Submissions by EcilaTheTwisted
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write whatever happens to come to my mind. Whether good or bad, I love to write and share it with others.
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
3rd Nov 2018 4:21am
3rd Nov 2018 4:21am
Crazy
Am I crazy for not thinking as you do?
Am I crazy for getting upset more than the majority?
Tell me, am I truly crazy for being human?
If so, then go ahead, label me as insane
I'm psycho for hearing voices in my head
I'm morbid for having depression
I'm damaged and weak for having PTSD
Point your fingers harder at me
So I can cut them off
That's what you expect from someone like me, right?
Animalistic, unable to tell right from wrong
The shooter
The bomber
The serial killer
Just like in the movies and tv? ...
Am I crazy for getting upset more than the majority?
Tell me, am I truly crazy for being human?
If so, then go ahead, label me as insane
I'm psycho for hearing voices in my head
I'm morbid for having depression
I'm damaged and weak for having PTSD
Point your fingers harder at me
So I can cut them off
That's what you expect from someone like me, right?
Animalistic, unable to tell right from wrong
The shooter
The bomber
The serial killer
Just like in the movies and tv? ...
#anger
#loneliness
#frustration #disappointment
#frustration #disappointment
391 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
28th Sep 2018 5:05am
28th Sep 2018 5:05am
I'm Not Her
I'm sorry I'm not the daughter you envisioned
Please don't call me smart
I've made too many stupid mistakes
Don't say you're proud of me
Because I know what I keep hidden from you
I think about how much it would hurt you
So I try to be strong instead
But I'm not the girl you see
I wish it were truly okay not to be okay
Please don't call me smart
I've made too many stupid mistakes
Don't say you're proud of me
Because I know what I keep hidden from you
I think about how much it would hurt you
So I try to be strong instead
But I'm not the girl you see
I wish it were truly okay not to be okay
#sadness
#shame
#emptiness
386 reads
1 Comment
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
28th Sep 2018 4:46am
28th Sep 2018 4:46am
White Noise
Louder
LOUDER
LOUDER
Make it louder
Drown my thoughts
Choke the voices
Make them stop
I don't want to hear them anymore
Mocking and laughing at me
I can feel their poison
Seeping into my brain
And melting it into sludge
LOUDER
LOUDER
Make it louder
Drown my thoughts
Choke the voices
Make them stop
I don't want to hear them anymore
Mocking and laughing at me
I can feel their poison
Seeping into my brain
And melting it into sludge
#anxiety
#confusion
#depression
358 reads
1 Comment
ANGER POEM
Published
23rd Mar 2018 5:59am
23rd Mar 2018 5:59am
Monsters Can Sleep In Your Bed
Go away and leave me alone!
I don't want to see you ever again!
Your face is always there when I close my eyes
What makes you think I want to see you in my waking life?!
You just want to snoop, don't you?!
Making sure I'm as miserable without you as I was with you
It's not fair!
Moving on like your hands are perfectly clean
While I relive what you did to me every other night!
I know you're out there somewhere
Telling lies that I deserved it because I'm "nuts"
And "not normal"
Saying that I was asking for it when I'd deny...
I don't want to see you ever again!
Your face is always there when I close my eyes
What makes you think I want to see you in my waking life?!
You just want to snoop, don't you?!
Making sure I'm as miserable without you as I was with you
It's not fair!
Moving on like your hands are perfectly clean
While I relive what you did to me every other night!
I know you're out there somewhere
Telling lies that I deserved it because I'm "nuts"
And "not normal"
Saying that I was asking for it when I'd deny...
#anger
#abuse
#MentalHealth
448 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
23rd Mar 2018 5:11am
23rd Mar 2018 5:11am
What is wrong with me
My life is full of pain and bore
I just can't take it anymore
Wish I could overdose on pills
But I've got to help my family with bills
Tried to die twice before
Yet I can't even get that right
I'm a failure
Fighting with depression and PTSD
Why can't I get the strength to do the deed?
I'm worthless, I know
I've always been taught that lesson
So why am I crying?
Why am I shaking?
There's nothing left to lose
Except this life I didn't choose
From dust I came
And to dust I'll return, someday
I just can't take it anymore
Wish I could overdose on pills
But I've got to help my family with bills
Tried to die twice before
Yet I can't even get that right
I'm a failure
Fighting with depression and PTSD
Why can't I get the strength to do the deed?
I'm worthless, I know
I've always been taught that lesson
So why am I crying?
Why am I shaking?
There's nothing left to lose
Except this life I didn't choose
From dust I came
And to dust I'll return, someday
#sadness
#dark
#death #LifeStruggles
#death #LifeStruggles
443 reads
1 Comment
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
17th Mar 2018 6:05am
17th Mar 2018 6:05am
Home
I wonder if I'll ever find that place
House after house after house after house
They've been nothing but unfeeling cages and tombs
Is there really nowhere for me to go
On this microscopic speck spinning in the vacuum of space?
House after house after house after house
They've been nothing but unfeeling cages and tombs
Is there really nowhere for me to go
On this microscopic speck spinning in the vacuum of space?
