Submissions by TellyLace88 (I_Am_Her)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
DRUGS POEM
Published
1st Aug 2024 10:15am
1st Aug 2024 10:15am
What It Looks Like
This is what it looks like
This is how the heartbreaks
Take a look at a golden soul turned black
From a little bit too much give and just not enough take
I’ve been changed in ways that cannot be undone
Parts of me will never be revived
These are the consequences that I must accept
For going back to a lifestyle I was more than blessed to have once already survived
This is how the heartbreaks
Take a look at a golden soul turned black
From a little bit too much give and just not enough take
I’ve been changed in ways that cannot be undone
Parts of me will never be revived
These are the consequences that I must accept
For going back to a lifestyle I was more than blessed to have once already survived
#disappointment
#drugs
#LifeCycle #regret
#LifeCycle #regret
299 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
18th Jun 2024 7:32am
18th Jun 2024 7:32am
Sick
I miss you and it's making me sick
Yes, I realize the fact that I'm missing you at all
Means I'm simply fucked in the head
I keep asking myself what the fuck is so wrong with me
I plead with myself to get a goddamn grip already
How could I possibly miss someone who has done what you've done to me
Ache for someone who has brought me so low
I end up at the same excuse as always .. that I'm on drugs
Mind altering, game changing drugs
Heavy drugs
I also like to blame it on serotonin, dopamine and good old basic physics
I crave you...
Yes, I realize the fact that I'm missing you at all
Means I'm simply fucked in the head
I keep asking myself what the fuck is so wrong with me
I plead with myself to get a goddamn grip already
How could I possibly miss someone who has done what you've done to me
Ache for someone who has brought me so low
I end up at the same excuse as always .. that I'm on drugs
Mind altering, game changing drugs
Heavy drugs
I also like to blame it on serotonin, dopamine and good old basic physics
I crave you...
#confusion
#disappointment
#heartbroken
#IMissYou
#sadness
416 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
8th Mar 2024 11:17am
8th Mar 2024 11:17am
Rant …..
There are two of you
And you have done so much manipulating and convincing that the other side of you does not exist .. that even you believe the entire shit show of a lie
Like a grenade ,
Pin just pulled
you destroy everything within arms reach
Confronting that side of you
questioning your actions is a suicide mission
It’s just easier to play along with you
Seeking out the truth just adds more bullshit about you
That I have to lie to myself and hide
Instead of engaging during one of your meltdowns
I sat in the passenger seat...
And you have done so much manipulating and convincing that the other side of you does not exist .. that even you believe the entire shit show of a lie
Like a grenade ,
Pin just pulled
you destroy everything within arms reach
Confronting that side of you
questioning your actions is a suicide mission
It’s just easier to play along with you
Seeking out the truth just adds more bullshit about you
That I have to lie to myself and hide
Instead of engaging during one of your meltdowns
I sat in the passenger seat...
#anger
#regret
#conflict #lies
#conflict #lies
303 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
13th Feb 2024 8:23pm
13th Feb 2024 8:23pm
Breathtaking
It is in the mornings
When the mask is left lying somewhere on the floor
Or possibly tangled up in the sheets
That I'm exposed to the reality of my existence
Fuck, the emptiness is breathtaking...
When the mask is left lying somewhere on the floor
Or possibly tangled up in the sheets
That I'm exposed to the reality of my existence
Fuck, the emptiness is breathtaking...
#loneliness
#confessional
#SelfReflection
#FeelingLost
#emptiness
356 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
5th Jan 2024 9:51am
5th Jan 2024 9:51am
Blind
Im not really sure where we are supposed to or could possibly go from here
This is not the same
There is an emptiness that has settled here
We both know it, feel it
But sure my love, I'll play along
You know how much i cringe and crumble in the face of conflict
and will set myself on fire to spare another's feelings, to negatively affect their state of mind
So it is only appropriate that I, for the umpteenth time, set myself ablaze for you
Keeper of my heart, master of my mind
My blushing smile one minute
and the next my regret filled tears...
