Submissions by Lo_bedda (Lo Lo)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I mainly write about life struggles, addiction, heart break, toxic relationships, and depression.
SELF POEM
Published
24th Jul 2020 5:56am
24th Jul 2020 5:56am
I Stand
I stand but I stumble,
The world around me crumbles.
I fall, I try to crawl,
I once stood tall, today I feel small.
I try to speak, but my voice squeaks,
I’ve become weak, my eyes begin to leak.
My future is unclear, it’s my greatest fear,
I just want to disappear, maybe ill go in a year.
I feel so alone, my heart has turned to stone,
The pain hurts to the bone, I let out a groan.
I try to cry, but the tears have run dry,
I was too shy, let life pass me by.
I just needed a hand, someone to help me once again stand.
The world around me crumbles.
I fall, I try to crawl,
I once stood tall, today I feel small.
I try to speak, but my voice squeaks,
I’ve become weak, my eyes begin to leak.
My future is unclear, it’s my greatest fear,
I just want to disappear, maybe ill go in a year.
I feel so alone, my heart has turned to stone,
The pain hurts to the bone, I let out a groan.
I try to cry, but the tears have run dry,
I was too shy, let life pass me by.
I just needed a hand, someone to help me once again stand.
#depression
#rhyming
#confessional #SelfReflection
#confessional #SelfReflection
489 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
24th Jul 2020 5:18am
24th Jul 2020 5:18am
Would you?
Let’s just say, one day, I find the strength to walk away.
Would you be okay?
When I no longer obey.
What feelings would you display?
When the betray is too much for me to stay.
Would your world turn grey?
When it’s your bed I no longer choose to lay. Would you pray?
Ask the lord for me to come back someday? What would you do when I go my own way? When your game I no longer want to play?
When I’m done being your prey?
Would you fall into disarray?
When my heart you can no longer slay.
I wonder if all the memories will replay? ...
Would you be okay?
When I no longer obey.
What feelings would you display?
When the betray is too much for me to stay.
Would your world turn grey?
When it’s your bed I no longer choose to lay. Would you pray?
Ask the lord for me to come back someday? What would you do when I go my own way? When your game I no longer want to play?
When I’m done being your prey?
Would you fall into disarray?
When my heart you can no longer slay.
I wonder if all the memories will replay? ...
#sadness
#rejection
#relationships #rhyming
#relationships #rhyming
431 reads
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LOVE POEM
Published
22nd Jul 2020 8:17pm
22nd Jul 2020 8:17pm
Use me
Use me, continue to abuse me.
Feed me another excuse.
When I’m close to breaking loose...
Let your words seduce me.
We call a truce...
Reuse me, tighten the noose.
I’ve become a recluse...
Drunk on cheap booze.
An attempt to reduce the pain you induce...
And to think you used to be my muse.
Feed me another excuse.
When I’m close to breaking loose...
Let your words seduce me.
We call a truce...
Reuse me, tighten the noose.
I’ve become a recluse...
Drunk on cheap booze.
An attempt to reduce the pain you induce...
And to think you used to be my muse.
#love
#rhyming
#emotional #hurt
#emotional #hurt
598 reads
12 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
22nd Jul 2020 6:08pm
22nd Jul 2020 6:08pm
Forevermore
I’m living in make believe, with a beautiful boy named Steve who can’t be claimed or tamed. I feel so ashamed, I only have myself to blame, I keep adding fuel to the flame, it’s a damn shame the way you play me like a game, baby take your aim but you should know we’re one in the same.
This love feels like a warzone, the ending is unknown, but I just can’t leave you alone, we cut eachother to the bone, nonstop fighting over the phone, you’re gunna be the death of me but I love the sound you make when you moan, and the smell of your Cologne, the way your finger tips trace my...
This love feels like a warzone, the ending is unknown, but I just can’t leave you alone, we cut eachother to the bone, nonstop fighting over the phone, you’re gunna be the death of me but I love the sound you make when you moan, and the smell of your Cologne, the way your finger tips trace my...
#relationships
#heartbroken
#rhyming #hurt
#rhyming #hurt
368 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
21st Jul 2020 6:45pm
21st Jul 2020 6:45pm
Coming Undone
I’m coming undone, it’s been awhile since I’ve seen the sun. days starting to feel like reruns. I walk around town with my head down, trying to force a smile but I can only frown, I don’t want to drown.
