Changes

Write me a poem about something that has dramatically changed your life.

I expect a poem or two from a couple members on here talking about their loves, and that works.

You can also write about something more elaborate. For instance, I cannot listen to a certain band anymore. I used to really enjoy their music and I can't now because it hurts to listen to them. I will not say which band and why, this is merely an example.

You could also talk about a child, for children can change someones lives.

There are other ideas too.

No reposts.
A week.
No rules other than these two and the topic.

GRADUATE SCHOOL CHANGED MY LIFE


Graduate school was the best time of my life

Just being accepted made you an intelligent person

We were young and crazy, partly from the chemicals

And partly from the times, Berny was on LSD most of the time

Miguel smoked marijuana until he was wasted

Our research director liked his wine with the lunch at the Faculty Club

I do not know how we achieved anything in this mad research lab

One day Berny decided to find out…just how many kiloliter’s of water

Were hanging from above…to put out potential fires

He pulled the chain and a floor came down, Noah’s ark could have been around

The depth of the water was two feet; we all went running for shelter

The poor janitor was left with the mess, the little lab rats – us – had fled

We came in the next day….punishment was sure to come, when it did not

We still worried about being kicked out of the DOCTORAL program

Fortunately for us, our Research Director remembered HIS YOUTH

And the pranks he played, laughed with us, but cautioned

Do this again and you will not be pardoned!!!!!

Thank you kitty, seeing as you are the only competitor, you are in the lead.

She took my world
And turned it upside down
Along with it
My longing frown

She makes me happy
In every single way
The thought of her alone
Can bring a smile to my face

She doesn't even know
Just how much she's changed my life
She's broken my spell of sorrow
And ended my painful strife

Her prescence brings new light
And springs my heart from my chest
She gets me though the day
And makes me live for the next

Thanks bestie, well now the competition has began.

"The Influence"


i never party
i don't go out on weekends to bars
i don't have a dds number
so i can go to work

work

wor..

i don't buy alcohol
cause i don't drink
no drinking
don't get drunk

just a sip..

fuck

i don't take uppers
i don't buy downers
cant associate with it
no more friends

no more friends
no more..

drugs

home is dead
only devil faces
im just like her
but the mirror cracked

and they watched..
and they helped..
and i..

i..

i..

i died

i was lost
no where else
just a messenger bag
a pack of smokes

alone
deserted
abandoned

but i..

i was already dead
so it wasent hard

to survive
as a woman
an underaged
unemployed
unloved
child

the hourglass never empty's
neither did my appetite
when i found it
found me

new people
new candy..

new life
same life..

but it was still only September
nothing but sand
nothing but time
the party's still going..

still going

after all..
its only July

why would i never

never

never drink

never score

never live

cell phones are stupid
to expensive
a call?

hey you
your back in town?
im far..
too far..
its cool
i don't need them
need you
i don't..
i need you

im alone
alone
alone
not alone..

the hourglass never empty's
neither does my appetite
when i found it
found me

new people
new candy..

new life
same life..

a new perspective
changes
stability
routine...

i loathe routine..
and i don't score..

ever..

but i still smoke
always will
always can
always me

getting my shit together
slowly..
surely..

but im getting bored..

i cant party
i wont go out on weekends to bars
i don't have a dds number
so i can go to work
work

wor..

i don't buy alcohol
cause i love to drink
no drinking
don't get drunk

just a sip..

fuck

i don't take uppers
i don't buy downers
cant associate with it
no more friends

no more friends
no more..

drugs

Thank you Kourtni

What will I do now that you are gone
no one knows how hard i'm finding it to carry on
you were my world, my life and my best friend
this hole that’s left I know without you will never mend

Who knows where we would be if things hadn’t changed
now both of our lives have been totally rearranged
why do I still feel this much pain after all this time
because I always thought that you would always be mine

we made those vows, remember ? “for better, for worse”
that very second you were my whole universe
but when you spoke them, you were just going through the motions
while I had you on that pedestal, the princess of my devotions

so what will I do now you are no longer in my life ?
What will  I do now your no longer my wife ?
I don’t want to do anything, just live in my dreams
because in there your still there, and  ive still a smile that beams

but I know when a awake, I know your not there
and i'm all alone, I wish that dream we could share
but the reality is that i'm all by myself
a thirty eight year old man back on the shelf

The Wreckage of Salvation

my youthful transgressions
remind me that sinners
can never be winners

all the naivety
of a molting angel
complete with a mortal shell
of heron chic
lipstick and rouge of a model citizen
swaying to the rhythm
of a hedonistic beat

