Submissions by KittyFromHell
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write mostly about my day to day emotions, experiences, and thoughts. Every fucked up thought I have usually ends up here.
LOVE POEM
Published
16th Feb 2023 6:24am
16th Feb 2023 6:24am
letting go
Should I count the ways you made me cry?
They say God counts every tear as precious,
But that means he counted yours, too.
I guess that means I must forgive you.
How many evils have you seen and held close?
Things haunt you in your sleep.
I've heard you cry, and I've held you tight.
I whispered to you that you'd be alright.
I've heard shameful things about you
In the winds of small town whispers.
Fear nestles itself in my chest
When I remember the secrets you would confess.
I stand on guard for my family...
They say God counts every tear as precious,
But that means he counted yours, too.
I guess that means I must forgive you.
How many evils have you seen and held close?
Things haunt you in your sleep.
I've heard you cry, and I've held you tight.
I whispered to you that you'd be alright.
I've heard shameful things about you
In the winds of small town whispers.
Fear nestles itself in my chest
When I remember the secrets you would confess.
I stand on guard for my family...
#love
#boyfriend
#shame
#addiction
#morality
696 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
16th Feb 2023 5:16am
16th Feb 2023 5:16am
thank you
You stole me from the mouth of hell
And ran with the devil on our heels.
I was a church girl gone bad,
But my demons fought yours to the death.
Way down we went
To the bottom of our addictions
Unable to save each other and ourselves.
You slipped from my grasp
Falling fast like a shooting star
Hurdling to the earth.
I run free these days
And you are still captive.
And ran with the devil on our heels.
I was a church girl gone bad,
But my demons fought yours to the death.
Way down we went
To the bottom of our addictions
Unable to save each other and ourselves.
You slipped from my grasp
Falling fast like a shooting star
Hurdling to the earth.
I run free these days
And you are still captive.
#love
#boyfriend
#BestFriend
#drugs
#addiction
437 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
15th Feb 2023 6:02am
15th Feb 2023 6:02am
Petty
Lately,
I have been wanting to find you
And throw something at your head
Because I can't stop seeing you
In my dreams.
What is it about you
That still haunts me
Even after almost a year
Of silence between us?
I have been wanting to find you
And throw something at your head
Because I can't stop seeing you
In my dreams.
What is it about you
That still haunts me
Even after almost a year
Of silence between us?
#love
#boyfriend
#dreams
#lover
#memories
365 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
11th Dec 2022 10:04am
11th Dec 2022 10:04am
Depression
The old falls away
Flicked into the ash pile of another cigarette—
Cross legged huddled in the warmth of two blankets
Fingers clutching the edges
Longing to feel something other than hollow.
The kind of empty that only at the bottom of a crash
Has leveled and become my lonely nest
Where no one has dared to enter—
No fervent plucking and peeling away the crusted layers
Of mold and death surrounding my heart;
No hammering at the stone caved in
That's sealed me away from the sun.
I snap and snarl like a...
Flicked into the ash pile of another cigarette—
Cross legged huddled in the warmth of two blankets
Fingers clutching the edges
Longing to feel something other than hollow.
The kind of empty that only at the bottom of a crash
Has leveled and become my lonely nest
Where no one has dared to enter—
No fervent plucking and peeling away the crusted layers
Of mold and death surrounding my heart;
No hammering at the stone caved in
That's sealed me away from the sun.
I snap and snarl like a...
#depression
263 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
26th Oct 2022 5:50am
26th Oct 2022 5:50am
Stuck in Limbo
In between everything that was
And everything to be
Is something that doesn't quite feel like the present.
My eyes are absent
From the scenes before me
As my mind and heart run away hand in hand
Frolicking through time and space
To places I cannot name or describe.
My mirror is a tell tale sign
As my hair colors change every other week,
My face breaks out,
And my eyebrows alternate between groomed and wild.
Gentleness with myself does not come easy
Because all my self doubt
Screams so fucking...
And everything to be
Is something that doesn't quite feel like the present.
My eyes are absent
From the scenes before me
As my mind and heart run away hand in hand
Frolicking through time and space
To places I cannot name or describe.
My mirror is a tell tale sign
As my hair colors change every other week,
My face breaks out,
And my eyebrows alternate between groomed and wild.
Gentleness with myself does not come easy
Because all my self doubt
Screams so fucking...
#MentalHealth
#SelfReflection
#SelfDiscovery
#healing
#SelfWorth
367 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
22nd Oct 2022 1:06am
22nd Oct 2022 1:06am
Sober Joke
Somehow I have trampled through these last few months
Feeling crazier than I've ever been
With the latest dear-God-why-did-I-do-that's
Haunting me every night and day.
The drugs are no longer my scapegoat;
I'm left with the sad state of my being
That is ass backward and selfish,
Seemingly forever stuck in my ways.
I'm still on an island that feels ever so familiar.
Like the solitude is all I've ever known.
Anger and paranoia shoot like badly aimed javelins
Hurled at the ones I claim to love and adore.
"I...
