Forgiveness

Look closely into my eyes
and see at last, the happiness tells no lies
my heart no longer aches or throbs
waiting for you to emerge from the fog.
See how my smile finally has reemerged
after all the worry has been purged,
yes you now hear my laugh all over the room
and hear my deep sighs of peace in my tomb.
Like the proverbial zombie I rise
wiping death from my eyes,
yes, look now my friend at my hands
free of any binding bands
no longer being wrung with fret
or being beaten against the pillow so wet.
Yes, I do miss you, and I still feel pain
but now it's a drip rather than a rain
look deep into my soul and you'll see
the last tear drop has been set free

      “My home girl called me today saying pray for me
Because balloons of cocaine erupted in her pussy,
      “Crying about being stupid and should not have taken the flight
And the doctor’s saying she might not survive the night,

      “I told her she was a motherfuckin ass fool
Being someone’s international pack mule,
      “The only thing she should’ve been packing was clothes or dick
And if she make it-bitch you need to quit,

      “I told her I was on my way, because she will always be my friend
And if shit turns tragic-I will be there with her in the end,
      “I decided not to call her mom, she can burn in hell
The trifling ass bitch abandoned her when she was twelve,

      “Ten years later I’ve been her protector and provider
This failure on my part set my soul on fire,
      “I know it was her choice and a personal responsibility
But the shit was like stage four cancer eating inside of me,

      “The last time I saw her the situation ended real ugly
Because I found out she lied about her pregnancy,
      “Not only to me, but also the baby daddy
And when she got an abortion his ass was not happy,

      “In a cold-blooded way I told her to slow her ass down
The response I got was fuck you CS and her leaving town,
      “That harsh memory was several years ago
As I pulled up in the hospital parking lot real slow,

      “Arriving at her room she was half-sleep watching TV
And instantly start crying when she noticed me,
      “Her first words was ‘I’m sorry’ as I kissed her on the forehead
While she scooted over so I could sit on the side of the bed,

      “For hours we talked, cussed and joked-having a good old time
Until our stomachs hurt from laughter and we both were crying,
      “Then looking into her eyes I watched them lose that shine
As the silence was penetrated by the sound of her EKG flatline”.

Deeper than the Pelion Sea
and still waters of twilight
sweeter than ambrosia
vanishing sins
aches and pains
exonerating the flame
of dark's misguided fools
while listening to the innocent
deeper than the Pelion Sea