Submissions by KJGarner

Dignity and fear

I'd not seen you in three weeks
Maybe even four
I was mad about your lifestyle
Couldn't face coming to your door
You called me up and said you're ill
' I'm not eating and feeling bad '
I promised to come down that night
Not to argue or get mad.
I walked up the stairs, stepped in your room
The shock hit me like train
I didn't even recognise you
What I was seeing was insane
You had lost so much weight
I wasn't even sure that it was you
The guilt washed over me there and then
You're this ill and I...

Sound of the engine
Then the gate slams
Footsteps up the path
Sweating on my palms
Key in the lock
Creak of the door
I see it start to open
Am I facing more
Clenching of my hands
White knuckle ride
Frozen, I just sit here
I really want to hide
My heart is racing
Pulse has risen
Clenching my teeth
Will I be forgiven
What became of me
I used to be so strong
My reflection in the mirror
Shows something's wrong
He smiles at me
Asks me about my day
My shoulders relax
Tonight will be okay

Adrenaline rush

The clock strikes six
Work is done
Grab my coat
It's time to have fun

Home and shower
Friends arrive
Have a little pick me up
Start to feel alive

Chatting with my friends
Spinning records on the decks
Snort a massive line
"What tune you all want next ?"

The time has come
To ring the party line
Dial the number
We'll soon be leaving mine

Let's take a pill
Before we go
Make the journey fun
Get in the flow

Hands start to sweat
Pulse begins to...