Love expirences

Valentines Suicide


She was mine
Overtaking my mind with vines
That dug parts of my soul free

She took parts of me
Away with her piano keys
When she popped numerous pills
To extricate herself from this bullshit

She knows not
How murderous and sick she made me
Creating monsters from my demons
That live off the blood of ignorant
Teenage girls pretending to know what pain is

But pain is
When she leaves no note to say
She knew you loved her
And lived in her every movement

But fuck her harmonic soothing
Because i shudder when she rolls in her grave
Made of my bones and brain
That dissolved in her acid rain

Shove your sanity
Up your God-forsaken ass
And twirl it around to find that land
In which it buys you Peace

Where does Peace dwell
Because i think i saw her in hell
Deemed Persephone
Sucking Satan's penis for money
Or freedom
Or something in between
Like heavenly dreams

Just set me free
And let me be alone
While you procreate more future suicides
For future people to cry acid rain about
And close their doors to
Peaceful prostitution
Because they loved your emoticon using daughters
Who did not love them enough to live

This is your education
On one of the fucking reasons
I die slowly while reading my own poetry
Reminding myself consistently
Why suicide is a good thing

I miss her
And i can not be angry
Because dying is always on my mind
Like a song i listened to too many times

Her decaying corpse walks into the room
Just to press rewind
And does not stop to say goodbye
So fuck Valentines

Abortion 1.0.1

Just sit on the phone and whisper
Across this void that he is dead

You named him Mathias
As if you wanted him to haunt my dreams
And the funny thing is
You cheated on me deciding
That ecstasy could save you from me and love

Fuck right bitch
At times i hope you rot in Gehenna for this shit
And sometimes i pray for your soul
And ask God to take care of the little boy for me
Because I loved you

And you used it to your advantage
Leaving me in perilous heartbreak pleading for
Something close to peace

(Sometimes i hope you dream about it
And when you dream about it
I hope you scream about it)

I believe you brought forth
These murderous tendencies in me
And left me forlorn searching for my next victim

Psychology says i fear women
But in truth I am the reflection
Of the Son of Man
And i fear Judas

I fear reasoning that says
Murder is okay
But love is disturbing

I fear that all this is pervasive
and never ending
Like the reign of thoughts over humans

I fear vampires committing suicide
In my once cozy sunlight
And i fear Polaris leads to nowhere
And i fear that boy is nowhere at all

I fear what i would do
If I ever met the one
You conceived your only son with

I wonder how it feels to murder the innocent

Empty Promises
 
I don't know what is true anymore,
a man storms through my door.
So many lies fill my head,
I still remember what he said.
His raspy voice,
itching my brain,
wanting out!
He was evil . . .
with no doubt.
He tore me open,
looked inside
and i wondered . . .
was it too late to hide?
Would he knowall my secrets,
my memories,
my fears?
Or was it just a sick game,
to put me in tears?
I feel stuck in this nightmare,
not even cared to be set free.
Trapped behind bars of empty promises,
I scream and scream!
I'm not crazy!
Please, someone get this demon out of me!
I'm no longer in control of what I do.
I lay here with a broken heart,
because of you.
A gash in my wrist,
blood on the floor,
a blade in my fist
and still you want more?!
 
Written by: Mariah Dalli

I'm not a survivor
I just keeping on thriving
Pulling through this shit
To keep you from dying

You've been living off the fact no guy is perfect
Hurting yourself for one that's worth it
With lifeless shame
And constent rain
She will be loved

With slow kisses and solemn goodbyes
I still try to make it better
For you not to cry

You've only called me friend
When I've wanted you from beginning to end
I hug you til dawn
But you always let go
All I can do is smile
Hiding my emotions
But she will be loved

Maybe I'm just too young to understand
Caught up in other lands
Feeling bad every now and then
I hope you find true love soon my friend
But I'll always now
She will be loved

The American Bison

Once upon a time
There were bison

Now there's only
Buffaloes

Men took too much
Nature couldn't keep up

Men used to care

America,
Now there are no more men

There


(author's note: this is meant to be romantic)

-For Love-


Shut,
Closed,
Stopped in my tracks

The words
Have
stop
ped
To
flo
w

Dry,
Dead,
Lost,
I was on my way

The words
Have st
opped
To f
lo
w

Sealed,
Slammed,
Dammed,
I was talking
She was too

The words
Have sto
pped
To f
lo
w

Anger,
Frustration,
Confusion,
I don't know what to say
As she sits in unknown silence

The words
Have
stop
ped
To
flo
w

Progress,
Learning,
Hope,

The words w i l l b e g i  n  t   o   f   l     o    w

Nostalgia,
Remembrance,
Memory,
One day
When I am hers
And I am old
I will look back and say
"The words were always there!"
And we will take off our rusty chains
And into the sunset
We will laugh
And we will live
The words
Forever
F l   o    w    i     n       g

Love to Hate Relationship

By:
Mike R. Stewart

:)>



I have high demands that I get payed.

