Submissions by anonymouslyhere (Pariah Shadow)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I just toss words around until it feels right.
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
12th Nov 2019 7:03am
12th Nov 2019 7:03am
The Exit of A Smile
One smile
To a life
Unlit
Is such a gift
One smile
That now is
Fleeting
Turning away
As I turn to catch
One last glimpse.
To a life
Unlit
Is such a gift
One smile
That now is
Fleeting
Turning away
As I turn to catch
One last glimpse.
#sadness
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
10th Nov 2019 8:37am
10th Nov 2019 8:37am
Silent
Too timid to speak
I lied to you twice
With words unsaid
Just a pale look
Intertwined eyes
You took as anger
You supposed the silence
Was a lack of affection
I hope one day
I can right the wrong.
I lied to you twice
With words unsaid
Just a pale look
Intertwined eyes
You took as anger
You supposed the silence
Was a lack of affection
I hope one day
I can right the wrong.
#lover
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DARK POEM
Published
6th Nov 2019 10:39am
6th Nov 2019 10:39am
What a Fine Day to Die
Quiet waters unmarred
Still and refecting heavens
The air feels like common autumn
You can almost feel the forgotten
souls who've closed their eyes
I've closed my two windows
From this peaceful view
I wanted one last memory
Of a world that didn't seem
So utterly fucked
I came here to find joy
I wanted an escape
I've only found a shortcoming
My emotions no longer function
I'm blind to the beauty
And deaf to harmony
It all seems so silly
To expect some view
Such as this scene
To be...
Still and refecting heavens
The air feels like common autumn
You can almost feel the forgotten
souls who've closed their eyes
I've closed my two windows
From this peaceful view
I wanted one last memory
Of a world that didn't seem
So utterly fucked
I came here to find joy
I wanted an escape
I've only found a shortcoming
My emotions no longer function
I'm blind to the beauty
And deaf to harmony
It all seems so silly
To expect some view
Such as this scene
To be...
#depression
#suicide
#hurt
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DARK POEM
Published
30th Oct 2019 10:17am
30th Oct 2019 10:17am
Forced Upon
Walk across this floor
As I once did
With cold bare skin
Between a cage of pink walls
These awful plastic shower curtains
It was agonizing and terrifying
I tried a lifetime of denying
Those few minutes that changed me
I rocked to and fro
In a sea in trembling
I've not seen a blue sky
I've not felt a warm night
Torturous memories
Keep your disgraceful face alive
I thought you died long ago
But you remain in my mind
As vile and violent as then
Mastermind, keeping silence
That sacred...
As I once did
With cold bare skin
Between a cage of pink walls
These awful plastic shower curtains
It was agonizing and terrifying
I tried a lifetime of denying
Those few minutes that changed me
I rocked to and fro
In a sea in trembling
I've not seen a blue sky
I've not felt a warm night
Torturous memories
Keep your disgraceful face alive
I thought you died long ago
But you remain in my mind
As vile and violent as then
Mastermind, keeping silence
That sacred...
#violence
#abuse
538 reads
4 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
25th Oct 2019 12:26pm
25th Oct 2019 12:26pm
Of All the Boring Halfwits
I was painted a different shade
It was a rainy Sunday
God loves a little irony
You were dressed to the nines
Insufferable and dimwitted
As per usual, I suppose
I was happy to ignore
Stale complaints
I was fixed on a tree
And the raven therein pondering
Nestled down as to draw no attention
But I spotted it, weeping
I could float around this place
But you're much too preoccupied
With silly conversations and gossip
I wish I had your ability to be happy
Sucking the color from the trees
And be...
It was a rainy Sunday
God loves a little irony
You were dressed to the nines
Insufferable and dimwitted
As per usual, I suppose
I was happy to ignore
Stale complaints
I was fixed on a tree
And the raven therein pondering
Nestled down as to draw no attention
But I spotted it, weeping
I could float around this place
But you're much too preoccupied
With silly conversations and gossip
I wish I had your ability to be happy
Sucking the color from the trees
And be...
#hate
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DARK POEM
Published
21st Oct 2019 8:54am
21st Oct 2019 8:54am
Flowers Refuse to Grow Here
In some of us, it is engraved
Beneath the outer flesh
Behind a sequestered heart
Manifested in the outpour
Of love, of passion, of anger
Once the excitement fades
It's only myself and my darkness
Flowers refuse to grow here
Hollow and despondent
It is instilled in my dim existence.
Beneath the outer flesh
Behind a sequestered heart
Manifested in the outpour
Of love, of passion, of anger
Once the excitement fades
It's only myself and my darkness
Flowers refuse to grow here
Hollow and despondent
It is instilled in my dim existence.
#depression
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
20th Oct 2019 12:25pm
20th Oct 2019 12:25pm
Be The Dreamless Lawman
There is no therapy
From behind the curtain
Of masquerading adults
Far from outgrowing childhood
Feeling withdrawn
In the coming dawn
I unbutton my lips
Just to fucking scream
It's the same words from
the same people
With their brotherly affectation
To seem relatable
With their old-testament rhetoric
Fire and brimstone raining
From a sky glowing cloudless
Be the dreamless lawman
Put out that red, angry eye
Look toward heaven
Not toward the sky
I've no time to be bothered
But I'm...