This is not the same
There is an emptiness that has settled here
We both know it, feel it
But sure my love, I'll play along
You know how much i cringe and crumble in the face of conflict
and will set myself on fire to spare another's feelings, to negatively affect their state of mind
So it is only appropriate that I, for the umpteenth time, set myself ablaze for you
Keeper of my heart, master of my mind
My blushing smile one minute
and the next my regret filled tears...
#relationships
#betrayal
#shame #emptiness
#shame #emptiness
313 reads
4 Comments
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
20th Nov 2023 8:18pm
20th Nov 2023 8:18pm
Butterflies
Butterflies
You give me butterflies
I once thought of my belly as a “no fly zone”
A Forgotten and unfrequented restricted air space
But here you come, proving all of that to not be right
Warm and tingly are my cheeks
It’s been so long, I had forgotten how noticeably I blush
But oh my Lord, your smile is such a refreshing and beautiful sight
There is no need for any kind of serious talk
We both know where each other stands
Chained to our own individual toxicity
The limits are known
So right now I’m just enjoying the view ...
You give me butterflies
I once thought of my belly as a “no fly zone”
A Forgotten and unfrequented restricted air space
But here you come, proving all of that to not be right
Warm and tingly are my cheeks
It’s been so long, I had forgotten how noticeably I blush
But oh my Lord, your smile is such a refreshing and beautiful sight
There is no need for any kind of serious talk
We both know where each other stands
Chained to our own individual toxicity
The limits are known
So right now I’m just enjoying the view ...
#admiration
#ForbiddenLove
#crush #temptation
#crush #temptation
370 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
19th Oct 2023 6:21am
19th Oct 2023 6:21am
untitled and unfinished
Unsure of how much longer i can be a player in this game of pretend
My gut is screaming that things with us are just not right
My heart is wanting to build a real life with you
You have so many secrets,
I've still yet to see all of you exposed and in the light
All I get are contradicting fragments of you
You've become exceptionally good at not letting too much of the real you show
The ability to lie straight to a person's face is cold yet impressive
I truly wish it wasn't true
but there's so much more that you don't think I know
You don't...
My gut is screaming that things with us are just not right
My heart is wanting to build a real life with you
You have so many secrets,
I've still yet to see all of you exposed and in the light
All I get are contradicting fragments of you
You've become exceptionally good at not letting too much of the real you show
The ability to lie straight to a person's face is cold yet impressive
I truly wish it wasn't true
but there's so much more that you don't think I know
You don't...
#sadness
#relationships
#heartbroken
#breakup
#disappointment
366 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
30th Aug 2023 3:34am
30th Aug 2023 3:34am
The enemy that is me
The emptiness that is filling me
Is suffocating me
Paralyzing me
It’s fucken eating me away
The days fly with no purpose
Meaningless to do lists
To make this existence feel somewhat worth living
Somewhat Ok
I’ve ran all the good parts of me and my shambolic life straight into the ground
To cover the shame I smoke
To forget the failure I smoke
To avoid the guilt I smoke
I don’t even get high anymore
But I smoke to be numb
That’s my favorite place to be
Desensitized and lost in a...
Is suffocating me
Paralyzing me
It’s fucken eating me away
The days fly with no purpose
Meaningless to do lists
To make this existence feel somewhat worth living
Somewhat Ok
I’ve ran all the good parts of me and my shambolic life straight into the ground
To cover the shame I smoke
To forget the failure I smoke
To avoid the guilt I smoke
I don’t even get high anymore
But I smoke to be numb
That’s my favorite place to be
Desensitized and lost in a...
