Submissions by SLynn22 (SarahLynn)

I've been on methadone for 3 years now,
I hate it so much, I wish I could get off it somehow.

I feel helpless everyday that I have to drink this poison.
Wanting to dump it down the sink, but knowing I need it to function.

I still feel like an addict, taking a drug everyday.
Just because its prescribed, to me, doesn't make it ok.

Still controlled by a drug, and helpless without it,
Thats why I got help to begin with, to break free of that madness.

I got down to 38mgs, and I got horribly sick there,
They took me back up to 60, and now im...

Young and ignorant, I was as a teen.
Partying, drinking and drugs were my scene.

Following my friends, trying to stay "in",
Not knowing the troubles about to begin.

Doing what friends were doing,
was the cool thing to do,
Even if they were things I didnt want to do.

A sip of a drink, a hit of weed,
Then the swallow of a pill.....
I've found my new thing.

First it was vicodin, the high was amazing,
The feeling it gave me made everything right .

Then onto percocet, a little bit stronger,
Man how I wished...

You came into my life,
made everything ok.
You made me so happy,
at first anyway.
Then you took control,
I had no say.
My actions, my words,
you controlled everyday.
I hurt people I loved,
my parents, family and friends.
In the end they didn't matter,
you were the only one that did.
The things I would do,
the lengths I would go.
To get my hands on you,
were shameful and low.
I'd lie and steal,
beg and borrow.
Whatever it took,
to get me through to tomorrow.
A cycle I went through,
day...