Am I still here? Can you come back to me, Mother? I've lost my way back home, my first home. The bridge between us has shattered and I can't feel you anymore. What material must I use to build a new one?
Loves his dog, his cat, and nature. Would fight a fisherman for for keeping a guppy. The animals lay at his bed to bring him back from the apocalypse. Noah dreams of a flood, he dreams of what he can't believe in. Hell of being afraid of sitting on the fence. Always winning the fights, good or bad, doesn't believe what he says, just has to be right. I pity the indecisive nature of his logic and worship. I want to tell him Earth is between Heaven and Hell. You can have both.
If I was paid to do it, I'd be rich. But I am poor, and page remains blank. Why was I cursed with creativity? I could be majoring in various degrees, be a bachelor of Masters. No one wants your dumb stories so put in it in the oven and bake me something that isn't instant.
Two women taught me to love, just to be swept away by another man. One too many trips to your salon has left me yearning for something bigger. You will always be in my heart, the both of you. Do not welcome me into yours for I have evolved into something greater. The age of me has come to the city, I'm right where I belong.
2. Take Your Mama
I came home with some painful news, Mama. Before I tell you, let's go for a night on the town. Don't ask why, just keep drinking. I didn't mean to make you cry, Mama,...
I don't remember the last time I missed someone. I was too busy being important. You listened to my songs and I didn't force you. You were hurting. Too many things I've ignored to rewrite you. You didn't deserve that. When I say love you, this time I mean it. Can I come see you?
I remember the earth shifting on its side. I fell from the clouds and landed flat against the wood of a fishing dock. I knew everything and then I didn't. Who was this person tucking me in each night? Why weren't they happy? Couldn't they have chosen to not be sad? I wish I would have known sooner. I'm not sure if I even know them anymore.
It's 10:35, the devil's hour. It's hard enough being an unwilling loner. Why must you torture me, Satan? So I can't draw a few straight lines. That doesn't give you the right to brand me a slacker. I never said I was an artist. I'm just a student and you're just a teacher.
I don't want your phone number just so you can call me to say we're through. I don't want your free rides to live easy. I can take care of myself, thank you. I don't want your insecurities if you're not willing to work them out. All I want can easily fit on my finger, I wanna be your spouse.
I am so sick of not getting straight to the point. You say I look like a hoe. That's your problem. I know what I want and I'm not here to negotiate. Either have my babies or get lost.
Don't give up on love, they say. But what if love gives up on you? Would I like to go back to the way things were? In a heartbeat. Strangers I've fucked tell me to not give up. Do they see I want to give them a try as well? I can't change her mind, she can only change mine.