I can no longer stand, my demons got the upper hand...
I gotta confess, this fucked up life has left me depressed, I’m stressed, need rest. I don’t feel very blessed. I just gotta get this off my chest...I let to many things go unaddressed, never knew how to express and you could care less, this was always my mess. All these feelings I suppress, I make little progress and than I...
I can no longer stand, my demons got the upper hand...
I gotta confess, this fucked up life has left me depressed, I’m stressed, need rest. I don’t feel very blessed. I just gotta get this off my chest...I let to many things go unaddressed, never knew how to express and you could care less, this was always my mess. All these feelings I suppress, I make little progress and than I...
#depression
#rhyming
#SelfReflection
352 reads
6 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
21st Jul 2020 6:40pm
21st Jul 2020 6:40pm
Up & Down
To many adderall, on a free for all, overall I had a ball.
fuck, here comes the fall...
Low dopamine making my skin crawl. I don’t wanna go through withdrawal.
Give the devil his due, I always bit off more than I could chew.
Addiction left me black and blue, I can’t pull through, can’t paddle this canoe.
Wishing for a re-do, what did I get myself into...
shoulda never blew that first line, ever since my life’s been on a steady decline.
I’m twenty nine and I can’t feel fine without 100mg, maybe that’s a sign.
But once my nose hits that line... ...
fuck, here comes the fall...
Low dopamine making my skin crawl. I don’t wanna go through withdrawal.
Give the devil his due, I always bit off more than I could chew.
Addiction left me black and blue, I can’t pull through, can’t paddle this canoe.
Wishing for a re-do, what did I get myself into...
shoulda never blew that first line, ever since my life’s been on a steady decline.
I’m twenty nine and I can’t feel fine without 100mg, maybe that’s a sign.
But once my nose hits that line... ...
#drugs
#rhyming
#confessional #addiction
#confessional #addiction
592 reads
6 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
20th Jul 2020 4:13am
20th Jul 2020 4:13am
Thoughts of an Addict
Addiction put my life on restrictions, lost all my ambition.
Trying to stay above suspicion. My mind is out of commission.
I put myself in this position. Thought I was a magician,
Could take pills and not become addicted…
I always felt neglected, the drugs made me feel protected,
really they just left me rejected. Maybe I’m infected…
Now I’m disconnected, disrespected, my life needs to be redirected,
but until I’m selected...
I’ll keep popping pills, waiting for my refills until my heart stands still.
Watching as my life goes downhill… ...
Trying to stay above suspicion. My mind is out of commission.
I put myself in this position. Thought I was a magician,
Could take pills and not become addicted…
I always felt neglected, the drugs made me feel protected,
really they just left me rejected. Maybe I’m infected…
Now I’m disconnected, disrespected, my life needs to be redirected,
but until I’m selected...
I’ll keep popping pills, waiting for my refills until my heart stands still.
Watching as my life goes downhill… ...
#dark
#LifeStruggles
#rhyming #addiction
#rhyming #addiction
460 reads
9 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
20th Jul 2020 4:04am
20th Jul 2020 4:04am
Remembering September
I sit alone, in my comfort zone, allow my thoughts to roam.
As usual my mind comes to find memories I tried to leave behind,
the kind that bring to light, a night I wish I could rewrite.
Tell me, do you remember that September day?
I do, it’s one I often replay. It was a time before the betray,
long before I became your prey. Back when I wanted you to take me away.
If I only knew than what I know today...
The secrets you hide that I learned back in May.
Ever since my souls turned black, my heart has a crack, i’m on the wrong track.
I try to...
As usual my mind comes to find memories I tried to leave behind,
the kind that bring to light, a night I wish I could rewrite.
Tell me, do you remember that September day?
I do, it’s one I often replay. It was a time before the betray,
long before I became your prey. Back when I wanted you to take me away.
If I only knew than what I know today...
The secrets you hide that I learned back in May.
Ever since my souls turned black, my heart has a crack, i’m on the wrong track.
I try to...
