Submissions by Carebeargeorge13

I remember being ten, chirpy, outgoing, loving, and, I thought, loved in return.
Playing in the tub, laughing; statement made,
Left crying.
Everyone will leave,
No one will stay.
Unlovable
Unwanted
Not needed.
Impossible to be loved.

Pain, soul deep.
Try to make it go away, too scared
To actually make it go away.
Pain from trying,
Failing to end it.
The words playing in my head
Over
And over.

Desperately seeking adulation.
Someone to soothe the wound and aches.
Anyone to pour all my...

I look up to the stars
Talk quietly to the Universe, to you
Praying so you can hear me.
I love your son, very much
I'm not like those others
I won't cheat on him
Lie to him
Or hurt him
I know how amazing you must have been.
I know because I know him.
You raised an amazing son, an amazing man
I know you think you failed in so many ways
You didn't.
I wish I could tell you this face to face
How it should have been
I send this message to Heaven
He is loved.
Rest In Peace.

Fuck this shit!
So tired of hurting
Being hurt
Sick of pain
Doubt
Loneliness.

I dream of love
Real love
Lasting love
Love that is meaningful, not a bullshit fairytale
Beautiful
True.

I want to believe
That this time
Is different
Better
That this love will last
Won't end
Won't leave
Won't hurt.