#loneliness
499 reads
1 Comment
ANGER POEM
Published
5th Mar 2018 5:59pm
5th Mar 2018 5:59pm
Graveyard
Come to me, my irreplaceable prey
I'm waiting, right where you left me to rot
I will take back what once was mine
I will have you dead or alive
Willingly or by force
You rest, thinking you're safe
You have no idea what awaits
At the gates of the hell you created for me
Not so funny now, is it?
Your cruelties will be punished
One way or the other
Justice will be served
I'm waiting, right where you left me to rot
I will take back what once was mine
I will have you dead or alive
Willingly or by force
You rest, thinking you're safe
You have no idea what awaits
At the gates of the hell you created for me
Not so funny now, is it?
Your cruelties will be punished
One way or the other
Justice will be served
#anger
455 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
26th Jan 2018 6:22am
26th Jan 2018 6:22am
Done
There's nothing for me to write
It's all cliche dribble now
Anything I have said or will say is nothing new
What's the point in this, or that?
It's meaningless
Worthless
No one shall remember it
My words will die with me
And I, too, shall not be remembered
It's all cliche dribble now
Anything I have said or will say is nothing new
What's the point in this, or that?
It's meaningless
Worthless
No one shall remember it
My words will die with me
And I, too, shall not be remembered
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ANGER POEM
Published
18th Sep 2017 7:26am
18th Sep 2017 7:26am
Blood Stained Heart
It doesn't matter if I cry over you
What's happened won't change
It doesn't matter how much I think of that day
I can't go back to that time
I can tell those around me all the things you did
But what's been done can't be erased
I remember it all, only as a distant dream now
The sweet moments, the good times
And the abuse, how it out-weighed those better days
I could never understand it, the way you treated me
Making my own mind turn on me and justify your actions
I knew better than to keep going in the same circles ...
What's happened won't change
It doesn't matter how much I think of that day
I can't go back to that time
I can tell those around me all the things you did
But what's been done can't be erased
I remember it all, only as a distant dream now
The sweet moments, the good times
And the abuse, how it out-weighed those better days
I could never understand it, the way you treated me
Making my own mind turn on me and justify your actions
I knew better than to keep going in the same circles ...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
4th Mar 2016 9:29pm
4th Mar 2016 9:29pm
A Poem For Catherine
You are the beautiful sounds of nature I hear
The morning bird
The flowing river
You are the wind that plays with my hair
And fills my lungs with crisp air
Warm sunny days are your sweet hugs
Every heartbeat is my love for you
I wish I could've shown you the Earth's beauty
And to smile and laugh with you
I didn't get to meet you or hold you
But you were more than a 'lump of tissue'
You'll always be my baby, my little Catherine
The morning bird
The flowing river
You are the wind that plays with my hair
And fills my lungs with crisp air
Warm sunny days are your sweet hugs
Every heartbeat is my love for you
I wish I could've shown you the Earth's beauty
And to smile and laugh with you
I didn't get to meet you or hold you
But you were more than a 'lump of tissue'
You'll always be my baby, my little Catherine
#grief
#death
535 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
14th Dec 2015 3:18am
14th Dec 2015 3:18am
Losing Control
Falling..
I'm falling..
Can't control where I'm going..
Why can't I do anything?
Am I really as burdensome as they say?
Why am I even here?
I should disappear..
Yes, into the formless being I've wanted to be..
The thing that causes no trouble, feels no pain..
Causes no hurt and can't get hurt itself..
Total peace and satisfaction I've granted their wish
And hope I've pleased them, as I have always lived to please..
I'm falling..
Can't control where I'm going..
Why can't I do anything?
Am I really as burdensome as they say?
Why am I even here?
I should disappear..
Yes, into the formless being I've wanted to be..
The thing that causes no trouble, feels no pain..
Causes no hurt and can't get hurt itself..
Total peace and satisfaction I've granted their wish
And hope I've pleased them, as I have always lived to please..
538 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Dec 2015 3:12am
14th Dec 2015 3:12am
Black Sheep, Black Sheep, Have You Any Pain?
Strip away all that you please from my silent heart
Keep pulling until all the soft wool around it is gone
You'll know it's the end when there's nothing left
Which is exactly what you've done
Are you satisfied now or do you want more?
How much more could you crave?
Haven't I made myself naked enough for you yet?
With the chain of blood from my neck to your hand
I'm forever cursed to be tagged a fool
Over and over, I'm sent to the slaughterhouse
Just when I almost gain back all my meat after months
It's all ripped and torn from me again so...
Keep pulling until all the soft wool around it is gone
You'll know it's the end when there's nothing left
Which is exactly what you've done
Are you satisfied now or do you want more?
How much more could you crave?
Haven't I made myself naked enough for you yet?
With the chain of blood from my neck to your hand
I'm forever cursed to be tagged a fool
Over and over, I'm sent to the slaughterhouse
Just when I almost gain back all my meat after months
It's all ripped and torn from me again so...
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