I remember being ten, chirpy, outgoing, loving, and, I thought, loved in return. Playing in the tub, laughing; statement made, Left crying. Everyone will leave, No one will stay. Unlovable Unwanted Not needed. Impossible to be loved.
Pain, soul deep. Try to make it go away, too scared To actually make it go away. Pain from trying, Failing to end it. The words playing in my head Over And over.
Desperately seeking adulation. Someone to soothe the wound and aches. Anyone to pour all my...
I look up to the stars Talk quietly to the Universe, to you Praying so you can hear me. I love your son, very much I'm not like those others I won't cheat on him Lie to him Or hurt him I know how amazing you must have been. I know because I know him. You raised an amazing son, an amazing man I know you think you failed in so many ways You didn't. I wish I could tell you this face to face How it should have been I send this message to Heaven He is loved. Rest In Peace.