I want your lipstick
hot pink
smeared across the
concrete
you make me touch myself
two fingers
to the back of my throat
the maggot
in the apple of my eye

placebos, plastic handguns
and origami hearts
encrusted with idle threats
that are easily torn apart

Thanks everyone! xD

It was his last speech
He was choking and gasping for breath
Staring directly into my eyes
I can still hear his words clearly;

"I can't say I've been a gOod man
I've had my shortcomings
But I don't think I deserve this...
You don't even know me
Besides the picture of me that was given to you
Do you know I'm a father of two lovely kids
A boy and a girl
Tom and Tracy
I just bought that doll you see on the shelf for Tracy
Tomorrow she'll be two
Now I don't have another hour left
Darkness's hovering over me
Will you tell her I love her please?
I'm cold inside
I always knew I was going to die
But I never knew how
Tom and I were scheduled to go for a ride later today
You think he'll be disappointed in me for failing him?
As I lie here in a pool of my blood
Slowly exiting the world
What is reason enough to put a man to death?
Worst is a man you don't even know
How much does a man's life worth
Do you care to know?
Its easy to squeeze the trigger and let the bullet go
But do you know how many souls you hurt with just one shot
What becomes of my lovely wife?
You've ushered her into untimely widowhood
She won't get to know why her husband died
Talk more of knowing who  killed him
My kids will be orphans now
Just 5 and 2
Imagine how much they'll miss their dad
In a world so cruel...
Yes I've met my end
I'm no longer scared my friend
I only look back at those I'm leaving behind
Their existence depended solely on me
I was the breadwinner
Now you've snatched me from them
In the most gruesome manner
I guess its my fate
But you see that's what all men owe
I'm paying mine now thanks to you
But I wonder...
How do you feel when you cut others down?
People who's done nothing wrong against you
Just because you're contracted to do it
I hold no offense against you my friend
But look behind you and see those faces in the picture frame
Tell me sincerely do you feel sorry for them?
Do you?
Do you?
I can't breathe
I see a bright light
I see a tunnel
I wish I could see my wife and kids
So I can kiss them farewell
And tell them about where I'm going
Its a beautiful place free from pain
No t.e.a.r.s
No d.e.a.t.h
So long my friend..."

He choked again
Coughing out blood
Grabbed my leg tightly
And then slowly he droPped
Still holding my leg

I stood there before him dumbfounded
Tears running down my cheek
Weeping intensely
I sat down next to him
In a pool of his blood
His eyes wild open
Still staring at me
In them I saw flashes of the men I've killed
I wept even more...

The feeling of guilt was unbearable
Weighing me down like a million bricks on my head
A crisis of conscience gripped me
Suddenly I began to flee
I ran like I was being pursued
Not looking back all the way
Until I came to a church
I rushed in and knelt before the priest

Weeping...
Couldn't say nothing
I kept weeping

I wept for hours
Before summoning the strength to tell my story
The priest said prayers for me
I did my penance
Now I'm in jail
Where I'll spend the rest of my life
Yet I'm a happy man
I'm no longer a killer
Even though sometimes in the night
I still their bloody faces in my dream

Changed Me


Before I met you
I loved life
Cherished every day
Had friends
Then I met you
And you changed me
I was in love
Then
You broke my heart
I no longer have friends
I hate life
I wallow in self pity every day
Because of what you did to me
I will never love
As deeply as before
I'm not the same person
Because you
You
Changed me

Pebbles


Sister and I'd collect shiny black pebbles  
on the beach during the summers.

Smooth from the sand and the salty sea
we gathered them up  
examining each one.  

Imperfections would be tossed to the waves.

We'd line them in a border
around our towel
pretending that the world within was ours alone.  

Outside the line of carefully placed pebbles  
was the ocean
with its sound and fury
representing the turmoil of our youth.

Waves never reached inside
our peaceful space
where mother, father, sister and I lived.

On our towel there was no sign of anger or hate
because we were all together
in our perfect world.

Sister and I'd gather up the black pebbles
in a bucket to take them with us  
when we left the beach.

Eventually the days wore on
summers came and went
and our collection of pebbles grew.

When we became older, we stopped  
going to the beach with our mother and father.

The pebbles sat for years
resigned to the dust of age.

And the world that existed on our towel
protected by those momentos of our childhood
fell away.

But in adulthood the meaning of those pebbles
never left me
and I carry it with me today.

That no matter how life twisted and turned around me
within me resided the hope for happiness.

A happiness that would be built
one pebble at a time.

Good Job Cherry, you deserve it kid. Good job Kristany.

Thanks so much!!!