Submissions by Lo_bedda (Lo Lo)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I mainly write about life struggles, addiction, heart break, toxic relationships, and depression.
LOVE POEM
Published
25th Sep 2023 5:02pm
25th Sep 2023 5:02pm
Trauma's Scar
Some days, it feels like I can't breathe,
And I find myself asking that same question,
"Why did you leave?"
I think I always knew but never wanted to believe
That one day our love, I would grieve.
Most of the time, I feel alright,
But when the day surrenders to the night,
I also surrender to the fight.
Our demons don't need an invite,
They lurk in the places untouched by light,
Never far nor out of sight,
An unspoken vow to always reunite,
Even now as I write, I'm filled with dread,
Knowing we'll meet again...
And I find myself asking that same question,
"Why did you leave?"
I think I always knew but never wanted to believe
That one day our love, I would grieve.
Most of the time, I feel alright,
But when the day surrenders to the night,
I also surrender to the fight.
Our demons don't need an invite,
They lurk in the places untouched by light,
Never far nor out of sight,
An unspoken vow to always reunite,
Even now as I write, I'm filled with dread,
Knowing we'll meet again...
#sadness
#memories
#FeelingLost
#emptiness
#DomesticViolence
395 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
9th Mar 2023 6:26pm
9th Mar 2023 6:26pm
Escape
You told me I needed to change, something was wrong with my brain. So i kept bending and bending, but you still called me crazy, and honestly I was starting to feel like maybe I wasn’t sane.
But no matter how much I changed, it was never enough. You wanted me to break. Years spent walking on egg shells, terrified to make a simple mistake, all the sleepless nights I lied awake, filled with heartache wondering how much more could I take?
And when you’d feel me pulling away, you always knew exactly what to say in order to make me stay. So I’d tell myself everything will...
But no matter how much I changed, it was never enough. You wanted me to break. Years spent walking on egg shells, terrified to make a simple mistake, all the sleepless nights I lied awake, filled with heartache wondering how much more could I take?
And when you’d feel me pulling away, you always knew exactly what to say in order to make me stay. So I’d tell myself everything will...
#sadness
#breakup
#MovingOn
#escape
#manipulation
427 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
21st Oct 2022 2:46am
21st Oct 2022 2:46am
The Warning Bell
When asked what loving you felt like for me,
I simply compare it to drowning in the deepest sea,
Or to suffer burns to the worst degree.
Why didn’t i set myself free?
Well foolishly, I thought you held the only key.
That’s what you made me believe, up until you choose to leave.
For awhile all i could do was grieve.
I’ll admit i was naive.
But my Dear,
Soon that fog would clear and allow me to reflect on all our years.
Your love was never sincere, in fact it was something to fear.
All I’m left with is this souvenir of trauma so severe. ...
I simply compare it to drowning in the deepest sea,
Or to suffer burns to the worst degree.
Why didn’t i set myself free?
Well foolishly, I thought you held the only key.
That’s what you made me believe, up until you choose to leave.
For awhile all i could do was grieve.
I’ll admit i was naive.
But my Dear,
Soon that fog would clear and allow me to reflect on all our years.
Your love was never sincere, in fact it was something to fear.
All I’m left with is this souvenir of trauma so severe. ...
#strength
#courage
#heartbroken #escape
#heartbroken #escape
333 reads
8 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
18th Jun 2021 7:15pm
18th Jun 2021 7:15pm
Stain
A soul shattered,
A heart left in pain,
A mind gone insane.
Once having so much to gain,
The weight of loss only remains.
A sort of suffering,
Feelings no one can explain.
Sitting by the windowpane,
A sense of peace found in the rain.
Love given, only to be washed down the drain.
All that lingers is a life left with a stain.
A heart left in pain,
A mind gone insane.
Once having so much to gain,
The weight of loss only remains.
A sort of suffering,
Feelings no one can explain.
Sitting by the windowpane,
A sense of peace found in the rain.