I hope u understand all the decisions I made.

So the ones who say I have an insane head?

No offence, but they're the ones mostly brain-dead.

My mind sees more spinning than a cylinder head

But h8ers r sicker than a hospital bed

Where someone chopped off their head


Anyway


Government curruption is a taint
U think their is more important issues, but there aint.

Your may need some kind of restraint

Fuck waiting for permission
Lets supply them an incision
To give them a vision

Of our changing condition


Too many secrets kept
Nothing unique; w.tripped
What if one day the whole province
Lipt

Off the government
& said we've had enough of it

"with our numbers, we're tuff and shit"

Citizen arrest them quick


We gotta change how our problems spent

Lets raid & shut down the parliment
The counterfit
Amount of it
Don't sound a bit


Like what they taught u in school
Haha that is because they, want u a fool

Diahrea with x lax.. It's that shity
Paying property tax, is a god damn pitty

When 99%of it is waisted on pointless debt
Let's follow the pathof.Iceland&voice or shit

No choice to quit

But joys I get

Annoys the twit




Send them up in orbit, without their space suit
Fuck their greedy case loot
Lets lock&load before they shoot
Ms



this is heaven or this can be hell
Lets keep it real

I can't believe she would phone

Ya better leave it alone



If her hearts cold as an ice cream cone?

Then u say fuck it, & leave it alone

2014©

O:-)

Radiance


So, we'll go all the more a-roving
That late into the night
Though the heart be still as loving
And the moon be still as bright

For the arrow always finds its way
And the soul wears out the breast
And soon returns the day
And love itself have rest

Though the time was made for loving
And sand goes dune to dune
We'll go all the more a-roving
By the light of the moon

Please Let Me Love You


There's no one I'd run from
there's no place I'd hide
If you'd just let me love you
I'd do it till I died .....

I don't know how to show you
I don't know what I'd say
if you'd just let me love I'd do it everyday

I'd hold you in my arms oh so very tight
I'd hold you in my arms everyday and everynight
I'd breath you deep in side me
I'd feel you in my soul

If you'd just let me love I'd never let you go
I don't know why you won't give me
even the smallest of a chance
why am I not worthy....
I can't even catch your eye

Why won't you let me love you
Why won't you even try
The heart is like a flower with out sun it will surly die
Why cant you try to love me
Just a little chance... Tell me that you need me and give my heart a chance ...

Title:  He was three years younger

He was three years younger and had long blond hair
His name was Ron; the brother of my gay friend
When we were in the same room, we both couldn’t help stare
We became lovers, many times, throughout our lives, I won the race, in the end

The first time, I was twenty-one, and he was eighteen
At my second floor apartment, he left to score me a bike
On a dare, from an alleyway; he wasn’t even seen
How proud he was; he painted for me; all over in white

At nineteen, he managed to knock on my door
One night, late, drunk, I bathed him clean
He sobered up, left in the morning, promising to return, with a score
It was years before he was yet again seen

Our affairs were brief, I didn’t think his heart was involved
But he made me smile, and I like to think that I gave him unconditional love and care
We ran the roads together many times; I picked him up whenever he called
And sometimes I even washed and combed his matted up hair

A year later, we woke up lying in the grass on an interstate ditch
Ron and me, and two more friends from the night before
After a night of partying, he thumbed to stop a ride, which I hitched
Neither of us ever remembered what we did or what we were there for

He was wiry and scrappy and liked to get high
And he always brought a baggie and a pipe, to visit me, his old friend
I sunk into his ocean blues, whenever I looked into his eyes
And when we made love, we fell asleep, wrapped in each others thighs

It didn’t matter if we had other people close to us in our lives
Ron and I had an agreement; we often met and kept close over the years
Until he moved out of state; I thought we would rendezvous till the day one of us dies
But this last year, I got a phone call, and I filled up with remorseful fears

He had passed away, this young and beautiful man
Oh how I wanted to meet up again, but it was not meant to be
I imagine he will stop by, and once I leave this earth, I’ll look for his hand
And we will again share in ourselves; I can hardly wait and see