From behind the curtain
Of masquerading adults
Far from outgrowing childhood
Feeling withdrawn
In the coming dawn
I unbutton my lips
Just to fucking scream
It's the same words from
the same people
With their brotherly affectation
To seem relatable
With their old-testament rhetoric
Fire and brimstone raining
From a sky glowing cloudless
Be the dreamless lawman
Put out that red, angry eye
Look toward heaven
Not toward the sky
I've no time to be bothered
But I'm...
#anger
#disappointment
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SELF POEM
Published
17th Oct 2019 10:37am
17th Oct 2019 10:37am
I Once Was a Helpless Child.
It's hard to remember when
I smiled frequently
I once was a helpless child
I wasn't a pack a day smoker
I wasn't paranoid of others
I didn't have a reason to be
I took value in promises
I thought there was a heaven
And everyone was going
I was four or five I think
My life changed in a bathtub
When the stranger undressed me
He put his nude body next to mine
And planted the darkness in my mind
A mind I've long since lost
In a forest of fears
It isn't irrational anymore
I'm a man in...
I smiled frequently
I once was a helpless child
I wasn't a pack a day smoker
I wasn't paranoid of others
I didn't have a reason to be
I took value in promises
I thought there was a heaven
And everyone was going
I was four or five I think
My life changed in a bathtub
When the stranger undressed me
He put his nude body next to mine
And planted the darkness in my mind
A mind I've long since lost
In a forest of fears
It isn't irrational anymore
I'm a man in...
#childhood
#hurt
#abuse
416 reads
LOVE POEM
Published
16th Oct 2019 11:25am
16th Oct 2019 11:25am
Where This Road May End
Do you ever want to get married?
Find someone to scorn until death
Someone to
Pick apart whenever one of us is late
Someone to ride with when a long drive seems the best answer
And fall asleep in the lazy afternoons we don't have to work
We'll get sentimental on random days
We'll fight and scream and tell our dreams
Like their some sweet fiction well written
As if life is a movie with a happy ending
Buy cheap cigarettes and off-brand soft drinks
Provisionally enclined to poke fun at each others hair
We...
Find someone to scorn until death
Someone to
Pick apart whenever one of us is late
Someone to ride with when a long drive seems the best answer
And fall asleep in the lazy afternoons we don't have to work
We'll get sentimental on random days
We'll fight and scream and tell our dreams
Like their some sweet fiction well written
As if life is a movie with a happy ending
Buy cheap cigarettes and off-brand soft drinks
Provisionally enclined to poke fun at each others hair
We...
#love
427 reads
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
16th Oct 2019 10:54am
16th Oct 2019 10:54am
I Do Not Fear Death but Give it Due Respect
I do not fear death but give it due respect
Every fleeting moment escaping
Reminds me of the limit of time
The clock ticks constantly
Unwavering, stopping for nothing
Age and circumstance plotting
What shall be my fate?
And if it soon strikes am I satisfied
with the image that is left behind?
Did I ever forget to remind you
how much I cared for you?
Every fleeting moment escaping
Reminds me of the limit of time
The clock ticks constantly
Unwavering, stopping for nothing
Age and circumstance plotting
What shall be my fate?
And if it soon strikes am I satisfied
with the image that is left behind?
Did I ever forget to remind you
how much I cared for you?
#LifeChangingMoment
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Oct 2019 10:46am
14th Oct 2019 10:46am
If You Hate Me Just Know That I Do Too
I am a failure
I have emptied you
Every emotion
Poured out
Like cold coffee
I am an existential crisis
A heart in mourning
I am dying to feel like
I'm not dying
I am an angry wasp stinging
Everyone I land upon
I try not to but you,
you scare me
With those virgin eyes
I am a clusterfuck
A buzzing wall
Of white noise
I drown out
Your infectious affection
I am so, so, so sorry
My fate has found me.
I have emptied you
Every emotion
Poured out
Like cold coffee
I am an existential crisis
A heart in mourning
I am dying to feel like
I'm not dying
I am an angry wasp stinging
Everyone I land upon
I try not to but you,
you scare me
With those virgin eyes
I am a clusterfuck
A buzzing wall
Of white noise
I drown out
Your infectious affection
I am so, so, so sorry
My fate has found me.
#sadness
#anxiety
#love #depression
#love #depression
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SELF POEM
Published
13th Oct 2019 1:01pm
13th Oct 2019 1:01pm
A Little Ill, Mentally
Yesterday, I dug a hole
Threw into it some papers
Little scraps tattered, wrinkled
They had some thoughts
Rushed, incoherent
I had a manic day
My mind was overflowing
I thought about overthrowing
The government, by myself
I am a clown when I don't frown
I can't remember what I said
I just relive it through friends
Who said: "you were so different yesterday"
And I can't respond
It's as if I was in another life
I came back down, balling my eyes out
It was a flood on...
Threw into it some papers
Little scraps tattered, wrinkled
They had some thoughts
Rushed, incoherent
I had a manic day
My mind was overflowing
I thought about overthrowing
The government, by myself
I am a clown when I don't frown
I can't remember what I said
I just relive it through friends
Who said: "you were so different yesterday"
And I can't respond
It's as if I was in another life
I came back down, balling my eyes out
It was a flood on...
#bipolar
#MentalHealth
340 reads
2 Comments
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