SMALL FEEL

                                                 **Her**
        She's still after me, she's still in my mind. around most corners sometimes right by my side. She got what she wanted and managed to take it all, even the place my baby's call there home.
        She tells me things that I know are not right, things like you wont change you need me in your life. Along with her comes not only pain but hurt. She'll watch as you loose everything you've been working towards.
        In no time at all she will take it all. She'll push out your family and all of your friends. She puts you out, out in the dark and all the ones you once cared about. The people the ones who love us, the ones who cared oh so much.
       Shes now got them, there scared and there mad mainly all for us. It hurts so bad as she pulls each and every thread. I'm so weak I just want to be dead. Or at least that's what she wants in my head. She brings nothing but evil and torment right between us as we lay in our bed with regret.
       She takes all your strength as you beg and beg. Euphoric and strong she'll sing you that song but deep down inside you see it you feel it. You tell yourself Kayla, you've got to snap out of this before your to far gone. She allows me to hear only when she wants.
      Its those faints voices I've always loved, so soft so sweet so quiet. Are you guys out there? Shhhh.... honey your mommy's still right here. It feels like it took me so long all those depressed and sleepless nights all the pain and the shakes from inside.
     The fear and the hurt BOOM she's right here. This time she's more stronger than before stronger than ever. Please don't let her back in. don't let her control this. Lets tell her she is not welcome in our lives anymore. Cant you see she brings our lives only heartache and sorrow and always bad karma.
      Bad choices are her favorite motto, there how you get what you need or so you begin to think. All those bad things now is all you can think. She ends up landing you in jail, now you really cant stop thinking all kinds of shit inside your head. Hey wake up as they tell you in there, come on move your ass ahead get your dinner tray, then after that I'm taking your ass's to rec.
        She wants us to only think all about those bad memories. She's got me drained my mind is hallucinating. Half of my days are just blurs anymore or vicious and scary thoughts. She gets called the devils drug by so many. She takes you so willing all because you chose to invite her in.
        Her mark is now on me, why was I so stupid? I knew that her ink would never wash off me. Her name my friend is the kind in your nightmares the one who says so calmly here take my hand let me lead you somewhere sad.
        Methamphetamines or Ice whichever you decide..........
You don't need her anymore don't do this again. She wont stop shes begging and driving you insane again and again. calling out your name she keeps asking you if she can come in. Please lets walk away from her again. Oh no I think I know her plan. I really do know it she told me last time. Her plan once we are here is this time I'm taking them there not going to win. There mine thanks guys for putting up a nice fight again and again.

Curtains drawn over eyes
Ears closed wide,
You're not listening to me...
Not being cross or sore not trying to boss or bore..
Care for you,is beyond reproach
No doubt
You should know yet
I'm afraid how far it's allowed to go...
Will it cloak you...in the Underworld with Hades?
Ignore it like gum on your shoes
from walking down the street
Will you think of it a burden...
Dragging 'round a Valentine Achilles?...
Bastard thought cast in an Orphanage of Dreams.

I've walked the lines
Between being depraved or divine
I'm sitting in the rear
On stand by
Sipping on a glass of fine wine
With a slice of turpitude
On the side
Plead to walk in the light
Yet darkness curls its fingers
Around ophan notions in my mind
 Besides, you have to crawl
Through your dark tunnels
To bathe in light on the other side