I to lose control
For whom do the bells toll when I still have a life to live.
Time waits for none, but its frozen as I make this painful decision...
#anxiety
#dark
#FeelingTrapped
#emotional
#temptation
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SELF POEM
Published
23rd Jan 2019 1:23pm
23rd Jan 2019 1:23pm
Black Skies
And who do I go to when no one's there
I can't see it's dark inside of here,
Internally conflicted inside this head here,
Everyone wants to ride me dry
When truthfully I just want to die,
I miss my grandpa it should've been me
They talk just to comfort but
Nobody truly cares for me.
Happiness and white lies
I see death with open arms
Embrace him while I'm staring at the stars.
I can't see it's dark inside of here,
Internally conflicted inside this head here,
Everyone wants to ride me dry
When truthfully I just want to die,
I miss my grandpa it should've been me
They talk just to comfort but
Nobody truly cares for me.
Happiness and white lies
I see death with open arms
Embrace him while I'm staring at the stars.
#sadness
#depression
#loneliness
#heartbroken
#emptiness
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