#heroin
#shame
#addiction
#honesty
#emptiness
707 reads
6 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
30th Jul 2023 7:36am
30th Jul 2023 7:36am
Snake
I finally see the obvious truth
Damn, how it makes me wish that I was blind
You know what they say about poking around for proof
You’re more than likely not going to like the things you’re bound to find
That hits the nail right on the head for me
As I continue to stomach all the fictions that I uncover about you
How very far from the truth I’ve been all this time
For thinking you were down for me, that your word was trustworthy and true
The reality is , you’re just another snake in the grass
A wolf in sheep’s clothing , playing the role to...
Damn, how it makes me wish that I was blind
You know what they say about poking around for proof
You’re more than likely not going to like the things you’re bound to find
That hits the nail right on the head for me
As I continue to stomach all the fictions that I uncover about you
How very far from the truth I’ve been all this time
For thinking you were down for me, that your word was trustworthy and true
The reality is , you’re just another snake in the grass
A wolf in sheep’s clothing , playing the role to...
#anger
#lies
#FeelingLost
#disappointment
#SelfWorth
412 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
7th Jul 2023 1:18am
7th Jul 2023 1:18am
You dont know me
you dont see me
you never did
and knowing how absolutely self consumed and vain you are
'you probably never will
you wont notice how my eyes light up and sparkle
when i experience joy or happiness
you will never know how rare those 2 things are to me
because you believe in this mask i present to the world
its easier to believe that im happy than to understand why im not
you are blind to my insecurities
the reasons i become jealous or doubtful when you leave for hours without answering your phone
you brush it off as me being a bitch ,...
you never did
and knowing how absolutely self consumed and vain you are
'you probably never will
you wont notice how my eyes light up and sparkle
when i experience joy or happiness
you will never know how rare those 2 things are to me
because you believe in this mask i present to the world
its easier to believe that im happy than to understand why im not
you are blind to my insecurities
the reasons i become jealous or doubtful when you leave for hours without answering your phone
you brush it off as me being a bitch ,...
#love
#loneliness
#relationships #honesty
#relationships #honesty
376 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
12th Jun 2023 8:25am
12th Jun 2023 8:25am
Stripped Defenseless
The rate at which I'm falling for you
well its alarming
I usually have my wits about me
Well guarded
As many hard lessons have been learned
But you have a way of stripping me of all defenses
of sending me sailing, to float blissfully among the clouds
Filling every void
that for years have ached and yearned
The ease that I am able to exist in your presence
makes it feel as if we've been at this thing for years
I stand before you so confident and authentically myself
My once bitter and closed off heart
now ready to be...
well its alarming
I usually have my wits about me
Well guarded
As many hard lessons have been learned
But you have a way of stripping me of all defenses
of sending me sailing, to float blissfully among the clouds
Filling every void
that for years have ached and yearned
The ease that I am able to exist in your presence
makes it feel as if we've been at this thing for years
I stand before you so confident and authentically myself
My once bitter and closed off heart
now ready to be...
#boyfriend
#relationships
#FallingInLove #admiration
#FallingInLove #admiration
614 reads
6 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
1st Jun 2023 1:11am
1st Jun 2023 1:11am
Rock bottom
f'Hurt people hurt people
To put it short and simple I am a broken woman breaking things
Everything I touch goes to shit
the whole "hell in a hand basket" expression
Cheap caked up concealer to hide the tracks, when I love myself the very least
My life is no longer recognizable to me
spiraling down I find myself drowning in this depression
I've lost the grit to speak up for my life
Long gone is the hope that there will even be a life to speak up for by the time that I'm done
Whatever snapped this time must've been a...
To put it short and simple I am a broken woman breaking things
Everything I touch goes to shit
the whole "hell in a hand basket" expression
Cheap caked up concealer to hide the tracks, when I love myself the very least
My life is no longer recognizable to me
spiraling down I find myself drowning in this depression
I've lost the grit to speak up for my life
Long gone is the hope that there will even be a life to speak up for by the time that I'm done
Whatever snapped this time must've been a...
#heroin
#confessional
#shame
#addiction
#honesty
824 reads
10 Comments
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