Love given, only to be washed down the drain.
All that lingers is a life left with a stain.
#heartbroken
#rhyming
#emptiness
400 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
18th Jun 2021 7:10pm
18th Jun 2021 7:10pm
A Soul Paralyzed
Tired eyes from all my cries
I remember getting used to everyone of your lies
I hope in the future I’ll be more wise
You burned me to ashes, but I must rise
No longer my heart will I compromise
I’ll never forget when I saw through your disguise
Left in the dark, I search for brighter skies
You once sung me beautiful lullabies, slowly leading me to my demise
Ignoring every red flag, toxic behaviors i refused to recognize
Even when you did nothing but criticize…
I clung to the past moments when you gave me butterflies
I loved you with my...
I remember getting used to everyone of your lies
I hope in the future I’ll be more wise
You burned me to ashes, but I must rise
No longer my heart will I compromise
I’ll never forget when I saw through your disguise
Left in the dark, I search for brighter skies
You once sung me beautiful lullabies, slowly leading me to my demise
Ignoring every red flag, toxic behaviors i refused to recognize
Even when you did nothing but criticize…
I clung to the past moments when you gave me butterflies
I loved you with my...
#heartbroken
#rhyming
#emptiness
337 reads
2 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
2nd Mar 2021 10:24pm
2nd Mar 2021 10:24pm
Written Truth
My pain, a beautiful tragedy, it’s my noose.
I can’t break loose, instead I use it as my muse. It’s my devastating truth, the path I choose. Pain from my youth, drugs and booze, years of abuse, all that I lose, every cut and bruise, written words for strangers to leave a review, are you amused?
I can’t break loose, instead I use it as my muse. It’s my devastating truth, the path I choose. Pain from my youth, drugs and booze, years of abuse, all that I lose, every cut and bruise, written words for strangers to leave a review, are you amused?
#depression
#drugs
#rhyming
507 reads
4 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
2nd Mar 2021 7:46pm
2nd Mar 2021 7:46pm
Rock Bottom
This is it, rock bottom I finally hit.
It’s a dark, cold, lonely pit.
I just sit, I don’t have the strength to stand.
I try to understand how I let things get outta hand...
Rock bottom doesn’t have solid land,
It’s a quick sand in which you slowly sink.
I don’t sleep a wink, just stare into the dark and blink, can’t even think straight.
I thought I could fix it all before it was to late, but that’s what happens when you procrastinate, it becomes to much weight.
It’s the part of myself I really hate...
My life used to be great but I guess that...
It’s a dark, cold, lonely pit.
I just sit, I don’t have the strength to stand.
I try to understand how I let things get outta hand...
Rock bottom doesn’t have solid land,
It’s a quick sand in which you slowly sink.
I don’t sleep a wink, just stare into the dark and blink, can’t even think straight.
I thought I could fix it all before it was to late, but that’s what happens when you procrastinate, it becomes to much weight.
It’s the part of myself I really hate...
My life used to be great but I guess that...
#depression
#rhyming
#emptiness
1452 reads
2 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
5th Dec 2020 7:46am
5th Dec 2020 7:46am
Some Day
It’s a pain, no rain can wash away.
I should go but I always stay.
It’s a game, no soul should play.
Here I remain, lies whispered “everything is okay”
Restrained by this chain, for you I continue to pray.
Needle in your vein, he’ll get clean some day
It’s a pain, no rain can wash away.
I should go but I always stay.
It’s a game, no soul should play.
Here I remain, lies whispered “everything is okay”
Restrained by this chain, for you I continue to pray.
Needle in your vein, he’ll get clean some day
It’s a pain, no rain can wash away.
