Submissions by Beautifulocs

My heart becomes  bullet ridden and ambushed by lethal   words
Trashy
Disgusting
Bitch
Ungrateful bastard
Miserable
Whore
Dirty ass
Nasty
Each bullet tears at my flesh opening years of healed wound.
Keloids  now become my new battle scars
I  no longer wear my badges of honor on my sleeve. Each medal taken away.
Confident
Security
Love
Humility
Self love

Years of rehabilitation at Veteran of love Affair. VOLA
Back at square one.
Emotionally I'm in a catatonic state.
I had no  real chance of winning this war. I...

Dirty whore, trifling bitch, you will never amount to anything. You ain't shit.  Resonate through my ears. Like loud thunder. I run for comfort. But it's NOONE there. I hide behind closed doors. Praying to God, that I don't get lashed. Black belt tattoo my skin with redness. Making beautiful colors of red, black and  blue bruising on my thighs. Puffy red eyes from hours of crying and begging for my life. Scalp sore from hair being pulled. Kicked ribs...Busted lips.n I can't keep up  with my beating. They are coming more frequent and harder. Labored love.   I was 9 years old.  30 years later....