#love
#depression
#heartbroken
#rhyming
#memories
558 reads
1 Comment
DRUGS POEM
Published
19th Jul 2020 8:13pm
19th Jul 2020 8:13pm
My Brown Eyed Boy
I fell in love with a brown eyed boy, it’s not a love I can say I enjoy.
I’m addicted to him but I never would have predicted the pain that would be inflicted.
I should have detected that he injected drugs,
Maybe he felt neglected and heroin made him feel protected.
I don’t think he understands who his choices have affected.
I’m addicted to an addict. Who would have suspected…
I don’t know how I got myself into this mess, but as you would guess it causes me stress.
But it was love at first sight, he’s such a delight… when we don’t fight.
When I stay...
I’m addicted to him but I never would have predicted the pain that would be inflicted.
I should have detected that he injected drugs,
Maybe he felt neglected and heroin made him feel protected.
I don’t think he understands who his choices have affected.
I’m addicted to an addict. Who would have suspected…
I don’t know how I got myself into this mess, but as you would guess it causes me stress.
But it was love at first sight, he’s such a delight… when we don’t fight.
When I stay...
#love
#heroin
#rhyming #addiction
#rhyming #addiction
660 reads
12 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
19th Jul 2020 7:55pm
19th Jul 2020 7:55pm
Night Time Prayer
I fall to my knees, begging the lord please.
I know this isn’t what you had in stored for me. All your signs I ignored.
I come to you tonight to ask, can you guide me toward the right path?
I’m having trouble seeing the light, happiness seems out of sight.
I’m not doing alright. I need someone to hold me tight.
I just want to succeed, but I’m afraid I don’t know how to proceed.
It’s been more than a decade since I really prayed, I’m sorry I strayed.
I know it’s delayed. I’m feeling frayed,
every breath cuts like razor blades as the depression...
I know this isn’t what you had in stored for me. All your signs I ignored.
I come to you tonight to ask, can you guide me toward the right path?
I’m having trouble seeing the light, happiness seems out of sight.
I’m not doing alright. I need someone to hold me tight.
I just want to succeed, but I’m afraid I don’t know how to proceed.
It’s been more than a decade since I really prayed, I’m sorry I strayed.
I know it’s delayed. I’m feeling frayed,
every breath cuts like razor blades as the depression...
#depression
#religion
#rhyming #emptiness
#rhyming #emptiness
394 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
19th Jul 2020 1:17am
19th Jul 2020 1:17am
My Fate
Cigarette burning in the ashtray, room smells of sweat, it’s dark But I can still see your silhouette, laying in bed thinking about all the regrets, somethings I just can’t forget.
With you I played Russian roulette. I always had a soft spot for a brunette, never pictured you as a threat. Did everything to not see you upset, yet I feel beat wishing I could reset. True feeling of defeat. I crawl under your bed sheet, inch close so I can feel your body heat, it makes me feel complete, my troubles take the backseat. Everything is bittersweet.
But just like a repeat you start to...
With you I played Russian roulette. I always had a soft spot for a brunette, never pictured you as a threat. Did everything to not see you upset, yet I feel beat wishing I could reset. True feeling of defeat. I crawl under your bed sheet, inch close so I can feel your body heat, it makes me feel complete, my troubles take the backseat. Everything is bittersweet.
But just like a repeat you start to...
#depression
#heartbroken
#rhyming #addiction
#rhyming #addiction
449 reads
9 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
19th Jul 2020 1:00am
19th Jul 2020 1:00am
Our Addictions
You used to make me feel whole, now im just a lost soul, I lost all control, it was my heart that you stole, now I’m looking for the restart. Laying next to you in bed and still feel worlds apart.
The pain I’m feeling is off the chart, and the cocaine made you insane and I keep asking why I remain as I watch you miss your vein. Man, I really let my life go down the drain.
This wasn’t part of my plan, you pace the room checking the can, talking about “if it’s not there we gotta meet up with the middle man, ya know the one who drives the mini-van” fuck, when did...
The pain I’m feeling is off the chart, and the cocaine made you insane and I keep asking why I remain as I watch you miss your vein. Man, I really let my life go down the drain.
This wasn’t part of my plan, you pace the room checking the can, talking about “if it’s not there we gotta meet up with the middle man, ya know the one who drives the mini-van” fuck, when did...
#love
#dark
#heroin
#rhyming
#addiction
686 reads
6 Comments
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