#love
#heroin
#rhyming
#addiction
#hurt
853 reads
4 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
4th Dec 2020 3:46am
4th Dec 2020 3:46am
Chasing A High
My hands shake, stomach aches, mind breaks, holding the gun thinking about all my mistakes. I’m coming undone, never said this rap would be fun, I’ve only just begun this shit might get me shunned. I’d give a fuck but I got none, fought my demons but they won, I can’t get outta this rut, I got a bad feeling in my gut, cut ties to the world, alone in my head with the door locked shut, crying on the bathroom floor, sick of this internal war, it’s a losing battle with the devil keeping score, dark thoughts getting harder to ignore, starting to wonder what the fuck I’m even fighting for? Does...
#sadness
#rhyming
#addiction
554 reads
7 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
4th Dec 2020 3:41am
4th Dec 2020 3:41am
Night Time Darkness
Tonight, I feel weak, too weak for this everlasting fight.
Let my tears wash away all my fears…
Alone in the darkness, nothing but the warm glow of the candle light.
All these years, I always hid myself here…
I no longer have to play the role of "I'm alright", I always suffered from stage fright.
Sun disappears, And the stars become clear…
The moon shines bright, As I shut the bedroom blinds tight.
No more fake cheer, the pain once again appears…
Pen in hand I start to write, satisfying my demons appetite
The letter starts with Dear, the ending...
Let my tears wash away all my fears…
Alone in the darkness, nothing but the warm glow of the candle light.
All these years, I always hid myself here…
I no longer have to play the role of "I'm alright", I always suffered from stage fright.
Sun disappears, And the stars become clear…
The moon shines bright, As I shut the bedroom blinds tight.
No more fake cheer, the pain once again appears…
Pen in hand I start to write, satisfying my demons appetite
The letter starts with Dear, the ending...
#depression
#loneliness
#rhyming
392 reads
3 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
27th Oct 2020 4:12am
27th Oct 2020 4:12am
Better Days
Take me back to the better days
When the sky didn’t look so grey
Before everyone went there separate ways
These days no one seems to stay
Can’t remember the last time I felt okay
I just pray that a smile i won’t have to fake.
I remember when I felt my mind start to break. Thinking about all my life’s mistakes.
Living in a nightmare and I can’t wake.
I hold onto so much hate and it brings this unbearable weight that I carry on my shoulders, it makes it hard to stand up straight. I can’t sleep anymore so I stay up late thinking about all my bad...
When the sky didn’t look so grey
Before everyone went there separate ways
These days no one seems to stay
Can’t remember the last time I felt okay
I just pray that a smile i won’t have to fake.
I remember when I felt my mind start to break. Thinking about all my life’s mistakes.
Living in a nightmare and I can’t wake.
I hold onto so much hate and it brings this unbearable weight that I carry on my shoulders, it makes it hard to stand up straight. I can’t sleep anymore so I stay up late thinking about all my bad...
#dark
#LifeStruggles
#rhyming #addiction
#rhyming #addiction
547 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
9th Sep 2020 2:46am
9th Sep 2020 2:46am
Higher
Higher, higher, I’m playing with fire
Heart wrapped in barb wire
I’m a lot of things but never been a liar
Higher, higher, dance around the fire
You’re toxic but you’re all I desire
Addicted to the pain and you’re the supplier
Higher, higher, let the fire burn
Will I ever learn?
The love I give you don’t return
It’s not something I can earn
Higher, higher, feel the flame from the fire
Keep playing this devilish game
Who’s to blame? Me, for loving a man who won’t be tamed, a heart never to be claimed
It’s a damn shame,...
Heart wrapped in barb wire
I’m a lot of things but never been a liar
Higher, higher, dance around the fire
You’re toxic but you’re all I desire
Addicted to the pain and you’re the supplier
Higher, higher, let the fire burn
Will I ever learn?
The love I give you don’t return
It’s not something I can earn
Higher, higher, feel the flame from the fire
Keep playing this devilish game
Who’s to blame? Me, for loving a man who won’t be tamed, a heart never to be claimed
It’s a damn shame,...
#love
#dark
#rhyming
615 reads
10 Comments
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