Feeling crazier than I've ever been
With the latest dear-God-why-did-I-do-that's
Haunting me every night and day.
The drugs are no longer my scapegoat;
I'm left with the sad state of my being
That is ass backward and selfish,
Seemingly forever stuck in my ways.
I'm still on an island that feels ever so familiar.
Like the solitude is all I've ever known.
Anger and paranoia shoot like badly aimed javelins
Hurled at the ones I claim to love and adore.
"I...
#loneliness
#dark
#despair
#emptiness
#fear
380 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
22nd Oct 2022 00:53am
22nd Oct 2022 00:53am
All Written Out
Beautiful words escape me
As they waft through the cracks of my home
Like cigarette smoke and mold particles
Dancing around my aching head
Before they leave me just a little more sick
And depraved.
As they waft through the cracks of my home
Like cigarette smoke and mold particles
Dancing around my aching head
Before they leave me just a little more sick
And depraved.
#loneliness
#SelfHarm
#SelfReflection
#emptiness
#poverty
360 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
24th Sep 2022 8:52am
24th Sep 2022 8:52am
Alone Still
What do you do
When you're drunk and alone
Unsure of who you're singing to
When these soul wrenching songs come on
From a heartless misfit
That's burned every bridge
Wasted every moment
Broken every heart
Cried every last tear...
What do you do?
When you're drunk and alone
Unsure of who you're singing to
When these soul wrenching songs come on
From a heartless misfit
That's burned every bridge
Wasted every moment
Broken every heart
Cried every last tear...
What do you do?
#depression
298 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
15th Sep 2022 3:07am
15th Sep 2022 3:07am
I Did It
The highway hums beneath me
As the miles fade in the rearview.
I'm on the way up from hell,
With the devil nipping at my heels.
The darkness will come as it always does,
But I grow stronger every day.
My faith is different in these times,
And I've taken up my sword and shield.
My eyes are full of twinkling stars
And the whole world is my sky.
As the miles fade in the rearview.
I'm on the way up from hell,
With the devil nipping at my heels.
The darkness will come as it always does,
But I grow stronger every day.
My faith is different in these times,
And I've taken up my sword and shield.
My eyes are full of twinkling stars
And the whole world is my sky.
#love
#addiction
#healing
355 reads
5 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
22nd Aug 2022 1:39am
22nd Aug 2022 1:39am
Now What
The bar is literally on the floor.
Now what?
They're proud I'm sober
And glad I'm a better mom.
Now what?
I keep a job
And somewhat keep house.
My mind is a sewer
Filling up with doubt.
Just one more loser
That never quite got it right.
Now what?
Now what?
They're proud I'm sober
And glad I'm a better mom.
Now what?
I keep a job
And somewhat keep house.
My mind is a sewer
Filling up with doubt.
Just one more loser
That never quite got it right.
Now what?
#shame
#confusion
#despair
#emptiness
#fear
330 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
3rd Aug 2022 7:35am
3rd Aug 2022 7:35am
Toxic
My heart is a patchwork of memorabilia,
Ghostly shrines to loves come and gone.
Mismatched clothes litter my laundry
Since I've been left all alone.
Their scents still linger for me to breathe deep,
Anything to keep them forever close.
I am selfish with their memory
Even though, in the end, it was me that I chose.
Some might call me a narcissist,
But I doubt I will ever love only one.
I get drunk on love itself—the taste of their kiss;
I'd be lying if I said I was done.
Ghostly shrines to loves come and gone.
Mismatched clothes litter my laundry
Since I've been left all alone.
Their scents still linger for me to breathe deep,
Anything to keep them forever close.
I am selfish with their memory
Even though, in the end, it was me that I chose.
Some might call me a narcissist,
But I doubt I will ever love only one.
I get drunk on love itself—the taste of their kiss;
I'd be lying if I said I was done.
#love
#lust
#war
#crush
#rebellion
338 reads
1 Comment
DRUGS POEM
Published
29th Jul 2022 6:12am
29th Jul 2022 6:12am
Cravings
I feel the mania creeping in
With its skin chilling whisper,
Lips brushing my ear.
Wild eyes glitter
As an old familiar smile
Spreads across my face.
I am euphoric.
Too much caffeine
And not enough sleep
Fuels my nicotine spiked
Anxiety trip.
My mind replays
Flashes of today's wonders—
Finding shapes in clouds,
Sweet milestones of motherhood,
And the smile
On my wild child's face.
Like thunder rumbling
In the distance,
Old cravings threaten
Months of progress, ...
With its skin chilling whisper,
Lips brushing my ear.
Wild eyes glitter
As an old familiar smile
Spreads across my face.
I am euphoric.
Too much caffeine
And not enough sleep
Fuels my nicotine spiked
Anxiety trip.
My mind replays
Flashes of today's wonders—
Finding shapes in clouds,
Sweet milestones of motherhood,
And the smile
On my wild child's face.
Like thunder rumbling
In the distance,
Old cravings threaten
Months of progress, ...
#motherhood
#childhood
#drugs
#memories
#addiction
543 reads
2 Comments
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