Submissions by Jaylee85

Hidden behind a smile
Is a soul desperate and lost
A strong persona
To cover a weak mind
This facade used to trick loved ones
To make everything seem ok
When in reality on the inside she's crying for help
But to scared to ask for help
What to do when the thoughts in your head
Are in a constant state of fear believing that no one can hear
The cries for help
So when she is around someone
She feels like she has to hide the truth
For if someone rsees
Everything will come crashing down
If they see how she really is ...

There is something in me that controls my life. It is not an addiction to a substance or a goal I am in pursuit of.

This thing inside of me is what causes me to be who I am, but I cannot say that I am proud of that.

I do not know 100% where this came from, but it does not matter because it worsens everyday I try to figure it out and take a look back.

Some doctors give it a fancy name, but I simply like to call it fear. Not the typical fear like a scary movie or a ghost whispering a word into your ear. This fear, this fear is much different.

This...